PROLOGUE

There he was. He was as close as someone sitting right next to me, but yet as far away from my grasp as possible. He might as well have been on the opposite end of the earth.

He was very handsome. Short golden blond hair, big beautiful green emerald eyes that sparkle, every time I catch a glance. He has such smooth and soft looking skin. Those prominent eyebrows, which I find attractive because they make him, well him. He's the guy every other guy wants to be. The guy some hate out of jealousy. The guy all the girls want…

But most of all, he was the guy I cannot get off my mind.

He's been my friend since we moved here, when I was in 2nd grade. A friend of 10 years at the least, and he's about four years younger than I.

I don't think I've ever felt this way about a guy before. Growing up in a Christian home, I've been taught it is wrong to feel this way, but it feels kind of… right? It's an understatement to say that it's difficult to describe how I feel. I'm not sure how I feel.

Scared, Nervous, Ashamed? Maybe all of the above.

Am I really attracted to him, or is it some kind of deep admiration? Is this just a phase, a onetime thing? I want to talk to someone, but who is there to talk to?

I could say that I know when I'm with him I feel… Happy. He makes me laugh, and smile. I love it when he smiles. I love being close and near him. I want to pull him close and keep him there. When I'm around him I get butterflies. Oh those wonderful butterflies…

So there is some attraction, no? Then there's how far does this attraction go? I'm so confused, and lost in my own thoughts, but when I'm around him I feel like all this disappears and I'm pulled back up from the deep depth of thoughts I'm drowning in.

I don't know what to make of all this, so I try and suppress these feelings and thoughts. Should these feelings be there and true if I accept them, would he feel the same? Does he even like guys?

I'm not sure how to exactly ask him about something so personal…

Maybe this is all a part of my over active imagination. Maybe I'm not really falling face first into the ground, with love, for Arthur Kirkland, the most amazing guy in the world.

It's a start. I might leave it like this, not sure. Full of errors I'm sure.
You could consider this a venting time, so definite AU, OC etc.

I'm a rather simple writer I would think. Not the best, but I do enjoy writing as a fun time passing activity.
So Enjoy ~