A/N: OH MY GOD! NO WAY IS THIS MY 100TH FIC!
I actually can't believe I've written one hundred fics, and I have so many more to finish, so many more, does it look like I have no life? Because I do, I swear =P Just want to say a big thank you to every single reviewer and reader, especially those who read everything I write, I couldn't appreciate it more, and the special ones, you know who you are!
And now on to the fic, one thing, anything that happened to Addison men-wise in season 3 (meaning Mark and Alex) didn't happen. Ta very much. Love Kelly.
Oh, and this is for Clai, my twin, ILY. Seriously, without her my MerAdd brain would have died a long time ago, and she is to thank for Part 2 of this, idea and all, love you Bitch ;)
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You Give Me Something
Part 1 of 3.
~x~
She doesn't know why she's there. Standing outside Meredith Grey's house. Her car packed with all of her stuff. Ready to make the move from Seattle to LA. She doesn't know why she's there. Except she does. There was something nobody knew about herself and Meredith. The day of the divorce. The day they worked together on the married couple who were stuck together. That day changed it all. That day, Addison Montgomery and Meredith Grey went home together, and spent the night pleasuring each other in ways neither of them thought possible. That's where it ended. The sex. They didn't really know why they did it. It started with Addison's car breaking down, and Meredith offering a ride. It started with Addison asking her to go to the hotel bar for a thank you drink. It started with Meredith's hand on Addison's thigh. And Addison's hand tucking a piece of fallen hair behind Meredith's ear. It started with Addison asking her up to her room for a night cap. It started with clothes being torn away and fingers exploring bodies and lips upon lips.
The sex ended. That was the one and only time they crossed that line. But they stayed friends. Not that anyone knew that. They always made time to talk to each other. And Addison was always grateful for that time. But then, as the months passed, Addison didn't feel right being in Seattle. Around Derek. And Mark. And seeing Meredith with Derek killed her, in a way she didn't expect. When Meredith almost died her heart broke. But she pushed it all aside. She didn't want to feel anything more than friendship. Even if she did, she pushed it aside. And as the intern tests were completed, and Burke married Yang, and everyone started to move on, Addison found herself thinking, what was she still doing there? So then her stuff made it's way into her car and a call to an old friend secured her a job. But she just couldn't leave without saying goodbye to the one woman who changed it all.
"Addison?" she heard Meredith say from behind her, she turned around and sent her a nervous smile.
"Hey" she breathed "I was, I was about to knock but, I went somewhere" she said gesturing aimlessly around her head "I didn't know if you'd be in and, obviously you weren't, because you're standing here and….."
"Addison" Meredith said cutting her off "Do you want to come in for a coffee?"
"Yeah" Addison said with a laugh "I'd like that"
Meredith let them into the house and straight through to the kitchen, she gestured for Addison to sit as she made them both a coffee, she sat down next to Addison, they both took small sips of their coffees.
"So" Meredith breathed "Why are you all….tense" she said gesturing at her.
"I just, I, I'm here to say goodbye" Addison said quietly.
"Goodbye" Meredith said raising her eyebrow "What do you mean goodbye?"
"Well, the thing is, I'm, I'm leaving"
"Leaving? Leaving, as in leaving Seattle?" Meredith stuttered.
"Yeah" Addison whispered "My car, it's, it's got all my stuff in and, I'm, I'm driving down to LA, as soon as, I leave here"
"But you, you can't just, leave, what about, your patients and….your friends"
"There are other doctors Meredith" Addison said softly "And my friends, the only real friends I have here are Callie and Bailey, and I love them, I do but, they'll cope, I'll cope, it's not like I'm just cutting them off"
"So, I'm not a real friend, is that what you're saying?"
"Of course you're a real friend" Addison sighed "But, it's not enough, to make me stay here, it's not enough"
"So, that's it, you're just leaving, just like that"
"Just like that" Addison nodded "I should, get going" Addison said standing up "I'll, I'll call you, when I get there, I'll call you"
"Ok" Meredith whispered, she stood up and led Addison to the front door, she waved her goodbye, closed the door, and slid onto the floor with her back against it, letting out a heavy sigh, she felt her cell vibrate in her pocket, she pulled it out and flipped it open, pressing it to her ear "Hello?"
"Ask me to stay"
"What?"
"Ask me to stay, if you ask me to stay, I will, if you want me here, I will, I'll stay"
"Stay" Meredith said simply.
"Wha...what?" Addison stuttered.
