Disclaimer I don't belong the show, characters or the song by Greenday. I'm just a fan who likes to write lol.
Give me Novacaine Pt. 1
Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore
You blame yourself, you know you shouldn't but you do. He came to you. He choose you. Not her. And that's why when he said we should celebrate you got the bottle of tequila. You didn't know he had gotten a letter from Marissa, saying she loved him but only as friends. You saw this as a chance to hook up with the boy who saw you as second best. The same boy who was your only friend. You helped him get drunk. And If you wouldn't have asked him when he wanted to hook up he wouldn't have been in such a hurry to climb that cliff.
Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a kiss goodnight and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine
You cry motionless in your sister's arms. As she tries to shield your eyes from seeing him fall. But you still see, your eyes glued to his face as the bottle of tequila breaks. You see him lying there unconcious in the water. As Ryan has his hand over the cliff, Ryan Atwood the boy who saves everybody couldn't save him. You can still hear his voice, screaming at your sister.
"After all we been through I get to be your best friend. No way, leave me alone." "Right, right so you can save me one more time in front of Marissa. Hey Marissa, Marissa you want to watch him try to save me again. So she'll love you anymore."
"What I might fall and you get to come in and grab me at the last second. Ryan Atwood saves the--" And its over and its too late. All that screaming for him to get down, all the crying. You couldn't do anything to save him. You were useless.
Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, thats alright
Jimmy says it's better than air,
I'll tell you why
At night you can feel his lips on yours, his face haunts you while your trying to sleep. He's taunting you, telling you that you'll never have him. You'll never be Marissa.
You'll never be good enough. Your not her. That he didn't want you. How your the one who messed things up, by showing up at Newport.
And you agree because you wanted to make Marissa miserable, you wanted to ruin your life. And now your left with the memories and the nightmares.
And thats why you go to bed drunk and wake up with hangovers. Because you are Kaitlin Cooper, the girl who grew up with Marissa as an older sister. The girl
who is forgotten. The girl who couldn't make him forget. The girl who caused him to fall. And your numb with all the pain and you say you blame Ryan and Marissa
but who you really blame is yourself.
Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a kiss goodnight and everything will be alright,
Tell me that I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine