Foolish.

That was what I was.

I was a fool for trusting you, for loving you. I was naive for thinking that we were meant to be, fated and bonded by destiny. I was really a fool for thinking that our souls entwined and our love could last forever. That our hearts will only beat for each other. That our love... was pure and genuine.

I was naive for thinking that I was the only one for you and you for me. I was a pathetic little girl, so young, so oblivious to reality. So unaware of the truth that could rip my heart to billions of pieces.

I thought for us, our love was forever. I thought that you will only love me and I, you. I thought I was the Juliet to your Romeo. I thought you were the prince to my princess. I loved you so much that my heart ached just thinking of you. I gave you my all, my heart, my soul, my love. You were everything to me.

You were my world.

But why? Why did you do that to me? How could you betrayed me without a moment of hesitation?

Your words meant everything to me and yet, why did you lied to me? How could you led me on thinking that our love was eternity? Why?

Was it because I was not good enough for you?

Was it because I was not pretty enough for you?

Was everything you said a lie to fool me? A lie for your own selfishness?

Does that mean that when you said "I love you", it was merely a ploy to worm your way into my heart?

And when you told me that "I was the only one for you", you didn't mean a word you say? That you only said that for your own gain?

How could you do that to me?! I... I trusted you.

For what reasons did you do that for? What did I ever do to you to deserve this?

You were everything to me and yet...

Perhaps it was my fault for being too dense. How could I have easily fallen for your sweet lies and fake smiles? Was I really that desperate for love that I couldn't see through your vile intentions? Or perhaps I was too delusional for thinking that love was only filled with sugary happiness and bliss. Being in love blinded me from the fact that love itself was a double edged sword.

So dazed by love, I lost focused. I was so blinded by the beauty of love that I became too careless. I was too busy admiring its beauty that I got careless and hurt myself with its thorns.

I had only ever heard that love was the best medicine to every disease. I heard that love was something that was filled with happiness and joy. I heard love was a powerful weapon to gain success. I heard that love was the most wonderful thing that could ever happen to you. But why, because of love, my heart shattered to pieces? Why, because of love, my heart ached so much that it hurts to even breathe? Why, because of love, these tears could not stop falling as I mourned over your betrayal?

I thought love was a beautiful dream?

But it turns out, it was only a nightmare dressed like a daydream.

"Sakura, I love you,"

You stupid bastard, how could you play with my heart like a symphony? Did I seem that easy to you? My heart was the dearest thing to me and I gave it to you because I sincerely loved you! I gave you my heart because I fell your personality. You were the most amazing person I had met and I thought I could trust you with my heart. I thought you would love me as much as I love you.

You were so kind, so gentle. You had a humorous side to you that can make anyone double over laughter. You were a leader material, truly a magnificent person. You cherished your friends as if they were family. You were perfect in my eyes.

I fell for you when I was twelve. My heart stuttered nervously when you confessed to me the first time. Your words sounded so genuine and sincere that I could feel myself wavering. In the end, I gave in and opened up to you. Showing only to you my true heart that no one else had ever seen. And thus from there, our love story began.

The love I had for you was honest and real. Even a blind man could see how dearly I loved you. The day we parted was merely the beginning of our hardships. But we stayed strong through it. If anything, my love for you grew stronger each day of me not seeing you. Each passing second made me grew fonder of you. It was as if the distance made me fall harder for you than I already did. At the age of thirteen, I thought I was the luckiest girl alive to have you as my boyfriend. Everyday felt like a fairy tale to me. The love we had, it was beautiful. I thought that it could last forever.

However, as more time passed, we grew distant. The texts and calls now became less frequent and shorter. From everyday to once a week, I started to become anxious when I rarely received your messages.

One day you said that you were transferring schools. You told me that you would be going to boarding school and you might not have the chance to text or call. It made me sad but I put on a happy facade and promised to text you everyday even though you couldn't read my texts until the end of every month. I was dedicated in texting you. I confided in you everyday even though you never respond to them. I told you what happened everyday so that you would not missed out even the slightest bit of detail to what was happening in my life. I didn't want to make you feel left out. I... I loved you so much.

"Take care okay, Shinji? I love you too,"

And then you told me that you were transferring schools again. I was surprised because it hadn't even been a full three months since your last transfer. I wondered the reasons for your transfer and you shrugged it off, saying that your parents didn't want you to study in that school. It was odd and the reason seemed sketchy but I believed you. I trusted you.

I could not believe you lied to me.

"Sakura-chan, listen to me! Shinji, he lied to you! You remembered when he told you he broke his arm for playing soccer? He lied! He broke it because he got into a fight with his seniors for stealing their moneys!"

My heart hurt when I came to know the truth.

"You're lying! He will never do that to me!"

"Believe me, Sakura-chan! He's playing with you! He's... He has another girl,"

You transferred schools because you were suspended for doing illegal stuffs. You took drugs and started smoking. You messed with the wrong crowds and caused troubles everywhere you went. What the hell were you thinking? Were you trying to kill yourself? You know those stuffs were bad for you but why did you do it? Stupid jerk. I waited for your messages day and night, hoping that you would reply to my heart and love. I kept cheering myself up, saying to myself that the only reason you never replied was because you were busy trying to pick your grades up and busy with your clubs and assignments. Never would I have thought that the reason you were so busy was because you were so dazed in consuming drugs that you had lost your true self in the process.

"He cheated on you, Sakura,"

I had enough of you! I'm sick and tired of waiting for you! I hate you! I hated you so much! You didn't deserve the tears I cried for you. Why did I cry for such a heartless bastard like you? I gave you my heart and you stomped over it like the jerk you were.

"We're fucking done. Don't you ever talk to me again, bastard!"

I had my heart broken by you and I swore to myself that I will never go through a heartbreak like this again. I will avenge myself and get my revenge on you, someday.

And when that day comes, you will regret for ever messing with my heart.