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Disclaimer: As much as I love Twilight Saga, I still don't own it and never will.
-~-Perspective: Edward Cullen-~-
Prelude: Invisible Strings Of Misery
I repeated it for a long time.
I told you "I love you" countless times, but all of it had only made you was feel sad. It was the opposite of what was supposed to happen.
I was expecting to see you smile brightly; but this is just wrong.
It must've hurt you a lot when I, of all people, was the one who made you miserable.
I left you alone, in the deep dark forest where many dangerous animals lurk. It was a bad decision, I told myself. But . . .
It was only for your safety, I wanted to tell you this, but I've been tongue-tied before I can even reach out for you, and tell you everything I wanted you to know.
Even now, far away from the forest where I've left you all alone, I still cannot move.
My body was frozen from a certain distance away from you. I saw you break down in tears. It was . . . It was . . . too much for me to handle!
I want to hold you tight and securely in my arms. I didn't expect to see you crumble – be devastated – as I only said one word: good bye.
I know you're stronger than that. But I didn't realise that this one word can mean so much.
Why is it so painful to touch you?
It's like I can still feel you – like I'm beside you . . . touching your limp body. It's painful for me; painful enough that I needed to get away as much as possible.
I think it is because I was afraid of making the same mistake and losing you.
I'm so sorry, Bella. I thought, as I disappear from the place.