I do not own twilight
Chapter 1
The epitome of beauty is defined by the human standard. Eyes, body, hair, face, etc. The world is one hypocrisy after a another. They say you have to look and act one way, but yet criticize when that standard is perfected. Jealousy is a waste of time, and I, personally have no time for double standards therefore I choose not to live up to any standards but my own. I am tired of people trying to pimp and prime me for perfection that I will never achieve.
Family and friendship I value above anything else in this world. I toast to the friends that became family and the family that became friends. I also believe more than anything else that the best memories that are the most trying to remember in the morning. So cheers to the best times we will never remember, but will also never forget.
I am incapable of love. Love is fleeting, Love is blind, and Love is ignorant. I pray that it stays that way. But life, fate and destiny always has a second opinion. It is never what you expect, or what others expect. My nature is to be a free spirit, and I am for the most part.
There are so many secrets that this world holds, yet I am bound by law to uphold those secrets. Its my life mission.....
As I stand on this, on this cliff, I wonder how I have gotten here in this predicament. Everything I held dear to my heart, and chose to believe, and what beliefs I choose to ignore, and follow my heart. Lead me to this place, in between heaven and hell. I found the best of both worlds here. I found a middle ground, from utter chaos, and complete bliss.
The tears keep falling from my eyes. How this entire situation has gotten so out of control is beyond me. I have learned in my many years that things happen and there isn't a damned thing you can do to stop it, change it, delay it, and even prevent it.
The people that have influenced my life, my friends my family, and him. Will forever hold a place in my heart. I know that I am not going anywhere, but they do not know this. And they do not need to know this. I feel that my presence has worn out my welcome in this society. Maby they will be better off without me. I can feel it. It will hurt . But it is what I must do. We are from two very different worlds. We are a danger to those around us. There is no other way.....................
As I take one last look at my current surrounding, I cant help but reminisce about the past times I've been to this exact spot, and can't help but wonder how on earth things ended like this. Many fun memories that I will never forget, People that I've met, and hopefully they will forget me.
My Last Step, and I am directly on the edge of a cliff now, and the tears that have flown down my face feel like ice drops on my face because the heart has a hard time letting go. But no matter what my heart says My mind has been made up. The secrets will stay secrets, and the lies will go untold. I set off to go onto to follow my natures will.
My sister and brother, I will miss most of all. I know they will not utter a single word of what I am about to do. Trouble will unsure when the little one finds a way around it. But it will take her a very long time, even for her, I have have let many notes to them to find. In case something happens, and they need me. But from what the circumstances are I fear they will never need me again. But it was one last thing my heart needed to do to hold onto this world, that was never my own. I should have known that when I first reached this place. But Like I said fate and destiny are in intertwined. Maby I was meant to lead this path so that I could evolve into the creature that I was supposed to be in the beginning. Maby the one character flaw that I have, will have dissipated with my former life here. One can only hope so much. But for someone of my age and wisdom it is easier to accept than to change myself.
The step off the cliff feels exhilarating, its at least 500 feet to the water below. Surprisingly the weather is beautiful, not remorseful or somber like my mood. It is a good omen on this day that I chose this path. Flying through the air is the second greatest feeling in the world. I can feel myself come undone. Barriers breaking that I haven't let fall in a long time. Spread my wings and fly into the water at a great velocity. Crashing waves break unto my face, and at last I am home...
The last words I've spoken in weeks are "forget me my love, for my heart will remember you always."
This is my first attempt at a story. If anyone has any advice for my please let me know! thankx....
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