You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life

Dean was walking down the street when a familiar face caught his attention. He paused his gait and just stared. He tried to stick to the shadows but he locked eyes with the blue-eyed man across the street.

Dean's heart broke when he noticed the man standing next to Castiel. Dean continued walking and headed to the bar a few blocks over. As he walked, he thought back to that awful night a year ago.

~1 year ago~

Dean came home from work late and he knew he had to make it up to his boyfriend somehow. He had bought a bouquet of Castiel's favorite flowers. He called out to his boyfriend, but got no reply.

He searched all over their apartment and found Cas in their bedroom, sitting on the edge of their bed and a suitcase at his feet. Needless to say, Dean was really confused.

"Cas? What's going on?"

Castiel stood and faced Dean. He took a deep breath and let it out before he continued.

"Dean, there's no easy way of saying this so here it goes. I'm leaving you. I want you to know that I still love you, but I can't do this anymore. Goodbye Dean."

Cas picked up his suitcase and walked out the door, leaving a perplexed Dean behind. The flowers slipped from his hand as he continued to stare at the spot where Cas was just standing.

~End flashback~

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and falls
Like we never loved at all

Dean arrived at the bar and paused outside to wipe the tears away from his face. He entered and walked up to the bar and ordered a shot of whiskey.

Dean was on his third shot when he felt a presence next to him. He looked to his right and immediately regretted it. He downed his shot and signaled the bartender for another and completely ignored the person next to him.

You, I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is?
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did

Cas stared down at the bar top, not really knowing what to say. He took a deep breath and turned to face Dean.

"Hello Dean."

Dean slammed his glass down and turned to face Cas. "Hello? That's all you have to say?! Hello?"

"What do you want me to say?" he asked, not meeting Dean's eyes.

Dean was majorly pissed. "How about an explanation for why you walked out on me a year ago? That would be a good start." he signaled for another shot and downed it as soon as it was in front of him.

Cas frowned at how much Dean's drinking but didn't say anything. He sighed. "I met someone else and we just, ya know, clicked. I thought leaving you was the better choice than staying and living a lie. I didn't want to hurt you."

"Well, newsflash, you did. I spent the last year wondering where I went wrong. You cut me deep Cas." he stood and threw down some bills to cover his drinks and left the bar.

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and falls
Like we never loved at all

Cas sighed and followed Dean out of the bar. He noticed how much Dean was staggering when he left and he didn't want Dean getting hurt.

"Dean wait!" he called out.

Dean groaned and continued walking. "Leave me alone Cas. I have nothing more to say to you."

Cas stopped in the middle of the sidewalk and watched as Dean disappeared around the corner. He watched the corner for a bit longer before following after Dean again.

"Dean!" he yelled.

This time, Dean stopped and turned around. "I'm done listening to your excuses! Apparently, I wasn't enough for you so you can go back to your boy toy and leave me the hell alone! I don't need you!" he was heaving as he finished his tirade and walked away.

Cas was having none of it. He ran up behind Dean and turned him around.

"Listen, I'm sorry that I hurt you but it wasn't my intention to do so." he said.

Dean huffed and pulled out of Cas' grasp. "I told you. I don't want nor need your lame ass excuses or apologies. So just go back from where you came from and forget about me. It worked the first time."

Cas stood there, shocked, as he watched Dean leave again.

Did you forget the magic?
Did you forget the passion?
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me?

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and falls
Like we never loved at all

Dean entered his apartment and leaned back against the door. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. He pushed off the door and walked into the living room.

He looked around before he picked up the lamp and threw it across the room. He destroyed the entire living room and when he finished, his chest was heaving and he slid down the wall to sit on the floor.

He hid his head in his arms and finally let out everything he'd bottled up the past year. He curled into himself on the floor and ended up falling asleep from the emotional breakdown.

Cas entered his own apartment and saw his boyfriend waiting for him. "How'd it go?"

Cas sighed and curled into his boyfriend's side. "Awful. He hates me and he's still hurt." he relaxed into the comfort of his boyfriend, but he could not get that look of hurt on Dean's face out of his head.