Jay felt his cheeks burn and tears sting his eyes when he saw Adam kissing another girl. It bothered Jay so much but he could never tell Adam he was gay; especially when Adam was the one he had feelings for… So Jay took a deep shaky breath to control himself before walking to his locker which was only about 5 feet away from Adam and his girl of the day. He opened it; half trying to be quiet, half trying to be loud. It's not like he should care about what happened to Adam and his stupid kissing partner…
Either the loud side won or Adam needed air because about 5 seconds after Jay opened his locker, his best friend broke the kiss. Adam saw Jay and smiled as the girl followed his gaze and scowled. Jay just rolled his eyes at her and continued putting his stuff away, not bothering to return Adam's smile; he wasn't going to try today. There was no point in it.
Jay heard the small speck the girl gaze Adam and the tone of her voice when she said goodbye. He then listened to the sound of her heels click as she walked away and sighed almost silently. Just after Jay removed his backpack, his locker door slammed shut to reveal a smiling Adam with lip gloss shining on his lips. Jay grimaced at the sight and put his backpack on his shoulders, turning to leave without a word spoke to the now confused male beside him. But before he could take a step, he felt Adam's hand grab his forearm.
"Whoa, what's up with you?" Adam asked his friend with concern in his voice but Jay just shrugged, ripping his arm away from him as he walked towards the school doors. Adam narrowed his eyes before grabbing his backpack from the ground and following Jay none to quietly. He was going to figure out what was wrong with Jay even if it killed him.
Jay was out of the school building and halfway home before got annoyed with his noisy friend. "Will you stop already? Can't you tell that I don't want to talk to you?" He snapped and startled the unsuspecting Adam. Jay had never been so mean to Adam and it made him feel guilty at the hurt look in his eyes.
But Adam straightened up quickly, trying to look stronger than he felt. "I won't stop until you tell me what's wrong!" Adam tried to growl but his voice cracked and revealed how hurt he truly was. Why wouldn't Jay tell him what's wrong? He seemed fine yesterday…
Jay turned around and pushed Adam away from him as tears stung his eyes again. "Nothing's wrong!" Jay shouted at Adam who was trying to regain his balance. Why couldn't Adam just drop it? He didn't feel like proclaiming his feelings to his best friend; it just didn't make him feel right. Jay had never been one to burden other's with his spoken problems; now his attitude when something was wrong was a completely different story…
When Adam regained his balance, he looked at Jay in questioning. "Why are you lying to me? You know I can tell when something is wrong; please tell me. I want to help," Adam pleaded and the unshed tears Jay had in his eyes overflowed. Adam felt a pang of guilt at the sight of the sun reflecting from the tears his best friend was crying.
"You wanna know, Adam?" Jay shouted through his tears as Adam just nodded silently, not knowing how else one would response. "It's because every day you have a new girl! I'm sick of it!" Jay tried to snap but it came out a whimper of despair. Why couldn't Adam see how much it was killing him if he knew Jay that well?
"Wait…" Adam started, slowly and cautiously so not to throw his friend into another sob episode. "Is this about jealousy? Jay, are you jealous?" Adam asked and Jay feared he figured out, but when Adam began to shake his head in disbelief; he knew that wasn't the case. "You have girls practically drooling over you every day that are so much better than the girls I get!" He exclaimed as he continued. Jay just didn't seem to make sense sometimes to Adam.
Jay laughed painfully as he prepared himself for a quick getaway. "Adam you don't understand…" Jay started, trying to pick his words carefully as he looked at his surroundings. He was less than two blocks from his small apartment home and he could surely make it there quickly if he could get away from Adam… He can't understand… Jay thought with a pained look in his eye as he looked at Adam…
"Then help me to understand, Jay. You were just fine yesterday and now you're all mean… What happened during these past 24 hours that's done that to you? Shade some light on my part," Adam seemed to challenge, to mock.
Jay sighed to himself, running a hand through his hair as he continued to look around him. The houses all seemed so familiar yet so unknown with Adam standing so close and so still for this long… Adam just always seemed to make things different because he was all Jay could see half the time…
"Adam, you don't understand because it's not you I'm jealous of," Jay stated with a nervous sigh as Adam gave him a questioning look, obviously confused by what his friend was telling him. "Adam… I was jealous of the girls… Adam… I… I…. I'm gay."
Time seemed to stop for a moment for Adam at his friend's confession but it didn't last long because Jay ran, he ran faster than he had ever seen him run before. There was nothing else to do after you admit to your best friend that you were jealous that he kissed other girls and that you were gay… It was just impossible to do anything else…