I want to be myself
By Butterfly

Disclaimer: I don't own any characters of X-Men

Rouge knew that Logan was back before she saw him. She was happy to see him again but sad because she knew that he doesn't come back for her. She could feel it inside her that he came back for Jean Grey. For three days he was back now but they haven't talked yet and that hurt Rouge. But she didn't show it. When somebody crossed her way or talked to her, she played the happy girl and faked a false smile. But later when everybody slept her mask fell apart and she cried herself to sleep.

Scott saw that something was up with her but he had his own problems because Jean had broken up with him so that she can be with Logan. He wasn't really upset about it because he saw it coming but he felt lonely because Jean was so long next to him that it was strange to be without her. The professor noticed that Rouge wasn't the happy young woman she was as Logan wasn't there. He tried to talk to her but she said that she was okay.

On one night Rouge couldn't sleep so she went to the professor's office because she knew that he wasn't sleeping. She wanted to talk to him about some decisions she has made. She knocked two times and than went in. The professor sat behind his desk and was looking over some papers.

"Professor I'm sorry to disturb you but can I speak to you?"

"Don't apologize I've told you that you can talk to me at every time so what's bothering you my Dear?"

"I want to leave the school for a while. I'm not happy here I've lost the control over my life."

"But we can help you to win it back. Rouge you can't just leave what's with the school?"

"Don't worry professor the finals are over and I'm supposed to be in a college in Boston."

"In Boston... I hope you know what you do. You can't hide your mutation."

"Professor X the college I'm going to go is a Mutant friendly school. There are going Mutants and humans together to the classes."

"I see you've thought about that a lot but do me the favour and phone once a week okay?"

"Alright but you must promise me that nobody knows that I'm going before I'm gone and that you take care of Mr. Summers he seems sad and lonely!"

"That I will do but now I think you should go to bed."

"Thank you professor for all you have done for me. Goodnight and sleep well."

With that Rouge got to bed and dreamed about her new life. On the next day Rouge packed her things and left for college. As the professor had promised nobody knew that she was leaving. So it came that Jubilee and Kate were bursting into a meeting that the professor had with all teachers and cried about Rouge not being there.

"Please calmed down nothing had happened do Rouge. I was going to explain to your teachers were she is but now that you are here you can listen to it too. Rouge was at my office last night and we've talked. She said that she wants to go to a college in Boston and I've promised her that I want talk to anybody till she is gone."

"But why hadn't she said goodbye to us?" cried Jubilee.

"I don't know Jubilee but I'm sure that she will phone you when she is there." answered the professor.

As the professor had said Rouge called in the late afternoon and it happened that Scott answered the call.

"Mutant High, Mr. Summers speaking. With whom I'm speaking?"

"Hey Mr. Summers here is Rouge...!"

"Hey how is the college? The professor told us and Jubilee and Kate were really upset, hold on I get them...!"

"Mr. Summers wait...mmh...how are you...I mean...oh god...I mean you seemed so lonely and sad lately. Is it because Jean and Logan...? I'm sorry that's not my business I shouldn't have asked."

"Rouge its okay. I'm good I take every day a little step in the direction of the future."

"Thank god I was worried about you oh and the college is great, the pupils here are really friendly and the best thing is that I am welcome in this college and they don't fear me just because I'm a Mutant."

In the main time Jubilee and Kate came the stairs down and saw Scott talking on the phone. As he saw the two girls he waved to them so as to say that Rouge is on the phone. As they saw the sign they run the stairs down and grasped the telephone from Scott's hand. Rouge explained every thing to them and then she talked for a little time with the professor.

"Hello my Dear how are you?"

"Good, it's really nice here and thanks for keeping your promise!"

"No problem but I think you are tired and that you should go to sleep. We hear from each other next week. Bye and sleep well."

"Goodnight professor and sweet dreams!"

Rouge kept her promise to call once a week. She then chatted a while with Mr. Summers and then spoke with the professor. Over the four years she was in Boston, she and Scott grew closer. He knows her real name and she called him by his first. But suddenly she stopped calling...