Jessica sat cuddling the huge Hello Kitty doll he had won her on their first date while watching him walk back to his car in the pouring rain. He nearly caught a glimpse of her looking out from the second story window, but she had quickly closed the curtain before he had a chance. He had desperately tried to see or talk to her, but she refused for a good reason. Jessica had loved him with all of her heart and if she were to tell the truth she still did, but she didn't know if she could ever forgive him for the pain he had caused her. The pain never seemed to go away even after a month of trying. She was able to run from it during the day time, but once night fell it attacked every inch of her being until all that was left was a puddle of tears.
Flash back… Jessica walked down the hallway ready to give her boyfriend of two years the best and scariest news she had ever received, but instead as she rounded the corner she saw his ex-fiancée and him kissing. It felt like a dagger going through her heart and she couldn't find her breath. Within seconds he had turned to see her standing there and realized what she had seen. It wasn't what she thought at all, but Jessica didn't care. He had his lips attached to another woman; that sight would forever stay with her. She forced herself to turn around and run away. After a brief chase through the building she had made it all the way to the parking garage before he caught up to her. She was opening the door of her car when he grabbed ahold of it and kept her from leaving. She started swing at him not really aiming for anything. It was more of a failed attempt to put distance between them.
"Get away from me, JOHN." Jessica screamed and pushed him as hard as she could.
"Jess it's not what you think. I swear. She kissed me." In her mind that was the oldest excuse in the book.
"Think about what you just said and then think about what I just saw. I don't need this right now and I don't want you around me. It's OVER." With that said she got in her car and started it, but John stood firm in the door way.
"I'm sorry. Please baby, don't leave me. Please, I'm begging you. I love YOU." However, his plea was cut short when she started to slowly back up forcing him to move out of the way. As soon as he had moved she shut the door and drove away. The drive home would take several hours, but she knew she needed time to clear her head. So in a weird twisted way the ten and half hour drive from Birmingham, Alabama to Jacksonville, North Carolina would be a blessing at the time mixed with uncountable amounts of tears.
That was a month ago and John still wouldn't give up. He sent cards, letters, flowers, balloons, stuffed animals, and tickets as well as back stage passes to every wrestling show he would be at. However, Jessica never responded. When he would show up at her house that she shared with her older sister she wouldn't see him, or if he called she wouldn't answer. Kylynn, her sister, had been placed in between the two by Jessica. Kyls loved her but the games were starting to get old fast. However, she didn't know how to tell Jessica what she thought without hurting her feelings. John had already hurt her enough and Kyls didn't want to make it worst so she kept her opinion to herself.
The knock on her bedroom door stirred Jessica out of her past and back into the present. It was Kyls. Kylynn had known the minute John had shown up that her sister was probably watching from her bedroom window. It was strange to her, but every time right before John would show up or call Jessica had seemed to know that he was on his way or something because she would dart up the stairs to her room and not come out for hours. Kyls knew that they both still loved each other, but they were both still hurting. She hated to see the pain on John's face or hear it in his voice, but Jessica still refused to discuss the problem with anyone and she really couldn't blame her.
"Jess, when are you going to talk to him? It's been a month." Kyls questioned. Hoping not to upset her even more, but it would do no good Jessica just sat in silence looking out the window from the dark room still clutching tightly to the Hello Kitty. Kyls, aggravated already slowly walked out of the room in defeat leaving the light turned off as she shut the door. Tears continued to stream down Jessica's face and the pain had found her again as the rain started to pound harder on the window seal.