I wake slowly to the sight of soft sunlight flitting in through a crack in the curtains. I turn to see if I'd disturbed Alec. I hadn't. He's such a deep sleeper he could probably sleep through a natural disaster or maybe a not so natural one I think smiling a bit to myself. I watch silently as Alec continues to sleep. Alec was beautiful. His raven hair on the verge of being so long it was beginning to curl delicately at the nape of his neck. His pale snow-white skin marked with black scrawling runes and a lacework of scars. The clothes he wears to bed are almost as ratty as the ones he wears during the day I smirk affectionately at the thought. Alec was serene and still. He was sleeping, but his stillness was unreal even for a deep sleeper. I blanch. The alarm and fear going off in my head makes me nauseous. I wear an expression of scared disbelief.
"Alec?" I test my voice cracking.
"Alec?" I call panicking as I shake Alec.
"Alec!" I shake him more violently as tears spring to my eyes. "Alec!"
"What is it Magnus?" Alec groans turning to face me rubbing at his eyes. I fling myself into his arms the relief overwhelming.
"Magnus?" Alec questions alarmed by the tears running down my cheeks. "What's wrong?"
"I thought you were gone! I thought you'd left me too!" I moan in anguish.
"What do you mean left you? I'm right here?" Alec inquires confused.
"You were so still! I thought I'd lost you! I knew you were sleeping, but you didn't move at all. I thought you were-" my voice cracks from the agony.
"You thought I was dead?" Alec finishes shocked.
"I was scared. You all leave me in the end and I'm never ready to let go!" I cry out the tears flowing from the pain caused by the deep scars on my heart.