Innocent Man :)
"Where have you been?"
"For a walk."
"For a walk? Since when did you just go for a…"
I love kissing those lips; he makes me so fucking happy.
"What was that for?"
"I'm tired of being angry Steven. Every time I'm angry someone gets hurt and I've got too much to lose."
"Like what?"
"Like you, you idiot."
"Brendan Brady…."
"Officers, business or pleasure?"
"There's been an allegation made against you for serious sexual assault."
"By who?"
"You're going to have to accompany us to the station."
"You've got the wrong man…again."
" Brendan Brady I'm arresting you on suspicion of sexual assault and actual bodily harm. You do not have to say anything, but it may harm your defense if you fail to mention when questioned something you may rely on later in court. Anything you do say may be given as evidence. Do you understand what I'm saying?
"Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah."
"Let's go Mr Brady."
"Brendan what's happening?"
"You can't arrest him; he said he hasn't done owt wrong!"
"Steven look at me okay? Whatever they're saying is lies okay? Trust me!"
You look on at me as the boys in blue handcuff me and roughly manhandle me into the back of the police car. I'm praying to god that you know I didn't do what they said I did; you must know that I could never put my hands on anyone else in that way. I said I had too much to lose and I meant it. I wouldn't jeopardize us for anything, please believe me Steven.
To think of you doubting me takes me back to a dark place…remember when you thought I killed Rae? It took me a long time to get over that, I wouldn't get over it if you doubted me now. Why does everything keep going wrong for us? I want this to work but we are surrounded by people who want us to fail.
As the car pulls away I look at you and your face confirms my worst fears; I know that look, I've seen it before and now that I'm seeing it again, I just want to die. I'm not destined for happiness, I never have been and now I'm positive that I never will be. You are the best thing to ever happen to me, my greatest achievement, but when we're together everything goes wrong and I wish I knew why.
If I knew why then I could sort it, it would fix everything, it would fix us. We can't be together and live around here anymore; it's just not going to work. When this mess is sorted out and my name is cleared, which it will be, let's move away from here. Do you remember that time when you came to me asking to move away? I should have listened to you; it would have saved us so much heartache. Now there is no other option, we have to leave; start afresh where no one knows us and then we might be free from the ghosts of our past.
You're not just the man I love, you are my whole world and I will fight to keep you if I have to. I will prove to you that I never laid a finger on him and that I've been setup somehow, even if it takes me forever. You, Leah and Lucas are my family now and I want nothing more than to show you all how much you mean to me.
Don't believe the lies Steven, you've seen the good in me; remember that now. You've always been so trusting of people, I'm begging you, please don't trust the wrong ones. I can't be without you; it's not a choice for me anymore, I need your love to stay alive. You keep the monster in me away; you almost erase the bad parts of me and we've come too far to just throw it all away.
I've waited my whole life for you Steven Hay. You know how much I love you, you know how much I've changed already and you know the type of person I want to be. If you just look inside your heart, then you'll know I didn't do this, I couldn't do this.
I'm an innocent man.
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