Disclaimer: I don't own twilight or any of it's characters. The super author Stephanie Meyer does!
"Edward. No one is home but us!" I couldn't help the frown that slowly slid down my face as I watched my husband sitting on our large cold bed trying to ignore me, reading some silly magazine that I knew he wasn't the least bit interested in.
"Finally some peace and quiet. It's rare occasions like these I'm glad I can't hear your thoughts." He hadn't looked up from his page, even when he was addressing me.
I felt remnants of my strongest human emotions surfacing. If I could still produce tears they would have been streaming down my face. I turned, defeated, and stomped out of our bedroom, slamming the door on my way out. I knew he hadn't meant for it to come out that way, but for the first time since I'd known Edward, it really seemed like he wanted to be away from me. I was hurt. I hadn't had sex with my husband in almost two months. Being a vampire and never sleeping makes two months seem twice as long as it would seem to a human. We'd spent those long sleepless nights together, but strangely distant. We'd watch a movie or read, never touching, never speaking of why we weren't blissfully rolling around on our big white bed like the three other couples in the house.
I sat down own the piano bench and let my mind wander to a time when Edward and I had first begun our piano lessons. I had asked him to teach me because it was a part of his life I wanted to infiltrate and be a part of. When Edward played it moved my still heart.
"Yes love just like that, good. Now keep tempo in mind as you move to the bridge…perfect. You're a fast learner Bella!" He stood behind me as I played for him. His fingers were absent mindedly playing with a strand of my hair as he watched my fingers glide up and down the keys. I wasn't nearly as good he was. I didn't know if I could ever accomplish a talent like his.
"Well I'm being taught by the best." I responded to his encouragement. I ended the song and looked up into his smoldering eyes as he reached out to brush my face. "You know, Piano isn't the only new thing I want to try." I said, mischief dancing across my expression.
"Oh." He said looking amused. "What is that?" he continued, raising his eyebrows a fraction of an inch.
I strained my ears listening for sounds of my family doing various things around the house. Alice and Jasper were playing chess in the next room over. I could hear Jasper's muffled complaints as Alice kept predicting his next move. Rose and Emmet were away for a few days hunting in Alaska and Carlisle and Esme were we're in their bedroom watching a movie. Hmmm, I still felt embarrassed and I tried to avoid doing anything with Edward while the rest of my vampire family could hear, no matter how quiet we tried to be.
"Let's go to our meadow." I said slyly. "I'll race you there!"
Just like that we were off, running out of the house and through the woods. I began to feel the high that always accompanied these runs. I could hear Edward chasing me, not far behind. He was just as fast as I was, but I had the feeling he was letting me win this time.
"Good. That means he's in a giving mood." I thought to myself.
A few seconds later the trees started to thin and I slowed my pace. When we reached the clearing I collapsed into the soft grass, not from exhaustion, but from joy. I was laughing lightly, and inhaling the rich scent of the forest and the wild flowers when Edward laid down beside me. I turned my head to meet his gaze.
"I love you." I whispered.
"As I love you" He whispered back. Then he gently rolled on top of me supporting himself with his arms, and began to kiss me with passion that could, and would ultimately resolve in our love making.
"Wait…" I had initiated this for a reason. If I let my god like husband distract me from my original goal I would never get it done.
"I can't wait Bella I must have you now!" He grunted in a low husky voice that made my legs quiver with excitement.
"I know." I replied gently pushing him off of me as a straddled him in a sitting up position. "I want to take control today."
"All right." He looked at me hesitantly but let me continue.
I pushed him flat on his back but remained in my position. I slowly began to unbutton my blouse, my eyes never leaving his as his head perked up and he pushed himself up a bit onto his elbows to get a slightly better view.
The sun was well hidden behind the clouds so my skin didn't sparkle as it would have on a fair weather day. I discarded my shirt and flung to the side still capturing Edwards hungry gaze. He tried to reach up and help me undo the clasp on the front of my bra but I slapped his hand away.
"Don't touch, just let me do this please." I said with a smile. "Trust me you'll be more than happy in a few minutes." He looked a little worried for a half a second then his expression turned back to curiosity. "What are you going to do my love?"
