This just didn't seem right to me...
I can't believe I'm doing this...
I'm holding her in my arms, standing in a blue liquid inside a broken down church. Her church. Many pedals randomly drifted down around us, but not near the water, but I did not turn my attentions away from her. In a way, I felt this was my fault. Though, I didn't know why. I was more concerned on why did this have to happen? Why did someone so important to me have to follow another that was also of great value..?
Her beautiful emerald orbs were now closed, never to be seen in daylight again. Her existence was as small to the world as the Cetra themselves...
A pain wracked at my heart as I stared down at her calm expression, seeing a few strands of her hair just brisk her forehead. My eyes narrowed somewhat, and I just couldn't help but bite my bottom lip. I didn't want to let her go. I couldn't let her go...I just wished that I could have said something to her before she had passed on, telling her how I really felt. And now, she's gone. She will never know how I feel now.
It's now a lost feeling that was taken away from me.
Bowing my head, I closed my eyes, forcing many tears that threatened to escape back and instead I made it up by biting down on my lip just a bit harder. I knew I was being watched by our friends as they stood behind me, but I did not care. They knew how I felt...they felt this heart aching pain that just couldn't seem to go away.
I held her cold body close to mine just a fragment of a moment, wishing I could just see her smile once more. That gorgeous smile that somewhat always struck me a grin too whenever she turned my way. I tried to remember the last time she smiled at me...only moments before Septhiroth had taken her precious life away did she smile at me. That smile will always stay with me, in my heart, mind and soul.
Straightening myself to a better posture, I slowly lowered my arms as I fought even more against my will to cry. I placed her on top of the water, and forced my hands the courage to move out from underneath of her.
I watch, forcing myself not to cry as her fragile body slowly sank into the water that surrounded us. Her face held such a peaceful look, and her hands were held together in a praying gesture. Her long locks of brown hair that was tied into a braid drifted behind her, and her beautiful pink gown gently waved from side to side as this woman was now being taken by the soft waves. I knew then that she was now at peace. Finally the world that had denied her so has given her chance to live on better in another world. She is no longer tortured by that pain. The pain of long time loneliness.
It was then that I felt something moist glide down my right cheek, and I knew right away it was a tear.
Why did I feel this way? I had always known that this beautiful woman had loved Zack, but somehow..I had a feeling she had a hidden affection for me too. Over the times of our travels, I had slowly grown to love her..maybe that is what was causing my heart so much pain and suffering. I didn't understand this word love, and in a way, I still don't. It was so complicated..and yet, so fragile.
Her figure slowly started to fade, and somehow I managed to get my speechless voice to work. With a final glance of her face, I whispered out to her in a desperate call for help.
"Aerith...I..I love you...and.." I bowed my head once more, and the single tear that left my eye to glide down my cheek finally dripped into the liquid, making a ripple.
"...Don't ever leave my side..."
And then, she was gone.