"Addison, stay"
"Open your door"
Meredith stood up, opened her door, and watched as Addison walked towards her.
"Do you really want me to stay?" Addison asked tearfully.
"Yes" Meredith whispered before crashing their lips together and pulling Addison into her house.
"Wait, wait Meredith" Addison said pushing her away.
"What?" Meredith said breathlessly.
"Derek he, you and Derek you're…."
"We broke up"
"What?" Addison gasped.
"At the wedding, we just, I don't love him, I, I fell out of love with him, we just, weren't working and, we're over, we're so over, and I want, I want you"
"You do?"
"I do" Meredith nodded, Addison instantly crashed their lips back together, they stumbled up the stairs and into Meredith's bedroom, falling onto the bed, clothes being torn away from skin, moans filled the room within minutes.
~x~
Addison lay awake in Meredith's bed in the early hours of the morning, she lay on her side, her head propped up on her hand, and watched as Meredith slept, a light snore escaping her. She reached out and brushed Meredith's cheek with her thumb, laughing quietly as Meredith scrunched up her nose. She watched her for a little longer, just the rise and fall of her chest, she shuffled closer to her and slowly pulled her close to her body, Meredith let out a light hum and snuggled against her, Addison kissed the top of her head and slowly closed her eyes.
Meredith woke slowly, instantly feeling the warmth of Addison's skin against her, she let out a soft sigh and fluttered her eyes open, she shifted a little and glanced to the clock, discovering that it was already mid morning, almost panicking until she remembered that she had 2 weeks of freedom ahead of her. She looked back to Addison, reached up, and kissed her lips softly.
"Addie" she whispered.
"Hmm" Addison mumbled.
"Wake up" she said kissing her again.
"What time is it?" Addison yawned.
"11, are you hungry?"
"A little" Addison said with a sigh "Let's just stay here a little longer" she mumbled.
"Are you really staying?" Meredith asked quietly.
"Do you really want me to stay?"
"I love you" Meredith whispered.
"What?" Addison asked backing away a little "Did you just say…."
"I love you Addison" Meredith said placing a soft hand against Addison's cheek "I love you, and I want you to stay, and I want to be with you, and I won't change my mind on that, so if you still want to leave, I'll just follow you"
"Meredith you..." Addison whispered tearfully "You have no idea how much I love you" she said kissing her firmly.
"You should probably call your friend in LA, tell them you're not coming, and the Chief, cuz you're gonna need a job" Meredith said with a small smile.
"He almost killed me when I handed in my resignation" Addison said with a laugh "But, he did say he'd hold on to my job for as long as possible so, I really hope that means it hasn't gone in the last 2 days"
"I doubt it Addie" Meredith laughed "Well, how about, I go and make some breakfast, and you make those phonecalls"
"Ok" Addison smiled, Meredith kissed her softly, she slipped out of the bed and picked up her Dartmouth shirt from the floor, slipping it over her head before searching for a pair of sweats "Meredith?"
"Yeah?" Meredith said looking to Addison.
"Are your roommates home?"
"Alex is on his way to Iowa to see some family for the week, and Izzie has gone to see her Mom for a few days, Cristina's obviously on her honeymoon so she won't be stopping by and George is spending a week with Callie's family and a week with his, so he won't be stopping by either so, we have this place, all to ourselves" she grinned climbing back onto the bed and pecking Addison's lips "How does French Toast sound?"
"Sounds good" Addison smiled.
"Good" Meredith laughed as she moved over to the door "Because it's the only thing I can actually make without running the risk of poisoning you"
"Right" Addison laughed "I'll be right down" she smiled.
"Ok" Meredith whispered "I love you"
"I love you too" Addison smiled.
~x~
"Hey, how'd it go?" Meredith asked as Addison walked into the kitchen dressed in her underwear and Meredith's robe.
"They both said they knew I'd change my mind" Addison said with a laugh "Apparently I wasn't very convincing"
"You should've spoke to me before you resigned Addie" Meredith sighed.
"I thought you were still with Derek!" Addison exclaimed "You were still with Derek, I didn't know that you, you felt what I felt, I didn't know that"
"I know" Meredith said softly, Addison walked further into the kitchen, she grabbed to glasses from one of the cupboards and poured in some orange juice, she took a sip from hers before standing behind Meredith, wrapping her arms around her waist and resting her chin on her shoulder as Meredith cooked the french toast.
"Smells good" she smiled.
"Hmm, you smell good" Meredith said turning her head and kissing Addison's cheek.
