A/N This is an idea for a new fanfiction. Tell me if you like it and want me to continue please. I'm still writing Happily Ever Afterwhere? but i want to write this at the same time LoL
Edward leaves like in New moon. This is after Edward's left and Bella had not gone into zombie but she is depressed. She doesn't make friends with Jacob and she does go looking for the meadow. This is while she searches.
It's weird, I thought that I wouldn't be able to live or survive without him in my life. I'm not saying it's gone back to normal. It's hard. But not as hard as I thought it would be. True it felt like someone had punched a hole through my heart. It was his absence that seemed to be making the hole. I wondered if the words he said to me in the forest were true, or did he have ulterior motives? I'm trying to find somewhere where I can feel his presence. I've been to his house and it hold's nothing of him or his family. I didn't even go in, the house could have looked the same inside or it may have been empty. I don't know which one would have been worse to see and to handle. The next place I'm trying is our meadow. It has to hold something of him. The quiet of the forest was calming; I could forget how my life had been ruined after my birthday party. In this forest I could believe that he left to protect me rather than the words he said to me. After that day I wanted to break down, I didn't want to feel anything. His absence seemed to diminish after a while though, I found it was getting easier and easier to live the longer it was, as though I was falling out of love with him. Or it was like there was someone else coming. It was horrible thinking I had lost that out of this world love feeling I had had with Edward all I could hope that he would find someone who was worthy to spend eternity with him. I hoped I was walking in the right direction for the meadow. I started from the same point; it was just a matter of which way to go into the trees after that. After a couple of hours of walking I had gotten used to the rhythm and had managed to get into a fast pace and the amount of times I had tripped had lessened. I was about to give up and head back home when the light in between the trees was brightening. I sped up to get out of the trees pressing into me and I stumbled out into the meadow. It was as beautiful as the last time I came here with him. Without him there I could appreciate it but it didn't feel right or whole without his presence. He didn't linger here. I crouched on the floor expecting the hole in my heart to split open again. Strangely it didn't explode but it wasn't whole. There was still pain there but it was diminishing. I don't know how long I lay there for. I was thinking and the direction my thoughts were going in was not good for my health. Suddenly from behind me there came a series of growls as from the forest in front of me out stepped a leopard. The leopard was a silky black colour and it stood at the edge in a threatening manner. I could feel a pull towards this creature, it was strange. I couldn't explain it. Then it leapt over me and stood as though on guard in front of me. I didn't understand his protective pose until from the trees out stepped 5 large wolves. These must be the 'bears' that people had been seeing. The wolves stepped out from the trees and their colours ranged from a deep black to a russet-brown one at the back.