Moments Lost

It's been three months since Dani died. And let me tell you that it's been the worst three months of my life. She was my world. Dani made me happy when she would come over and spend time with me. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that anything as awful as that Friday night would ever happen to us.

It feels like it was just yesterday.

"Ashley! Come on I'm leaving to go to Jason's house." Dani was getting into the car and she was plastered. I was not going to let her drive like that. Of course I wasn't all that sober either but I was still better than her. So I grabbed the keys from her and got in the drivers' seat.

"I knew you wouldn't leave me." Dani leaned over to my side and wrapped her arms around me while planting a big kiss on my lips. I swear I love that girl.

Dani and I got together last summer when I finally came out to my mom. Apparently mom could already tell because of how Dani and I acted with each other. Shit I didn't even know up until last year when Dani told me that she loved me. It of course threw me for a loop but I knew that I had feelings for her. Everything took me longer to realize what I was feeling. Dani waited for me. She said she would wait as long as it took for me. That's how strong our love was.

"Are you going to stay the night tonight?" Dani asked me as we were driving to Jason's house at 12 o'clock at night. I glanced her way and she had this cheesy grin on her face and I knew exactly what she was thinking of.

"That sounds good to me." I smiled back with my crinkled nose that always made her go crazy. She then leaped up and down clapping her hands like she was the happiest kid alive. I wasn't paying attention to the road like I should had, more like I was paying attention to the women that I love on the side of me. She had me in a trance as I looked right at her. Her dark brown hair that shined from the light from the moon. Her beautiful green eyes that always made me want to melt in her arms. Her perfect body that always screamed at me when we were together or anything else we would be doing.

Hahaha. Sorry my thoughts are getting away with me.

I should have been paying attention to the road. I shouldn't have been drinking like I did. Because of my stupid actions everything went into slow motion those last few minutes of my life and Dani's.

"ASHLEY!" Dani screamed at me and my head darted back to the road and right in front of me was a man in the middle of the street. I swerved off the road and that's when I rammed into a pole. An electric pole that didn't even budge but it sure sent Dani flying through the windshield. Well that's what everyone tells me that happened. I was unconscious for two days from slamming my head against my steering wheel. I didn't know anything that had happened to Dani. I didn't know that the accident had caused so much trauma to her head that she died that next morning in the hospital while I was lying in a bed with nothing really wrong with me but cuts and bruises.

I killed my girlfriend because I wasn't paying attention to the road like I was supposed to. I was driving when I was intoxicated and I killed the love of my life. I wish that I had died instead of her. To know that she wouldn't be in my life anymore put me in a big depression and I blocked myself from everyone.

Never will I love anyone like I loved Dani.

I've had so many people in my life try to comfort me but not once did I listen to a word that they had to say to me. Dani was the only voice I wanted to hear.

Of course that just made mom decide that she couldn't really handle me being the way that I am so she shipped me to my dad's In Los Angeles with my half-sister Kyla. So here she is packing up my life and shipping me clear across the country. Anything to get me out her hair. I didn't really care though. I figured that no place nor person would change the way that I felt.

xxxx

My flight had arrived into LAX at seven at night and all I wanted to do was curl up into a ball and cut out the world around me.

I walked down the terminal not really noticing anyone around me instead looking like a zombie. That's what my mom called me when we were driving to the airport. She was correct about though.

Forgive me for not being happy after killing my girlfriend. Forgive me for not being the person I once was because now I didn't have the other half of my heart.

As soon as I walked out of the terminal Kyla stood there with dad. They looked at me as if they didn't really know what to do next. I walked over to them and as soon as my bag hit the floor dad pulled me into his arms and hugged me so tight. I was not going to cry. I was not going to cry.

I cried. I cried like a baby.

After all of my emotions were released we grabbed my luggage and went home. Well I guess it's my home now. I don't really know what else to call it.

xxxx

"Ashley I signed you up for school. You start the day after tomorrow. Is that ok?" Dad told me as I sat in the back on the car looking out the window not really paying attention to what he was saying to me. Well more like I didn't want to hear a word that was coming out of his mouth.

"Do I have a choice?" I finally spoke out.

"I guess not." Dad responded to me.

The rest of the ride to the house was quiet and I was really glad for that. Kyla didn't really say anything to me. I guess she didn't know what to say to me. Which I'm happy about because silence was something I craved.

The house was huge. Dad being as rich as he was didn't shock me when I saw the size of the house. He always had to go all out when he wanted something. When we pulled up there was a car filled with kids my age sitting there looking like they were waiting for someone. They were obviously Kyla's friends.

We all started loading out of the car and Kyla went running up to the tall, dark hair guy as she ran into his arms while planting a disgustingly display of affection on his lips. I'm guessing that's her boyfriend. Hmm didn't know anything about him. I've heard about all the other ones but not this one. Then there stood a brunette chick with her arms crossed over her chest. Just her stance made me dislike her already. Lastly there was a blonde sitting on the back of the car looking my way. What was her problem?

I grabbed my things from the back of the jeep and started towards the house when Kyla called my name.

Don't stop Ashley. Just keep walking.

"Ashley!" Damn it!

"WHAT!" I yelled back at her with irritation in my voice. Why couldn't she just leave me alone?

"I want to introduce you to my boyfriend and my friends." So I stood there and acted like I gave a damn.

"This is Aiden. That's Madison and the one sitting on the car over there is Spencer." I glanced at all of them and didn't really make any gesture towards them at all. I turned back to the house and walked away without even a hello to anyone there.

I don't need this. I just want to be left alone.

(A/N: This story was already posted many moons ago from an old account. I thought I would bring it back on my new one. Enjoy!)