Iris (Goo Goo Dolls)
Big Time Rush fanfic
No Pairing (yet)
Edit: Just fixed some grammar and a location fix (occurred to me Minnesota and Michigan don't touch silly me! lol)
Author's Note: Well, some notes I need to point out is that I will not use all of the lyrics, only those I deem necessary, second, you will find in my ending note, that I have no idea where I am going with this, so feel free to jot down some notes while reading lol. ONWARDS!
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Carlos stood in the living room, the three other band members were avoiding him, including Kendall's mom. All because of a little leak in the presses. They announced on the news last week that: An investigation into the life of Carlos Garcia reported today that the band member was once part of a Latino gang in western Wisconsin. Said gang was disbanded after the death of two of it's members and a third was sent to prison for murder. When asked about the subject, the actor had no comment. And since then, his life went down the drain. Hell, even Bitters sent more hatred his way. Who knew that was possible?
In fact, the only person who actually talked to him was Camille, and even then she always wore a disguise or made them meet in private. Katie had been away for a few months to see her grandmother in Minnesota, so Carlos hoped she didn't know yet, and he could explain things to her before she did.
"Ay, mi vida. No me gustaría quejarse, pero no puedo vivir como este." (Oh, my life. I don't want to complain, but I can't live like this.) Carlos said to himself. At that moment, Mrs. Knight entered the room.
"Oh, Carlos. I didn't know you'd be home." She said, with a certain stress in her voice, as though she were afraid. And honestly, that upset Carlos greatly.
A lone tear fell from Carlos' eye. "I- I'll just leave then..." Carlos stood and went to the door. He paused for a moment, as though awaiting for Mrs. Knight to apologize and tell him she was sorry for acting so alienating, but the apology never came. He twisted the doorknob, fighting back tears as he left the apartment.
As the door closed, Mrs. Knight breathed a sigh of relief. With it she leaned back on the counter, also fighting back tears. 'I'm sorry, Carlos.' she pleaded in her thoughts.
~Person/Place/Time Change~
Katie sat in front of the television, staring in disbelief as she heard the news reporter speak the words. 'No!' she thought, 'Carlos is good and nice! He would never be like those people!' But behind her, her grandparents voiced their beliefs aloud, "That child was never a good influence! I can't believe our grandson was friends with that rascal! I'll be glad to see it when they kick him out!"
And that was it for Katie. "I want to go back. Now!" She stood with her hands on her hips, staring her grandmother in the eye. The old woman only nodded and called up her mother. Her grandfather got up and turned to the kitchen. Who knew she was such a fierce little girl?
~Person/Place/Time Change~
Kendall, Logan, and James sat by the pool, James and Logan soaking up the sun, Kendall sitting beneath the umbrella, reading. "Dude, you really need to sunbathe!" James exclaimed.
"Yea, you're pale as a ghost!" Logan added, James nodding along with him. For some reason, at that moment, Kendall looked up, into the lobby, only to see a stunned Carlos, wearing a heavy coat, hat and sunglasses, running from a mass of photographers and reporters. The only thing Kendall could think of was, "poor guy". James and Logan followed his line of vision, and suddenly burst into laughter. After a moment, Kendall joined in as well, almost reluctantly.
~Person/Place/Time Change~
Carlos arrived in the park after finally losing his followers. He sat down beneath a tree, wary of those around him. He closed his eyes, thinking back to that time.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
~Flashback~
Carlos stood amongst three other people. Their leader, Jon, his right-hand man, Carlos' older brother Angél, and Jon's little sister, Jaime. Of the four, Carlos was the youngest, Jon was the oldest. The "gang" really started out as a group of friends who weren't exactly the nicest. But then they actually committed crimes, burglary and such. The night they got arrested was when things went too far.
Angél had been keeping a close eye on Mr. Sallan for some reason. When Jon confronted him, he told Jon about a "hit" of sorts that had been requested of him. Jon told him that gangs didn't do solo missions, and took it upon himself to announce we all would be taking down Mr. Sallan that night. Angél failed to mention that Mr. Sallan had an array of weapons within his household.
