Sleep, by Bakaness
"When you're an insomniac, you're never really asleep, and never really awake… the world turns unreal, it loses the power to move you… it's just a copy… of a copy… of a copy… of a copy… of a copy." Fight Club (paraphrased… gomen…)
Lack of sleep does funny things to a guy, you know? First, you're just tired… but that's easy enough to handle. Then you get muddle-headed, and you alternate between hyperness and lethargy… treatable by caffeine and sugar in high enough quantities. It's when the world turns grey, and starts shrinking to a narrow circle, you know it's bad. After that, you start seeing things… think that aren't there… sometimes it's pretty obvious, like that time I saw those mobile suits turn into pastel rabbits… that was freaky.
But sometimes you see things that aren't as obvious… but just as impossible. Like that one time I thought I saw Wu-man kiss a picture of Zechs in the newspaper… that was weird. Or that time I thought I saw Quatre riding on a lion… with Trowa standing nearby, watching and smiling, with his hair slicked OUT of his face… now THAT was weird… And then a few days ago… I saw the strangest hallucination… Heero leave his laptop on and unattended… with a file open… that wasn't a mission report. I went over and read it… it looked like a diary entry. And it was about me… now THAT freaked me out… so I decided that I REALLY needed some sleep, nightmares or no. I tried to sleep… but all I could do was lie there and think about what I thought I had seen… "I'm only happy when he's near… I want to touch him… to feel his hair… I think I love him." My mind whirled all night. Not surprisingly, no sleep for me.
"When you're an insomniac, you're never really asleep, and never really awake… the world turns unreal, it loses the power to move you… it's just a copy… of a copy… of a copy… of a copy… of a copy." Fight Club (paraphrased… gomen…)
Lack of sleep does funny things to a guy, you know? First, you're just tired… but that's easy enough to handle. Then you get muddle-headed, and you alternate between hyperness and lethargy… treatable by caffeine and sugar in high enough quantities. It's when the world turns grey, and starts shrinking to a narrow circle, you know it's bad. After that, you start seeing things… think that aren't there… sometimes it's pretty obvious, like that time I saw those mobile suits turn into pastel rabbits… that was freaky.
But sometimes you see things that aren't as obvious… but just as impossible. Like that one time I thought I saw Wu-man kiss a picture of Zechs in the newspaper… that was weird. Or that time I thought I saw Quatre riding on a lion… with Trowa standing nearby, watching and smiling, with his hair slicked OUT of his face… now THAT was weird… And then a few days ago… I saw the strangest hallucination… Heero leave his laptop on and unattended… with a file open… that wasn't a mission report. I went over and read it… it looked like a diary entry. And it was about me… now THAT freaked me out… so I decided that I REALLY needed some sleep, nightmares or no. I tried to sleep… but all I could do was lie there and think about what I thought I had seen… "I'm only happy when he's near… I want to touch him… to feel his hair… I think I love him." My mind whirled all night. Not surprisingly, no sleep for me.