Zeni's POV
I think I am a mentally deranged person. Why does it happen only to me? Such a clichéd question. I don't think so, but. Whatever shit has happened to me, it is solely my doing. Some people are monsters who think just because they are sick others won't experience the same or more pain than them. We mind our own business...but they don't think they can let us be. They have to insinuate us, drag us, hurt us as terribly as possible, that we are transported back to the darkness that clings to us. That darkness which always arises in extreme situations to remind us how unworthy we are of everything. We try to keep it numb the entire time but the moment it engulfs us, we know we are goners. Mood swings are as disgusting to our hopes as possible . The positivity, the resolutions are gone the minute our mood swings. This is triggered by the 'some people'. Their words remind us how ugly we are...even though they manipulate their words to the maximum extent possible.