Carlos and Jaime were sent to scope the place out. Once an "all-clear" was given by Jaime, Jon knocked on the door innocently, Angél wasn't too far behind him, his hand-gun loaded. After only a few seconds, Mr. Sallan opened the door. "Hello, sir!" Jon said. "May I offer you in a slice of-" BAM! A gun went off. Problem was, it wasn't Angél's. Mr. Sallan shot a rifle, probably hidden beside the door, through Jon, hitting Angél. The two died instantly. Jaime jumped down from our hiding spot and shot Mr. Sallan.
And just like Jon and Angél, he fell too. One of the neighbors must have called 911 because in less than a few minutes, the cops arrived and the two left standing were sent to jail. Jaime was sentenced to life in Prison, while Carlos plead guilty as a minor on the previous burglary charges and was released on bail, as evidence found he took no part in the murders. Carlos and his father packed up, leaving it all behind, so that no one could blame him for the past.
[A/N: I have no idea how off these charges are. It's my fictional story!]
~End Flashback~
Carlos awoke with a start, suddenly noticing night had fallen upon the park. He sighed in discontent and began his lonesome walk to the Palmwoods.
~Person/Place/Time Change~
Mrs. Knight stood abruptly, shouting at her daughter, "I don't care, Katie! You've seen the news! I will not let you or anyone else in this household near that- that monster! He committed a crime Katie!"
But Katie was undeterred, "Mother, listen to me! Ever think that he didn't want to do those things? Or that after all he's been through, all we are doing, is hurting him more by avoiding him? I am honestly ashamed of you, mother! All he wants right now is someone to hold him, and tell him it will all be okay, and I thought you'd be there for him. I guess I was wrong." And with that, the fierce young girl turned to the door and left, slamming it behind her.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
~Person/Place/Time Change~
Carlos entered the Palmwoods, shivering a bit, but otherwise okay. He took his seat in the lobby, which Bitters said he could use for an hour a day, least he pay for a full room. Suddenly Katie, and a very sleepy Camille were placed in front of him. Katie ran and hugged him, Camille suddenly shocked into finding a disguise. "Oh, knock it off, Camille!" Katie said, smacking her hand, "You said you were Carlos' friend. If you are, then act like one!"
Camille looked shocked, to say the least. She nodded, however, taking her seat next to Katie. They both stared at him for a moment before suddenly Carlos burst into tears. "I'm so sorry, Katie! I know you trusted me and now Mrs. Knight is afraid of me and the band hates me and I'll probably be kicked out and- and I just want to go home! I miss my Papi!" Carlos sobbed. To be honest, it was a very sad sight.
Camille and Katie hugged Carlos close, shushing the poor boy. "It'll be okay, Carlos. We can fix this." Camille assured Carlos.
Carlos didn't respond. His eyes grew dark and cold. He stood abruptly, pushing the others away. He left the Palmwoods telling them simply, "You can't." Katie and Camille looked at each other in fear, but alas, Carlos was long gone.
~Person/Place/Time Change~
Carlos awoke and stood, shaking the dirt off his jeans and jacket. He had gotten a couple of stares and sympathetic looks while he stayed at the tree, but no one cared to bother him. A nice old lady did offer him a blanket, but he told her he had no way of repaying her and politely declined.
He quickly jogged back to the Palmwoods, his hood up and his head down, successfully making his way "home". Katie immediately hugged Carlos when he entered the apartment. "I'm so sorry, Carlos! I didn't mean to offend you and I can't understand what happened and I'm afraid, but I know we can get through this! Just please don't leave us again like that." She spoke. Mrs. Knight coughed from the kitchen.
"Carlos. I- I'm sorry about earlier. I can't believe how I acted towards you. You- you're like a son to me and-" she choked on a sob, "And I can't believe I treated you like a monster!" She began crying. Carlos and Katie immediately wrapped her in a hug.
"It's okay, Mrs. Knight. I know it's tough on you too, finding out about my... previous life. I don't dwell on it too much, but I guess that's what you expect. 'You can't forget the past; it always comes back to haunt you.' That's what my Papi says." Carlos spoke softly to Mrs. Knight. Together, they sighed, releasing each other.
