When a Playboy falls in love Chapter 1: My Solitary Life, a gakuen alice fanfic

Konnichiwa minna-san!!

Gomen ne… I haven't continued my "Just So You Know" story for a long time.

Hhmmm,… How can I say this,… I can't think of a beautiful scene to continue,…

Also,… I wanted to try to write something more emotional…

Oh yeah,...

I replaced this Chapter,...

I just fixed something,...

Gomen ne for my mistakes,...

it's all up to you if you want to read it again...

So here it is,…

"WHEN A PLAYBOY FALLS IN LOVE"

Summary

A tragic accident triggered her heart disease. Now, time is running out. She went back to her homeland to enjoy her remaining time, but, will her remaining time be enjoyable especially when she knows she could die instantly if she doesn't stop herself from falling in love with a playboy.

CHAPTER 1: MY SOLITARY LIFE

Life. Yeah, it's really full of surprises. I have been one of its victims. I was completely caught off guard. Who would have thought that a healthy, cheerful & naïve girl like me could be its victim? I am completely innocent. I haven't done anything wrong. Why me? Of all people, why me? Why did it have to be me? I want to despise everything, everyone around me. Why did they have to be so lucky? I am the good little girl but then, Kami-sama chose me to suffer? What have I done in my past life for me to suffer like this?

But, no matter how I say I despise everything, I know in my heart I cannot undo those things. I just have to live, for my mother. I will show her how much I care for her, before I completely leave this harsh world.

I looked out the window. The sun is rising again. How much time is left for me? How many sunrises am I supposed to see before the darkness completely engulfs me?

How I envy those little birds that fly so carelessly in the blue sky. I was like them before those accidents happened. So carefree, as if nothing matters.

But, I have to deal with it for now.

Yes, for now.

I overheard Mom's conversation with Subaru-niichan, my doctor. Subaru-niichan is my best friend's brother, that's why I call him oniichan, not doctor.

Back to the topic, I overheard their conversation. They thought I was asleep, which is I was about to do. But, when I heard my mom ask the question we both dreaded to hear. I become fully alert.

flashback

That night is just like most night. Same old boring ones, after taking my medicine, I should go to sleep because they said I shouldn't stress myself. But who would have thought that this night would change my view about life itself.

"Subaru, I wanted to ask you for a long time, this question keeps bugging me. I know that you know I am gonna get hurt if the answer is a yes, but please, answer me truthfully. I am ready now & I will accept everything that you will say regarding about Mikan's health." I heard my mother say to Subaru-niichan. Her voice, I can sense in it, is filled with worry, anxiousness, & dreadfulness.

I suddenly got fully alert. The drowsiness that was in me suddenly left. My heart started to beat faster, which is I remind you, not a very good thing. If this continues, my illness would only worsen. I tried to calm myself down, which I have done successfully without anyone noticing. I focused myself on listening to their voices.

"Yuka-san," Subaru-niichan said, "I know this hard for you, but I think now is the time for you to know the truth. I know you are incredibly strong, not only physically but emotionally too." He paused. He looked at my mom & took her hand in his own.

" You have managed to endure those misfortunes that came on you amazingly. I really am sorry. I have to add one more misfortune to you. I have done my best but it seems, she will not make it." He paused once again to let my mom react. I heard inaudible sobs & I know that came from my mom.

Subaru-niichan took a deep breath & continued," She only has more than 3 or 4 months left. I know I am an excellent doctor, but it seems I failed in rescuing the life of my precious little sister's best friend & the daughter of the person whom I considered as my second mother." My mom cried loudly & Subaru-niichan embraced her as he patted her back & tried to console her.

I was shocked. Speechless. I can't believe it. It's not true. This is just a dream. Everything is a dream. I will not die. I am just an average girl with an average life. This would be too unrealistic for me.

My father & grandpa are not dead. I know that. My mom had prepared breakfast & soon, she will wake me up from this bad dream. Yes, it will be soon. Five more minutes & everything will be back to normal. I would wake up from this dream.

But, this is true. This is real. No matter how much I deny it. evrything would only lead to one thing and the pain in my chest seems to prove it. My heart, I feel it, something is clenching it. I could feel the pain. It's unendurable. I can't breathe. Tears are forming in my eyes & I can barely breathe because of the pain.

The last thing I remember, Subaru-niichan & mom rushed beside me & everything went blank.

End of flashback

"Good Morning my little sunshine!" my mom came in my room, which is by the way, in the hospital. She brought me some foods & my favorite fruit; orange.

"Morning mom." I said dully. I looked at her, my eyes are blank & I know it. I don't want her to see me like this but, I can't help it. It would take so much energy to act as if nothing is wrong.

"Mikan, my dear, what's wrong?" mom asked worriedly. I smiled a little, my sad smile.

"I don't want to stay here anymore." I said. Really, this place is so boring & I want to enjoy my last months too.

"But, my dear, it would be dangerous if we move away in this hospital. How would Subaru know if you're improving or not?" She reasoned.

"Mom, I really don't want to stay here anymore." I said again. Maybe acting as a spoiled brat would bring some luck. I added a cute pout so she would think again.

"Mikan, I don't want to lose you." She said seriously. Seriously because she said my name, not 'little miss sunshine' or 'my dear' anymore.

I looked outside. "Mom, the reason I want to go outside this room is because I wanted to experience to live again." I said. "To feel the cold air against my skin. To feel the heat of the sun & the water from the sea." I looked at her straight in the eyes.

"At least, for the last time? With you?" She looked at me & fully understood what I meant. 'Yes! I am out of this cage!' I exclaimed in my head.

"Better not get too excited, my dear, you're illness, always remember that." Mom said as she smiled her warm smile at me, the smile I'll never forget. The smile that made my father fall in love with her. The smile that I have inherited, like they said. The smile that could melt anyone's heart. The smile of my mom.

"I'll talk to Subaru." With that last statement she left. I started to eat my breakfast with my smile while restraining myself from being too overexcited because like she said,

"too much is always a dangerous thing... for me..."

Yeah I know that. That's why, I looked outside. The sun has risen so brightly in the blue sky. I can't stop myself to think that it is mocking me. I know, just like the sun, my end would be nearing soon when my sunset comes and death would embrace me.

This is my solitary life. A life full of pain and loneliness.

Gomen ne minna-san!!

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