NAME: He finally comes homes

FANDOM: Hawaii Five-0

SHIP: Steve McGarrett x Kono Kalakaua

GENRE: Angst/Romance/ More Angst

SUMMARY: Everything was perfect and then it all fell apart.

A/N: Everything, apartment from a couple of paragraphs will be on Kono's POV. I will note when things change.

Also! I'm a rather old member, back from the dead, so you might just recognise this piece and a few others I post over time! Don't worry, no one is stealing, I'm just falling in love all over again and want to share it with you

CHAPTER ONE

When the call came none of them had been expecting it, especially Kono, she had so solidly believed that nothing would go wrong and she wouldn't have to hear that her husband would be leaving to put his life in even more danger. Kono knew that he would do anything for his country, he laid his life down for it and it's citizens on a regular basis, but drug dealers and wanna-be gang members were very different from armed terrorists. When the call came in the early hours of the morning fear made her blood run cold and she watched as her husband answer the call, his voice slipping as she knew the news wasn't good.

"How bad is it?" Kono watched Steve, her face still pressed into the sleep warm pillow as the light from the moon shrouded them. She watched him hold the phone in his hands, his back was to her so she couldn't see the expression on his face, however the way his shoulders sat rigid she knew it wouldn't have been soft laughing features she knew and loved. "I gotta go." His tone was clipped and cold, Kono's eyes shut as she knew in a heartbeat what he was talking about. If it had been a case, he would have said they both 'gotta go' and his voice wouldn't have made the fine hairs on the back of her neck stand to attention.

"How long?" She asked her question quietly, sitting up in bed and reaching out for the warm skin of her husband, her hand settled on his shoulder and she leant in close against him, pressing a soft kiss to back of his neck. She was savouring every touch, taste and sound that he made.

"I don't know." She felt him sigh, his body going slack under her hands for just a moment before he started moving, he turned his head and pressed a kiss to her hand before he rose to his feet, tugging on a pair of shorts that he had discarded only a few hours before. Kono watched as he headed for their closet, dragging out his bag and checking the contents before reaching back to the rail and taking out his uniform. He offered a soft smile before heading into their bathroom to change, any other time Kono might have protested, but this was different, this time he was leaving her for them. There was a touch of resentment, hurt in her heart that he was leaving; even though she knew he would have stayed if he could, she couldn't escape the feeling. Kono climbed out of their bed, shouldering her robe, knotting the belt around her slender waist just as Steve came out of their small bathroom

He was a fine sight in their uniform nothing would ever change that in her mind, but she would do anything to take it off and take him back to their bed where they could spend forever, out of danger, out of sight. Steve picked up his bag and moved across them room to her, Kono already reaching blindly for his hand, he took it and set the bag at their feet with a dull thud. "You know I would stay if could?" Steve murmured , his face close to her as she felt his eyes on her. She jerked her head and pressed close, her hands slipping from his to wrap around his waist. Steve nuzzled at the side of her side until she tipped her face up to meet his, his bright blue hues searched her dark ones and she hated the conflicted look saw in in his, knowing she was the cause.

"Just come home to me okay?" Kono breathed fighting back the burn of tears in her eyes. In answer Steve kissed her like it was the last time, taking her breath away and making her heart ache harder than anything. His hands framed her face and his thumbs swiped across her cheeks riding her the tears that had betrayed her.

"I'll call if I can, okay?" Steve answered after breaking the kiss his forehead pressed to hers in one last moment that was theirs. He kissed her quickly before he bent to collect his pack, turning his back and walking out their home. The dreading feeling that sat heavy in Kono's stomach making her sick.

The first time Kono heard from him was a few months after he had been deployed, the look on his face told her everything, he didn't need to speak and explain. He would be gone for longer than they expected, apparently whatever they had gone to do was bigger than they expected and they had to clear up the mess. Everything Kono had been planning that say when they spoke flew out of her mind and the only thing that she had been able to say was 'stay safe, I miss you'. Moments after the call had ended and Kono sat back on the couch her hands fanning over her stomach, there was nothing there to show it yet, but below her hands grew the child her and Steve had made together. Days after his deployment she had fainted while interviewing a witness at the hospital, Danny freaked and had her checked out before they left, when the results came back she was stunned beyond belief. They hadn't been actively trying, but they hadn't been doing anything to prevent it either, what would come would come they had said. Kono had held the first sonogram image of their child in her hands, she had planned to tell him, tell him that she was pregnant and he had to come home soon; however when he could said it could be at least another six months before he was home Kono couldn't find the words.

"I couldn't tell him." Kono looked up the dark haired man that walked into the living room, her cousin spending more and more time at the McGarrett household since Steve's deployment. "I'm a horrible wife, he should know he's going to be a father." Kono sobbed her hands gripping tightly around the small black and white image. Chin didn't speak he just crossed the room, seating himself beside her and drew her close holding her until she stopped with the tears.

"You are not a horrible wife." Chin answered firmly when she was done and ready to listen. "Yes Steve should know, but -" He stopped her before she could interrupt. "I understand why you did it, you know him better than anyone and you know he will worry more and no doubt act even more irrational to come home, it's safer for him to not know - not knowing will make sure he focuses on the task at hand and comes home to you alive." Chin's words soothed something inside of Kono, knowing that her decision wasn't as bad as she was making it to be in her head. Still, she would never forgive herself for not telling her husband, even if it would potentially save his life.

A/N: BOOM! This was always my favourite out of the McKono's I wrote and it's been awesome to really work on the chapters and edit the hell out of them. It's amazing how much can chage in a few years! However, I would still love feedback, as long as it's constructive and not rude and bitchy, it's always welcome!