"I smell like sex" Addison smirked.
"Exactly" Meredith said with a laugh.
"Pervert" Addison laughed, she kissed Meredith's neck and moved over to the table with the juice, Meredith plated up the toast and sat down next to her.
"So...what shall we do today?" Meredith asked as they ate.
"Well, I guess I should finally look at some apartments, I really can't go back to that hotel, the receptionist almost had a heart attack when I checked out, I think they all thought I'd be there forever" Addison said with a laugh.
"Just move in here" Meredith said simply.
"Mer I, I don't think that would be a good idea" Addison said shakily.
"Why not? We love each other right? We want to be together, you're stuffs already here, we can bring it inside right now"
"But how would we even, explain this, your friends will come home and what? You'll say, oh hey, my ex-boyfriends ex-wife is moving in, and by the way I'm in love with her"
"Well, maybe not exactly that" Meredith laughed "Addie, you're not that person to me anymore, you know that, all that matters is that we love each other, and I really don't see the point in you stressing over finding a place to live when you can just move in here, I want you here, ok?"
"Ok" Addison said with a sigh "Ok then I'll, I'll bring my stuff in"
"Ok" Meredith smiled.
~x~
Addison and Meredith spent the week enjoying each other, enjoying being together. Addison had told the Chief that although she wanted her job back she needed to take some space, and he agreed to let her start again when the residents returned, but said he would call if their was an emergency the other OB attendings couldn't handle. The week was filled with sex, everywhere and anywhere, they even spent one entire day completely naked. Feeling like there was no need for them to be dressed. They started to get used to being a couple. They went out to get groceries together. They went to see a movie. They took a walk through a nearby park. And every single time was spent with them holding hands and sharing small kisses. They knew that once the first week was up their lives would be disrupted by Alex and Izzie returning from their families, and Cristina returning from her honeymoon, George was the only friend who wouldn't be back until the end of the break. So they enjoyed every moment.
"I've never had sex in front of a real fireplace before" Addison said softly as Meredith lay in her arms on the living room floor one evening, the fire blazing beside them.
"Really? I have, well, it wasn't lit and I was drunk, that doesn't really count does it?"
"No honey, it doesn't" Addison said with a laugh.
"Well, I guess we'll have to do it again" Meredith said straddling Addison's body "Just to make it really memorable" she whispered leaning down and capturing Addison's lips, her forearms resting on either side of Addison's head as their tongues swirled together, neither of them noticed the sound of the front door opening and closing.
"Oh sweet jesus!" Izzie exclaimed, Meredith and Addison both yelped, Meredith pulled the blanket from the sofa and covered them with it.
"Izzie, what are you doing here?" she exclaimed "You're not supposed to be back until tomorrow"
"My Mom was driving me crazy so I came back early" Izzie said warily "What the..what the hell is going on?" she exclaimed.
"How about you go and make us some coffee" Meredith sighed "We'll just, get dressed"
"This place gets more insane by the day" Izzie mumbled as she walked towards the kitchen.
"Well, that wasn't how I planned on telling her" Meredith smirked.
"Come on" Addison laughed, trying to pull them both up without dropping the blanket, they quickly made their way upstairs and got dressed before walking back to the kitchen hand in hand.
"Hey" Meredith said quietly.
"Hey" Izzie said warily "Coffees in the pot" she said sipping her own.
"I'll get it" Addison said moving over to the machine as Meredith sat down across from Izzie, she poured 2 cups and sat down next to Meredith.
"So…." Izzie started.
"See, the thing is" Meredith said with a sigh "Me and Addison we, after the appendicitis thing, when I first went back to work we, had one night, together, that was it, one night, but we stayed friends, and we, we were friends, but then, just before the wedding I realized I didn't really, love Derek anymore, I loved Addison, and then Addison came here and said she was leaving for LA, and then she asked me to ask her to stay, so I did, and she's kind of moved in, she has moved in"
"I don't think I have anything to say to that" Izzie said slightly stunned.
"We get that it's weird" said Addison.
"Oh, oh good" Izzie sighed "Because I was totally freaking out there for a second"
"Right" Meredith laughed "We couldn't tell at all"
"So, you're together, like, in love together, girlfriend and girlfriend together"
"Yes Izzie" Meredith said with a laugh "Girlfriend and girlfriend in love together"
"Y'know, of all the people I thought you'd end up with after McDreamy, this wasn't what I expected" Izzie said leaning forward to rest her chin on her hand.
"Who did you think I'd end up with?" Meredith smirked.
