Misery
By NeomyRose
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Disclaimer: Do I have to do this, I don't own Mai HIME
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Chapter 1
I can't explain how it feels, but it's tearing me from inside.
I wanted to shout it out.
Natsuki went downstairs into the kitchen where her mother was making some tea.
Natsuki was wearing some tight fitting blue jeans and a purple sweatshirt.
Her long navy blue hair was currently put up in a tight pony tail.
She could disable your life functions with just one look with her emerald eyes and Natsuki doesn't have a clue of what she is capable of, the little heartbreaker.
But she has one big mission and let us all hope for her that she doesn't fail…
"Mom, I want to tell you something." Natsuki looked very anxious, she can't fail now. Her mom turned immediately at the sound of her anxious voice.
"What is it Natsuki-bear?" Mom was looking curious through Natsuki's eyes, 'Did she break any rules at school? Wait, what am I thinking, that doesn't bother Natsuki at all and it must be something else, something important, I think I know what.'
Natsuki's mother named Saeko is a free spirited woman with navy blue hair and sapphire blue eyes, she's tall and quite an attractive woman and of course not to mention, a genius scientist. It's very clear that Natsuki inherited her genes from her mother.
But most importantly Saeko loves her daughter and she has a good guess of what her daughter tries to do. 'You can do it Natsuki-bear.'
Natsuki took a big breath of air to calm herself down and then it was time to confess.
'If things could go wrong, so be it because I don't want to lie to my own mother and I have to be honest to myself. I don't want to keep this secret to me all alone, I am ready to share.'
"Mom" Natsuki sighed 'here we go.'
"I umm actually wanted to tell you this three years ago, but I felt that I wasn't ready, but now I feel that I'm ready and it's better if you let me finish what I have to say, is that okay with you?."
She was so nervous and kept looking down; her mother gave a sigh 'My Natsuki-bear.'
"Alright Natsuki, I won't interrupt you." Mom smiled already knowing what she will say.
'I'm proud of you Natsuki, but then again you're so easy to read. I already figured it out years ago through your childhood.' she thought remembering it very clearly as if it was yesterday.
They were sitting down at the dinner table in the kitchen.
"You know of the relationship between Uncle Sergey and Nagi, right." Mom nodded.
"Well...". Silence ensued for a minute 'I can't go back after this.' Then Natsuki spoke with a soft voice.
"I feel the same way as Uncle Sergey, I umm like girls the same way as Sergey likes men.
I'm a lesbian." Natsuki looked up, there was this deafening silence, Natsuki's waiting for some backlash but it never came.
Instead she was fiercely hugged by her Mom. "Natsuki." Mom cried out, Saeko was getting emotional.
Because there's a difference in knowing the truth and hearing the truth straight from the source and the moment when she heard her daughter say it made her feel so proud of her baby. Saeko looked at Natsuki.
"You're my daughter, you're my flesh and blood, you're my baby and I'll always I love you for who you are"
Natsuki felt flabbergasted and happy. It took her three years to gather her courage, THREE YEARS of her life to tell these words that she couldn't utter because of her fear.
And right now it didn't felt like a scary thing at all.
'Oh god, I'm pathetic, I should have said it three years ago, and I should have known better, that my Mom wasn't going to reject me.'
"Mom, thank you for loving me, I love you too." Natsuki blushed like a tomato and buried her face in her mother's arms.
Saeko chuckled. 'That girl's still so shy.'
She caressed her red cheeks. "And, who is the lucky girl?."
A moment later Natsuki sputtered out of her arms and looked down "There is none."
"Oh, so you don't have a crush at this moment?" Natsuki nodded.
Saeko looked surprised.
"I could swear, that I have seen some girls giving you the look, you know."
Natsuki blushed again "No, I'm not sure that I can trust them, most of them would try to get in my pants as Nao would say and I really don't want them to get in my pants."
"Ah yes, it's very important to know what you want in a relationship and I'm glad that you don't feel the urge to jump into one" 'Especially when she's back.' Saeko said.
"But you should know that there's one person out there who loves you with her whole heart so please don't give up on her, let's hope that she will find you or maybe you will find her."
Natsuki was blushing her ears off, it was kind of cute. 'I really hope so, I do want to find her'
"Oh speaking of finding girls, my best friend Shiori has moved back to Fuuka and she has invited us to catch up with her." Saeko was very happy to visit her best friend.
Natsuki was glad for the topic change, it made her incredibly shy to talk about girls and her mother was the opposite of her.
"So Aunt Shiori is back, she lived in the US right?." Natsuki looked a bit puzzled.