"Just do what I say and don't ask questions ok?" I giggled. I had been thinking about this moment for weeks. I could feel myself getting hot and moist with anticipation, and I knew Edward could smell my arousal. I took off my bra and flung it in the same manner as I had done with my shirt. For the first time today Edward's eyes left mine and gazed, instead, and my exposed chest.
"You're beautiful." Edward exclaimed. "You amaze me every time."
I smiled. I leaned in and pinned his hands above his head. I began to slowly kiss his neck and moved up to nibble on his ear.
"Ahhh. Ahh my Bella! My love you're driving me crazy! Let me touch you." He was begging breathlessly.
"Just wait. Please play along!" I pouted knowing he couldn't resist it.
"All right fine, as long as you are well aware of what you're doing to me!" His eyes were alive with fire and lust as he skimmed my bare upper body. I could feel the longing in his groin as his erection swelled under me. He wasn't the only one going crazy with anticipation. I was so wet that my underwear were completely soaked through. The pounding feeling in my womanhood hadn't been this strong since that first night with Edward.
I decided to forgo the well being of Edward's designer shirt and ripped it off his body rather than taking the time to unbutton it. Oh well, Alice could kill me later. Right now the only thing on my mind was pleasing Edward, my husband, my love.
He laughed at the sound of silk ripping off his hard perfect body, "anxious are we?"
I moved my hands down to his belt, this was my moment. I had waited a long time to try this and it was now or never. Despite the fact that I knew Edward loved me and loved being with me, I was still nervous and self conscious about making love to him. He rocked my world and gave me multiple mind blowing orgasms every time we had sex. I knew that he obviously enjoyed sex to, but I wanted him to experience something to put us on equal footing. I wanted him to stop seeing me as his virginal, breakable wife, but as a sex goddess equal to him.
I continued to kiss his neck and ran my tongue down his jaw line in response to moans of a varying variety. I managed to undo his belt with my trembling hand. Why was I so nervous? Could he feel my anxiousness? I couldn't let him. He would never let me continue with what I was about to do If he thought I wasn't 100% into it. But of course I was.
I unbuttoned his pants and slid his jeans down to his ankles. I continued to do the same with his underwear and his hard, huge, man hood was exposed. I kissed his chest letting my stomach rest against his throbbing member.
"Oh god Bella! Take me inside you love. Touch me please!"
"Who's anxious now?" I said. Even though I didn't reveal it in my voice I was dying with lust. I needed him in me. But I'd have to wait. I couldn't be selfish now. I had a job to do.
I continued to kiss him until my mouth was at his belly button and my breasts were on either side of his dick. I slid back and forth slowly, letting the soft skin of my chest caress his penis.
"BELLA WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" My head snapped up.
"I told you to not ask questions." I eyed him playfully.
"I don't care how good it feels; I won't let you do that." If he wouldn't let me do that then how would he be ok with me going down on him? It was now or never.
"Fine. I won't do that anymore. Lay back down." He eyed me suspiciously but complied. I knew that I would have to dive right in and do it. I traced my finger along the perimeter outside his cock. The only way I could get away with this is if it felt too good for him to stop me.
"Bella stop teasing or I'm taking control." He said it with a hint of menace in his sexy husky voice.
This was the moment. I grabbed his cock in my hand started sucking on the tip. His cum tasted strangely good. I hadn't expected that. I could hear his protest but I knew I had won. I slid him farther into my mouth and down my throat, I guess it's a good thing vampires don't have a gag reflex.
I began bobbing my head up and down, fucking his dick with my mouth. I was so hot. I was getting so turned on. I hadn't expected this. Giving him this exotic new pleasure was making me just as horny. I could feel wetness dripping under my skirt and down my thighs. I started to moan and use my tongue to massage him.
"Bella I'm going to kill you for this. Bella, Bella!"His voice faded into incoherent moaning. I ignored his empty threats. I went faster with my thrusting and soon his hips were coming up to meet my mouth. He started setting the pace faster and faster.
I couldn't believe I'd won so easily. It was almost too easy…
I could feel that he was about to come so I stopped abruptly. After all, the throbbing between my legs couldn't be ignored forever.
"What are you doing now?" His breath was ragged and his eyes were wide with hunger.
