My Life
Okay so I know I haven't added a chapter to my other story, but don't worry I'm still continuing with that story. I just sat at my dad's computer (his doesn't have my other story on it) and started writing I fell in love with what I wrote and wanted to show you. ~ Love Ya~
This time was my time. I wasn't going to let him go not so easily at least. I loved him and I knew he loved me he told me over and over again. Now he was walking away from me looking hurt. I need to sing that song tomorrow and hope he listens.
"Alice 105.9 tomorrow 8:30am listen." I yield. All he did to egnalige that he heard me was one small stiff nod. What does that mean? Is he going to listen? Oh I hope he does.
Let me review for you I'm Bella Swan and in my small town named Forks I was the closes thing we had to famous I was a country singer(all songs are Taylor Swift songs), but I didn't want to be famous to everyone else not yet. I had just written a new song and the radio station (the most popular radio station in Forks) wanted me to go on at 8:30am answer some questions and sing the newest song I had.
My life was good but tonight I had a huge blow up with perfect boyfriend Edward Cullen. I was sure I was in love with. It was our first fight and I still wasn't sure what happened. Did we break up no we couldn't I need him to much he was my life. I think the fight started with him not wanting me to lose my soul to become what he was.
When I slammed the door the first thing I heard was my dad (Charlie) snoring. I shed a million tears on my way to my room. I sat down and wrote two songs. I loved them I think they put things between Edward and I beautifully.
I finally fell asleep thinking of Edward's lullaby. Well I usually call it my lullaby but senses I didn't know if he belonged to me I didn't know if this still belonged to me.
It was 6am and Alice (Edward's little sister) just came over to do my hair and makeup.
"Alice," I complained as she dragged me out of bed." It doesn't matter what I look like only a few people are going to see me."
"Bella something is going to happen after the show thing….," she trailed off not knowing what to call it." I want you to be presentable for it."
I ground.
"Bella come on me saw it in a vision. Don't you trust me?"
"With my life." I said with a tint of sarcasm.
"Good now get in the shower." She thrust a towel in my arms and shoved my through the door.
I took a long shower until I ran out of hot water. Then stagger slowly to my room afraid of what I would find. Alice was standing next to a chair that she put right next to my full length mirror that I never really noticed. She also moved my bed side table and covered it with hair products along with a million things of makeup. This couldn't be good this couldn't be good at all. Was all I could think at that moment.
" Go change into this." She forced an outfit in to my arms. It was black leggings, a beautiful skirt and a black and blue shirt. When I came back out she forced me to put on these beautiful black and gold earrings a big black and gold ring and some pock a dot flats. She put a little make up on me and then she was done.
" Alice this is too much." I had to say. It was all to stunning for me.
" Bella you look great and it's just the thing for what's happening today." She smiled and bounced up and down while clapping her hands pretty fast for me at least." Now get in my car and I'll drive you there."
"fine." I gave up. I grabbed my guitar and headed for her yellow Porsche that Edward had gotten her as a gift.
We were at the station's building in ten minutes. Mainly because of Alice's insane speeding. They took me to the studio were Slacker and Steve were on. The saw me at once and started to announce me. That's when the producer told me to go in.
" Yih Bella." They said at once.
"Yih guys."
"Hey thanks for coming." Slacker began.
"No thank you for having me."
"Anytime so…. We heard that you would perform a new song for us live." Steve finished.
" Uh ya well actually I have two new sings that I just wrote if that's okay." I hinted my concern.
" Oh no that's perfect, but when you say you just wrote what do you mean?" Steve commented.
I laughed slightly at how he said that," I mean I just wrote them last night after something huge happened to me that left me a little confused."
" What happened? Bswan come on spill to your best guy friends." Slacker said in such a girly way that it made me laugh.
" Well see my boyfriend and I had our first fight ever… and I was and still am a little confused on were that left us. Ya know."
" Yes I know Steve and I get into fights all the time." Once again being girly.