"McSteamy" Izzie shrugged, Addison instantly started to laugh "Well, at least just once anyway" Izzie laughed.
"I'd rather not" Meredith laughed "Oh god" she groaned "He's going to ask for a threesome isn't he"
"Probably at least twice a day" Addison smirked.
"Fun" Meredith said dryly.
"So…." Izzie started "Have you always liked women?"
"Iz" Meredith laughed.
"It's a perfectly reasonable question" Izzie said defensively.
"Well I, I've always said never say never" said Addison "But I didn't think it would actually, happen, even after our, night, I didn't think anything would come from it"
"Me neither" said Meredith "Well, I made out with girls in college, but it was like a, oh my god we're so drunk let's kiss so the boys like us, type of thing, it was never, serious, I didn't think I'd ever, love a woman, I guess it just had to be the right one" she said squeezing Addison's hand.
"I love you" Addison said kissing her softly.
"I love you too" Meredith said kissing her back.
"And I'm gonna go do my laundry so you two can make out" Izzie said standing up.
"Ok Iz" Meredith laughed.
"For what it's worth" Izzie said as she walked towards the laundry room "Even though this is a little weird, I don't think I've ever seen you both this happy" and then she disappeared back into the room.
"Well, that went well" Addison smiled.
"One down, a billion and one to go" Meredith laughed.
~x~
Alex came home the following day and took the news as well as Izzie. Meredith and Addison both knew that not everyone would take it so well. But they tried to stop themselves from thinking about what was coming. And then the phone rings and Cristina's on her way over with Burke and Meredith knows she isn't going to be happy that she's one of the last to know out of their group and she'll probably have some other things to say too but Addison just squeezes her hand and promises it'll all be ok and they wait for Cristina to walk through the front door.
"Stop pacing" Addison sighed as Meredith walked up and down the length of the kitchen.
"I'm fine" Meredith said firmly.
"You're freaking out" Alex smirked.
"I'm fine"
"Then stop pacing" Izzie laughed.
"She's going to kill me" Meredith sighed.
"Meredith" Addison said standing up and grabbing her shoulders to stop her moving "Relax, she'll get over it, I love you ok?"
"Ok" Meredith whispered "Sorry for freaking out, I love you too"
"Ok" Addison smiled kissing her softly.
"Whaoh my god" Cristina said as she stepped into the kitchen with Burke, Meredith shifted a little.
"Hey" she smiled "So, how was the honeymoon?"
"Screw the honeymoon!" Cristina exclaimed "What the hell is this?"
"Um" Meredith said biting her lip a little "Well, you see the thing is, the thing is that, the thing is that I, me and Addison we, we're together now, like, in love together, there was a thing before I got back with Derek, a one time thing, but we stayed friends and, and then I realized I wasn't in love with him anymore I was in love with Addie and, and then Addison said she was leaving for LA and I made her stay so, she's living here now, we're, together"
"And you didn't tell me this because…."
"I'm telling you now" Meredith said hopefully.
"This is insane, this is actually insane" Cristina said with a laugh.
"Yeah, we know" Addison smirked "But we're trying to move on from the insanity of it and just be…."
"Us" Meredith finished "So, how was the honeymoon?"
"It was great" Burke smiled.
"Wait wait wait" said Cristina "Does he know?"
"Does who know?" Meredith frowned.
"The President of the United States" Cristina said dryly "Derek you moron!"
"No, no he doesn't, he doesn't know" Meredith sighed "Look, we have one week left before we have to get back to work, and we'd quite like to enjoy it without having to think about that!" she snapped.
"Hey, hey honey calm down" Addison said rubbing her back softly "It'll be ok" she said turning her and hugging her tightly "We'll be ok" she whispered against her hair "I love you"
"I love you too" Meredith mumbled against her body "Please don't leave me" she said tearfully.
"Mer, I'm not going anywhere" Addison said softly "Come on, none of this" she said wiping a stray tear from her cheek "Relax"
"Relax" Meredith breathed.
"Mer I didn't, I didn't want to upset you" Cristina stuttered "I just don't want you to get hurt, because he'll say things to try and hurt you, you know that"
"I know" Meredith sighed "I know but, we'll be fine, we will, we have to be, now, how the hell was the honeymoon?"