"I'm fucking you." I couldn't believe the words coming out of my mouth! I didn't use profanity in front of Edward. But now, all walls were down and all barriers broken. I ripped my skirt and underwear off and I jumped on top of him and slid his hard wet cock into me. The relief was so wonderful. I looked down into his eyes and was shocked with what I saw. His eyes were almost black with hunger and lust. His expression was similar to what he looked like while he was hunting. In that instant I knew I had lost the control.
He sat up. As he did his cock moved inside me pressing against my g spot.
"YES!" I screamed shaking with pleasure.
He slid out of me and grabbed my waist. He turned me over so that I was on all fours and kneeled behind me. This was not something I had expected. He entered me hard. His hands were gripping my hips almost to the point of pain. He pulled me into him with each hard thrust. It was amazing. I couldn't have predicted it would go so well. This was obviously not our average love making. This was straight up fucking and I loved it. I moaned and he grunted.
"Harder, harder!" I moaned. He complied with…was it a whimper? I could feel the heat rising from my core simultaneous with the expansion of his erection pressing against my inner walls. He was so hard and big inside me.
With one final long thrust I came hard. Waves of heat crashed into every inch of my being. Then he was coming to. I could feel him filling me, slowing his thrusting as my ass hit his rock hard abdomen for the final time. I fell to the ground breathing hard, laughing, and writhing in post orgasmic bliss.
He was on the ground to. "Wow. Edward that was…" I turned to him. His head was in his hands. His shoulders were shaking in silent, tearless, sobs.
I crawled to him. "Edward! Edward what's wrong?" Shit.
"Is that how you want to be treated?" He looked up from his hands, his eyes full of furry and sorrow. "Like a dog? Or a whore?" He was yelling. "I should have stopped you, why couldn't I?"
"Edward please! This is what I wanted…I started it"
"NO!" His shout made a flock of birds scatter from a nearby tree. He was on his feet pulling his pants on "You thought I wanted this. You did this because you thought I wasn't pleased with you."
"No no listen please!" I was on my knees begging him. All post sex happiness and vanished from my body.
"I'm an animal. I obviously can't control these sick fantasies. I never meant to treat you like this or degrade you. I'm sorry I made you feel inferior enough to try something like this. I… I love you."
Then he was gone. He was running through the trees back towards home. I was left in the meadow sobbing. What have I done? I should have known better then to expect anything less from Edward. He was a gentleman and viewed these sorts of sexual exploits to be outside the realm of acts of love no matter how good they felt. Now I would have to deal with the consequences…
However, I had no Idea that the consequence would be two solid months with not so much as a touch let alone sex. My fingers drummed the keys idly. We hadn't spoken of that day since. On one hand it was infuriating that Edward wouldn't even talk about it, on the other hand I was sick with worry over what I had done to create this sexless marriage.
It didn't help that Emmett had noticed our abstinence a few days after his return from hunting.
"It's been pretty quite lately, you two had enough already?" He had teased us one night during a family movie.
Edward's responsive growl was so menacing that I jumped out of my seat startled. Carlisle actually stepped between the two of them in an attempt to calm Edward down. Edward's face was enough to shut even Emmett up.
The others couldn't help but to take notice in the changes between us. Alice had of course seen what had happened and tried to talk to me about it. I was so deeply distraught that she gave up and said, "Give it time."
I had even considered asking Jasper to push Edward into the mood so that we could have sex again and I could show him that things could go back to normal. But would they? Even if we did rekindle our sexual encounters would it ever be the same? No. There would always be that line never to be crossed, an eternity of boundaries.
My attention moved back to the piano at hand. I began to play the melody Edward taught me at our last, fateful, piano lesson. He hadn't touched the thing since then. The piano sounded light and happy under my finger tips. Glad for some attention, "Me and you both buddy." I mumbled to myself.
I hadn't heard Edward come down the stairs.
"Bella we need to talk."
It's my first fanfic. This is sort of the middle of a story I've been thinking about. Let me know what you guys think! Should I continue my story and fill it out more with previous chapters. Should I finish it and let it be a one shot lemon sort of deal? Let me know what you think, if you like it whatever! Review!