" Well that's because I don't like you……………………….and I'm married." Steve said joking around a little. I laughed my head off at that one.
" Okay the first song is The Other Side of the Door and some of it is about him some isn't. Mostly the good parts and the throwing rocks and stuff like that is about him."
" Wait throwing stuff…." Slacker trailed off with a questioning tone.
" Ya'll just have to wait and find out for yourselfs."
I began strumin' my guitar to the beat in my head.
The Other Side Of The Door Lyrics In the heat of the fight; I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you Me and my stupid pride I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you And I scream out the window, I said, "Leave," baby all I want is you With your face, and your beautiful eyes,
I walked away.
Ignoring words that you were saying,
Tryna make me stay.
I said, "This time I had enough."
And you've called a hundred times,
But I'm not pickin' up.
'Cause I'm so mad, I might tell you that it's over.
But if you look a little closer
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles; screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.
Sittin' here, alone.
Going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone.
I keep going back over
The things we both said.
And I remember the slammin' door,
And all the things that I misread.
So baby you know everything,
Tell me why you couldn't see
That when I left I wanted you to
Chase after me?
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles; screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.
"I can't even look at you, I don't need you,"
But I do, I do, I do.
I say, "there's nothing you can say
To make this right again, I mean it,
I mean it"
What I mean is
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles; screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.
And the conversation,
With the little white lies.
And the faded picture
Of a beautiful night
You carry me from your car
up the stairs
And I'm broke-down cryin'
Was she worth this mess?,
After everything in that little black dress
After everything, I must confess,
I need you
Steve pressed a button that made it sound that a crowd was clapping." That was beautiful."
"Do you understand the throwing stuff now."
" Yes."
" Okay this next song is Jump then Fall and is also about him." I moved my shoulders a little to emphasize the "him" a little.
Jump Then Fall Lyrics I like the way you sound in the morning, I like the way I can't keep my focus, (chorus) whoa oh I'm feeling you baby baby, I'm never gonna leave you, well I like the way your hair falls in your face I had time to think it oh-over and all I can say is come closer, (chorus) whoa oh I'm feeling you baby baby, I'm never gonna leave you, the bottoms gonna drop out from under our feet whoa oh I need you baby baby, I'm never gonna leave you, jump then fall baby every time you smile, I smile yeah
we're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard
I watch you talk you didn't notice
I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together
every time you smile, I smile
and every time you shine, I'll shine for you
don't be afraid to jump then fall, jump then fall into me
say that you wanna be with me too
cause I'm gonna stay through it all so jump then fall
you got the keys to me I love each freckle on your face, oh,
I've never been so wrapped up,
honey, I like the way you're everything I've ever wanted
take a deep breath and jump then fall into me
every time you smile, I smile
and every time you shine, I'll shine for you
don't be afraid to jump then fall, jump then fall into me
say that you wanna be with me too
cause I'm gonna stay through it all so jump then fall
I'll catch you, I'll catch you
when people say things that bring you to your knees,
I'll catch you
the time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry
but I'll hold you through the night until you smile
don't be afraid please
jump then fall, jump then fall into me
say that you wanna be with me too
cause I'm gonna through it all so jump then fall
jump then fall into me, into me
and every time you shine, I'll shine
and every time you're here baby, I'll show you, I'll show you
you can jump then fall, jump then fall, jump then fall into me, into me
Slacker and Steve clapped away and didn't stop for two whole minutes.
" Thank you I'll remember that moment for the rest of my life." I knew I would that meant so much to me that little thing.
"and your clear." I heard the voice from my headphones say. We all stood and shook hands.
" Thanks again for having me." It just amazes me that they would want me on they're show.
" No, no thank you I hope you deal things out with your boyfriend. He's a lucky guy." Steve said and I blushed red.
" Indeed he is. And may I be the first to say you look astounding today." He commented and I blushed harder.
I walked outside and looked for Alice she was no where to be found." Crap Alice."
" Hello Bella." I heard the voice of an angle call.