BluePhantom15: Okay, so here is a super short one shot in Kratos's perspective. Well, more like a somewhat poetic drabble. Anyways, it short but I hope you will enjoy n_n
Disclaimer: I don't own Tales of Symphonia.
Back Before I Lost Them Both
I looked at him and I saw her.
I remembered her, and I couldn't breathe.
And all I could think about was the day I lost them both.
And how I regret not looking further; how I should have moved my feet.
Because now I look at him and wish I could go back.
Back before my life turned over and I was smiling chasing his little feet.
Playing tag with him in the garden, lifting him to the sky on a starry night and singing to him before he fell asleep.
Decorating the tree on Christmas Eve, making snowmen out of autumn leaves and passing around the turkey as we said thank God for the spring bees.
Back to when I saw him take his first steps, back to when he climbed his first tree.
Back to when he enjoyed spending all of his time with me.
But he's all grown up now, and he doesn't need someone to help him fall asleep.
Doesn't need someone to help him see the stars, doesn't need me to comfort him while he weeps.
He grew up without a father or a mother, as I grew old in heart without a wife and a son.
Wishing to those faint stars above I could go back and change what I've done.
And give him all of my carefully masked love.
I would go back and time and change it, but I can't. So I don't wish for my eyes to linger on him anymore then they have.
Because when I look at him I see her.
And when I remember her I think of the day I lost them both.
Constantly regretting not looking further, cursing myself for not looking down every street.
Wishing I could go back.
Back to when I was smiling chasing after his little feet.
Back before I lost them both.