This is set during season 9. I wrote it after reading the spoilers for episode 2 in the middle of the night so I'm sorry if it makes no sense/sucks/there's loads of typos. there will be 5 chapters, each for one stage of grieving. I've included a brief description of what each stage entails at the beginning ( /the-five-stages-of-grief/ )
Denial
Denial is the first of the five stages of grief. In this stage, the world becomes meaningless and overwhelming. Life makes no sense. You are in a state of shock and denial. You try to find a way to simply get through each day. Denial helps us to pace our feelings of grief. There is a grace in denial. It is nature's way of letting in only as much as you can handle. As you accept the reality of the loss and start to ask yourself questions, you are unknowingly beginning the healing process. You are becoming stronger, and the denial is beginning to fade. But as you proceed, all the feelings you were denying begin to surface.
This couldn't be happening. This is a dream.
Sheldon pinched himself and hissed in pain, not only from the red mark now forming on his arm but also the emotional wound in his heart. It wasn't a dream.
Amy had asked for a break.
This realisation caused the agonising pain to spread from his chest to the rest of his body. A crippling pain that had Sheldon hyperventilating to suppress it.
This couldn't be happening. Of course it wasn't happening. Amy said that just needed some time. Surely it can't take long. She loved him didn't she? Soon everything will be back to normal… wouldn't it? And the ring… Sheldon had no idea what his next step should be. He obviously had to give her time, but for how long?
Thoughts were racing fast through his head. Sheldon hated to be unorganised but a messy head was something much harder to sort through. He decided to sleep on it, however REM sleep was unachievable.
Sheldon didn't even stop to think on his way to see Amy. He just had to see her. They had to sort things out. Panic set it when she said he hadn't left enough time. He had never done this before. How was he supposed to know the rules and regulations? No one was here to help him. However, Sheldon sensed this was something he had to figure out on his own.
She had agreed to let him walk with her. It was all okay. They were back together. Or so he thought.
Next up, anger