Summary: Jude writes a song for Tommy after her 18th birthday. Just read it, i think it's pretty good. but then again, i'm biased.
Disclaimer: I don't own instant star or "The bolder thing to do" by Gregory and the Hawk
Jude:
He's just sitting there, just flippin switches. He doesn't look sad or upset, he looks like he does everyday. Except for one thing, he's not smiling, at all. I don't know if this makes me more sad or angry. I think that i'm more sad. I sit on my stool and put my headphones on. I strum the guitar a couple of times before i look up at him again. "I'm ready." I say before he asks. He just nods "Jude Harrison, the bolder thing to do" he says into the microphone. As soon as he releases his mic button i start the song
Every day trying to make up for the one before
climb three flights to tremble at the sight of your already open door
the frustration I see when I tell you I like some company
breaks my heart
how can you be so impartial?
Everytime i close my eyes i see him and sadie, kissing. I went up to apologie for my behavior, my fickleness and he's kissing my sister. I don't know what was sadder, me going up to apologize for something there was no need to apologize for or me catching him with my sister as i'm about to apologize for something there was no need to apologize.
and I've made myself the fool
who's fallen for you
so let me down softly this time and
I wont have to come back cryin'
I've just made myself look bad and
you're the one who should be feelin' bad
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to
The sad thing is that i should have known better. He'd hurt me before, i should have known he would do it again. A zebra can't change it's stripes right. I just wish i would have seen it coming, realized what was happening before i got up on stage and announced my undying love for him. Well, i thought it was undying.
energy spent trying to believe you're not worth it
you don't deserve it
but I wish you did 'cause I can't live without this
and I'll remember you as the second or two
artists I knew who decided to screw me over
'cause it's the bolder thing to do
It was true, he wasn't the first guy to publicly humiliate me at my birthday, he was the second. He was the second guy to break my heart into a million pieces and just leave me there. It was also the second birthday that ended with him kissing someone inappropriate, first me, then Sadie. I was trying my hardest not to look up at him while i sang. I if i did i knew i would start to cry, and i refused to cry in front of him.
and I've made myself the fool
who's fallen for you
so let me down softly this time and
I wont have to come back cryin'
I've just made myself look bad and
you're the one who should be feelin' bad
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to
I guess that line wasn't really true. If there was anything i wanted to do, it was forget Thomas Quincy. But then again, when he wasn't breaking my heart, he and i made amazing music. If it weren't for him i would have quit, my first song would have flopped and i wouldn't be able to stick it to him for hurting me again.
and I've made myself the fool
who's fallen for you
so let me down softly this time and
I wont have to come back cryin'
I've just made myself look bad and
you're the one who should be feelin' bad
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to
I looked up as i sang the last line, Tommy wasn't where he was before. I looked around, confused, where could he have gone?
"Forget it." I thought to myself taking off my headphones. I put my guitar in the case and left the booth making sure to hit the button to stop recording as i walked for the door to the studio. Just as i was about to pull the door open i felt a hand on my shoulder. "I can't talk right now... i have to go." I stated trying to keep my voice even and keep my eyes from leaking my emotions onto my cheeks.
"Jude.."
"I lied. The song was about you and i lied. I do want to forget Tom. I want to forget and i have to go."
"Jude don't do this."
"You did it first Tom." I said pulling the handle of the door and walking out into the common area, i was safe here. There was no way Tom Quincy would make a scene in the middle of G-major. That's what i thought anyway...
should i continue?