"Well, how about I drive you to practice, assuming you don't want to fight with the limo crowd?" She asked. Carlos nodded, hoping that in time, this would settle down.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
~Person/Place/Time Change~
The four- yes all four- boys stood in the recording room. But they weren't recording. Gustavo and Kelly were talking to them, about recent "Carlos" events, as recent days have gone. Though Carlos himself refused to speak, the others chatted amiably about their run-ins with the press and such. Despite popular belief, all this attention was not good for sales and popularity. In fact, they haven't sold more than a million copies in the past month. James had once shouted at him sarcastically, "Thanks a lot, Carlos. Now we will never hit #1!" Although Kendall made him apologize, it didn't hurt Carlos any less.
In fact, said boy was sitting against the back wall, shivering. Logan thought this odd because he and James were visibly sweating. Kendall was just a shade of heat-induced red. Carlos on the other hand, was pale and shivering as though it were winter all over. Logan got up and put his hand on Carlos' forehead, though it seemed as Carlos didn't even notice. Logan's hand retracted before he exited the room. "Gustavo! Listen I think we need a doctor. Carlos is sick!"
Kelly called the driver while Gustavo and Logan went to get Carlos. However when they entered the recording studio, Carlos was passed out and James and Kendall stood over him. "Guys! Help me get Carlos into the car, I think he's sick!" Logan said instructing the others. Gustavo left the room then, finding Kelly in the driver's seat of the limo gesturing the others in quickly.
~Person/Place/Time Change~
Logan, James, Kendall, and Kelly sat in the waiting room, hoping for good news. Luckily, they got it. "Garcia Party?" A doctor asked. The four stood up. "Ah, Mr. Garcia is just fine. We medicated the fever. He isn't awake yet, but you can see him for when he does."
The rest nodded and the doctor left to see more patients. Kelly and Logan began towards the door, but Kendall and James seemed reluctant. "I – um, have to call my mom." Kendall said. James didn't even give an explanation, he just took off towards the restroom.
"Hold it, you two! James, you just went to the bathroom ten seconds ago! And Kendall, though that's a reasonable excuse, you should know that I already called Mrs. Knight and she said that she and Katie would get here ASAP. Now the both of you are going to march in there as Carlos' friends!" Kelly said.
The two boys hung their heads in defeat and entered the room, followed hawk-eyed by Kelly and Logan. James seemed more reluctant than Kendall, and Kelly thought it was strange. Carlos and James were such good friends, how could a little secret like this tear James and Carlos apart so well?
Kelly pulled on James' hair and dragged him back for a moment, giving Logan the 'one-sec' hand signal. Logan nodded and closed the door. "James. Look me straight in the eye and tell me why you can't go in there and see your best friend?" Kelly asked James. He lowered his head and mumbled something. Kelly crouched and looked James in the eyes. "I told you to look me in the eyes and tell me." she said in a bit softer voice.
"Be- because when all- all this st- started... I couldn't help but- but think of my image and- and of what Carlos was d-doing to it. And I knew I was being s-selfish but I couldn't help my-myself. I-I'm a terrible person... aren't I?" James said. Suddenly, Logan whips open the door to Carlos' room and James wipes his tears away softly.
"Umm... Kelly? You- you might want to come in here." Logan says. So, James enters, followed by Kelly.
~Person/Place/Time Change~
"I'm sorry, Jaime. I didn't mean for it to end like this." Carlos spoke.
"It's okay, Carlos. None of us meant for it to end like this. I wish I never got involved with those people. But we can't change the past. I'm scared for you, Carlos. I don't want this to affect wherever your future may lead. Please, Carlos, stay safe." Jaime said. The officer then took the phone and hung it up. The officer grabbed her by the forearm and pulled Jaime away, the girl waved one last time.
"Bye, Jaime." Carlos whispered.
~To Be Continued~
A/N: Okay so this has been a work in progress for about a month now and I really don't know where I am going with this. Originally it was supposed to be a one-shot, but then I realized it was far too long where I was taking it. So now I am open to suggestions, and for now, I am leaving it as an open one-shot. May inspiration one day hit me like a brick to the face (Tom & Jerry style, please! LOL). So again, ANY suggestions (including pairing ideas, genre ideas, plot suggestions, ending suggestions, writing suggestions etc.) please leave in a Review or PM me PLEASE!