Saeko was working on her poker face. 'She doesn't remember that she also has a daughter, oh this is too great, I bet that Natsuki would like her'
"Yes she has lived there, but she has moved back due to her work and we are visiting her tomorrow." Saeko couldn't contain her glee and got up to make some tea.
While her Mom resumed making tea. Natsuki became calm while inhaling the air.
'I told Mom about my true preference, well at least it's over.'
Natsuki followed her mother's actions and then she remembered this little detail
'Wait! Didn't Shiori have a daughter? I'm pretty sure that it was that annoying girl, who kept teasing her.' She put her hands to her chin looking deep in thought.
'Umm, what was her name again? I remember calling her Baka- chan but I don't remember calling her by her name? Ah forget it I'll ask Mom.'
"Mom?." Natsuki waited for her Mom to react. Mom has a tendency to space out.
"Yes Natsuki" Saeko turned around to face her.
"What's the name of Shiori's daughter?" Saeko was surprised. 'Natsuki already found out about her'
"Ah, Shiori's daughter"
Mom returned with two tea cups filled with smoking hot tea.
"Wait, you don't know her name because you called that sweet girl Baka-chan." Saeko gave a disappointed look and shook her head. Natsuki couldn't help but to defend herself
"But that was because she was annoying to me and she kept teasing me." Natsuki pouted. 'Not fair and I still want to know her name'
"You have to be nice to her Natsuki, she was your best friend, you two were inseparable when you were little and she'll be transferring to Fuuka Academy this week- "
'No way, transferring to my school, I have to hide from her and no we weren't inseparable, she was the one who kept following me.'
"Natsuki are you alright you're looking a bit pale." 'I have to know her name before she could find me at school'
"Mom I still don't know what her name is, could you please tell me"
"Her name is… Shizuru Fujino." Saeko looked immediately at Natsuki's reaction.
"Shizuru Fujino." Natsuki tasted the name and it felt weird, a bit sweet, but it fits Baka-chan. 'It feels weird to know her actual name, it gives me the shivers'
"Maybe you should take a rest and prepare for tomorrow" poking her daughter.
"Yeah I will prepare, umm for what?" Natsuki looked confused. Saeko looked at her with amusement.
"We will be visiting Shiori tomorrow, don't forget it" Natsuki's heart stopped for a moment
'Why does it feel like I'm in big danger?'
"Ok, I won't forget it." Natsuki went to her room and groaned in realization 'I'm going to see Baka-chan umm no Shizuru tomorrow and I can't hide from her.'
She sighed in misery.
Natsuki took off her clothes and got into her bed, she was lying in bed with only a black top and a matching pantie.
"She won't be that bad right? Maybe she's grown into a mature girl." 'Why am I so worked up over this girl, why do I worry so much about her, it's not like I have a crush on her.'
Just then her heart started to race wildly and her face flushed red.
'This is weird, what is that.' Natsuki got up and pushed the blankets away.
She stood in front of the mirror and took a good look at herself.
'My chest hurts a bit and my heart keeps pounding like rapid fire, is this normal?' she pressed her hands against her chest. She could feel the heartbeat.
"Ah this sucks." She took her top off and looked at her chest area.
She was stunned 'Wow, something is growing over there' she cupped it for a few seconds and turned a bit in front of the mirror.
'So this is what most people have become obsessed with huh, wonder why, is it because it's round, I don't get it.' She put her top back on.
She yawned "Uhh I'm tired but there's so much to do."
She jumped into bed and took her laptop plus the holder and turned it on.
She opened her notepad and saved the date and time on it and she typed some things so she wouldn't forget it.
'I told Mom about my preference and no, it's not a dream.
Baka-chan name is Shizuru Fujino, she moved back from the US and she's transferring to Fuuka Academy in about a week, I'm going to meet up with them tomorrow, wish me luck.
Reminder*1 Have to tell Chie and Nao about my preference, don't know when, but soon.
Reminder*2 Have to tell Mom about my weird heartbeat habits, maybe have to go to the doctor.
Reminder*3 Have to ask Nao or Chie about why people like round shaped things.
Umm that's about it I think' she saved the document and turned the machine off and put it away.
She wiggled in a comfortable position to sleep.
She sighed 'Okay, I'm in for a tough ride tomorrow' and she fell asleep.
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"I made some changes in the story, I hope you'll like it, thank you for the cute reviews, see you next chapter... xx.
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"I've realized that the story is too short but I can only write 4 pages maximum, that's my limit, I can't fill the story with unnecessary words that would ruin the story itself.
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