~x~
The following week seemed to go as smoothly as the previous, just the pair of them enjoying being together, going about their daily lives. Everyone seemed to settle into them being a couple, and when George and Callie returned from visiting family 2 days before the return to Seattle Grace they were both shocked, George more than Callie since Callie was sure she spotted Addison staring lustfully at Meredith more than once, but they accepted it. Callie was just happy that Addison wasn't leaving Seattle. Before they know it the morning of their return is there, and they both know that that's where the hard part starts.
"Mer honey wake up" Addison said kissing her awake "Meredith"
"No" Meredith mumbled.
"Mer" Addison said with a laugh "Come on, you have to go and meet your interns sweetie, I know today's going to be hard but we have each other, we have our friends, we'll be ok"
"I just don't want to be away from you" Meredith said softly "It's been nice being with you and now it's back to working too many hours and being gossiped about"
"Honey, without us the nurses would be really bored, we wouldn't want that would we" Addison teased.
"Shut up" Meredith said hitting her arm "Just kiss me" she whispered, Addison pressed their lips together softly.
"We're going to be fine" she whispered "Meredith, I love you, and nothing anybody says or does is going to change that ok?"
"Ok" Meredith whispered back "I love you too, always"
"Always" Addison smiled.
~x~
"Hey" Addison smiled as Meredith approached her in the cafeteria, dropping down onto the chair with a groan "I take it the days not going so well" she said rubbing her back softly.
"Were we bad interns?" Meredith asked "We could follow simple instructions right?"
"Erm, yeah, most of the time, apart from the whole LVAD wire incident"
"True" Meredith smirked "Oh and, my half sisters here" she mumbled.
"Molly?" Addison frowned.
"No, Lexie" Meredith sighed "She's one of Cristina's interns, she's really chirpy and peppy and, 'hey you're my sister', I'm not her sister, I'm nothing to her"
"What are you going to do?"
"Nothing" Meredith shrugged "Ignore her"
"Mer" Addison sighed.
"Addison, I'm not going into it" Meredith said firmly "I want to enjoy lunch with my girlfriend right now ok?"
"Ok" Addison said softly, her fingers stroking against Meredith's back, she reached in and softly kissed her lips "I love you" she whispered against her.
"I love you too" Meredith smiled.
"And I would love to know what the hell is going on here?" Derek exclaimed standing in front of them.
"And there it is" Meredith groaned "Yes Derek?"
"What the hell is going on?" he exclaimed again.
"Derek, you're making a scene" Addison whispered.
"Says the woman kissing my girlfriend" Derek hissed.
"Ex" Meredith almost growled "I am your ex-girlfriend, I finished with you Derek, we're over"
"And it didn't take you long to move on did it?" he smirked "And with a woman, did you run out of men to screw?"
"The only reason I am not slapping you so hard you end up in the lobby is because I don't want to risk my surgical career before it's even set off" Meredith said tightly "Me and Addison? We're in love, we are, and you can say what the hell you like about it because it's not going to change. I didn't finish things with you for her, I finished things with you because I didn't love you anymore, and we just weren't working, but then Addison's on my doorstep telling me she's leaving and I couldn't let her walk away because I love her, so I asked her to stay, and she did, because she loves me too, you see the thing is Derek, she doesn't need to breathe for me, she knows I need a little more time to breathe for myself, she knows me, and that is all I have to say on the matter, so unless you have something nice to say, leave us alone so we can enjoy our lunch in peace"
"She'll hurt you eventually" he said looking at Addison "She doesn't know how to do love, or real, she'll run, so if you want to save yourself of being heart broken, get out now" he said before walking away, the quiet cafeteria was suddenly alive with conversation.
"Mer" Addison said squeezing her hand "Meredith look at me" Meredith turned to her with teary eyes "Meredith, I'm not going anywhere" she said firmly "Don't let him get to you"
"I just want to go home" Meredith whispered.
"I know honey" Addison said kissing her softly "It's ok, we're ok, you're not going home, you're going to get rid of these tears, and hold your head up high, you can do this Meredith, you're strong, you can face Derek, and Lexie, and your interns, you can do this, I love you"
"I love you too" Meredith breathed "God I've been such an emotional wreck lately" she said with a laugh.
"It's been a hectic couple of months" Addison said softly "Do you want to go and lie down somewhere?"
"Yeah" Meredith said quietly "I need, I need you to hold me"
"Ok" Addison smiled "Come on sweetheart" she took Meredith's hand and led them to an on-call room, she pulled them onto the bed, their bodies intwined, their fingers linked, Addison kissed Meredith softly before they both closed their eyes, falling into a light sleep and waiting for pagers to wake them up.
~x~
Part 2 of 3 to follow.