Why does she hate me? I wondered to myself? Why doesn't she want a
relationship anymore? Whatever did I do wrong?
"Gabby, if I had to I would put myself right beside, would you like
that?" my piercing blue eyes flickered on her face.
"Troy if u even say that one more time, I will hurt you, I love you.
Troyy-yy"her eyes were in a daze as she was telling the truth, but it
wasn't the whole truth.
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
"Would you rather someone else? Do u at all love me?" my piercing eyes
shut.
" I say this love is the last time, ever" Gabby's mouth spoke out
evenly.
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
"Gabby do u like that this is the last time? Why, why are you like this?"
I asked
"No, I don't like it but it's what is happening, so just leave me alone"
No
"Gabby tell me what is wrong, I love you and your making this so damn
difficult."
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be
"I look back and I see how far I've come" she replies with a frown.
"How far you've come isn't enough. Well Gabby what makes you tick my
dear?"
Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
" I don't know?" she replies helplessly.
" Do you know that every day and night I worry my head off about you,
sick and sore but I worry about you, because I love you."
There's a fine line between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that
"Well I like how, it feels to know that someone is caring about me, it
makes me feel good." Gabby sighs.
"I like how our relationship is between love and hate, but why Gabs why?"
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be
"I don't know Troy but you have to let go, I'm going to be gone. I love
you!"
"I never knew it wouldn't last long, but our love has a barrier in the
way," Troy whispered letting the love of his life walk away.
Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become
2 days later
"I will crawl to her, where is she? I am not going to wait for long.
This is ridiculous. I would die for her, OMG what have I become? Where
did the cocky and player Troy Bolton go? I am in love with her, and
she's gone."
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane
As I lay awake contemplating years later at her grave why she left,
looking through her diary, burning the ones where she had said things
that would make you want to die. I stood up and walked to our 7 year old
daughters, who looked exactly like her, one with my eyes, and with her
eyes. I think they were just to kill me inside to remind me why she
wasn't here. I wondered how she could have kept such a secret from,
me her husband. Why she left, knowing she only had a few days left, and
trying to save us from the guilt and sadness upon her. I understood my
wife's sudden death. But it will always remain a mystery to me why she
kept it hidden. Kept the fact that she had cancer and was going to die.
But then again there are some things that I will never know, but I do
know, that she loved us no matter what. And I loved her and there is
nothing that could change that, not even death.