*A/N: Welcome readers and Makorra shippers! This is my first fanfic. Okay, so this story is mostly told from different perspectives. There is romance, but a lot of action and suspense along the way. I ask that you please, be patient. Smutty scenes may occur later in the story, but don't expect a bunch of fluff all the time. I hope you enjoy, and please review and/or PM me to tell me how you like it, any questions, concerns, or anything like that. If you enjoy this, please favorite and follow. I greatly appreciate it. Thank you!
Also, I am helped out with this story a bit by JinoraTheAirbender. Please go check out her stories and her recent one, When Everything Changes I have been assisting in writing so go read that Makorra story too!*

By the way, (disclaimer) I do not own any of Bryke's characters from Legend of Korra.

Mako's Perspective:

It's almost been a month since Korra and Asami left for the Spirit World together. I think back to the day of the wedding, and I cringe. I just wanted to talk to her..to tell her thank you. To tell her I'd always be there for her. She didn't even seem to notice I was there. Her look was vacant. Her thoughts were wandering. She had a type of eagerness about her; she was anxious. The last thing Korra was thinking about that day was me.

I have only told one person about the encounter between Korra and I after the wedding.

"I'm sure she cared, Mako! She loves you," ensured Bolin.

She does not love me, and that I am sure of.

"Bolin, she doesn't love me. I'm not even sure if she likes me."

He likes to be rather distant when he talks to me nowadays. I may just be making this all up in my head. I don't know. Bolin is so infatuated with Opal that every conversation he has with someone other than her does not last long. He tells them what they want to hear, then tries to evacuate the situation as soon as possible to get back to his love story. 2 weeks ago, Opal told him he needed to get a job. He didn't like that idea.

We've all been busy cleaning up the city. 'We' including the Korra Krew..well everyone but Korra. And Asami. Those two seemed to have escaped the dirty work. Then again, what do I know, they could very well have their own 'dirty work' going on in the Spirit World. I try not to think about that, but how? How am I supposed to ignore the fact that my two ex-girlfriends ran off with each other into the spirit world? Asking that of me is way too demanding. I, instead, will continue to dwell on my past with both Korra and Asami. Whether people call me suicidal, depressed, whatever, I don't care. I am still getting over it.

Asami was a phase. I was into her, take that as literal as you want, but she wasn't the one. Was Korra the one? I WOULDN'T KNOW. Actually, I would know, because I feel it. I feel the longing deep in my heart. The hope that somehow...somewhere deep in her she still cares about me. Hoping that she still likes me is too much to ask, unfortunately. I settle with the idea that she thinks about me now and then. What she is thinking, I won't ever know. I just hope sometimes she takes her brain off of her precious Asami or whatever the two are spending their time doing and thinks back to the real world.

I'm not really sure what I'm going to do when Korra returns. Do I rush to greet her, or do I avoid an interaction? Will I go to the 'Welcome Back' party, or do I wait to run into her sometime later in the city? Hopefully I'll know what to do when the time comes, if that time comes. I am sure they won't stay in the Spirit World forever. Asami will need to get back to check on Future Industries. And Korra is still the Avatar. The actual world needs her to be..in the actual world.

I always tried to be rational around Korra. Being the Avatar isn't easy. I spent enough time with her to figure that out. She is so stubborn, yet she knows exactly how to handle things.. I guess that was one of the hardest things about dating her. We fought all the time. Sure, her reasons for fighting were ridiculous at times, but in the end she always had a valuable reason for being mad. Maybe if I wasn't such an idiot..I can't think like that. "Being hard on yourself will get you nowhere." Tenzin's stern voice echoes through my head. Sure he's right, but it is not that easy.

I have good days. They come randomly. Two days ago I didn't think much about Korra. I actually met this girl while I was at the market grabbing a snack. She wasn't a bender, I could tell, but there was something about her. She had short curly hair. A lighter brown. A bit like Korra's, but shorter. I asked her name. "Talan," she blurted out a bit more abruptly than meant, I'm sure. I flirted with her a bit. I even asked if she wanted to sit down and have some tea with me. She hesitated with a blush, but she smiled and finally agreed.

Being part of a group that saved thousands of people and stopped a mad dictator who almost demolished Republic City will get you some fame. Sure that's great for a guy like Bolin, but I prefer staying to myself and having people like me for who I am, not what I did. Still, in times like these, flattering girls seems to come easier.

Talan and I talked for hours. She asked me all sorts of questions. What was it like saving the city? Do you like fire bending? Is your arm okay? Did you like Korra? It eventually got annoying. I realized she didn't understand. No one understands if they haven't been part of the group enough. That's why I feel bad for Pema. As much as she is a very essential part of our lives, she never went with her kids or Tenzin on any missions. Of course she couldn't. She doesn't bend and she has to take care of Rohan. Still, I'm sure there is some distance between her and Tenzin.

I settled with the thought that I did enjoy the night with Talan, but nothing would ever become of us. "It was a pleasure spending my night with you, Talan. I hope to see you again sometime in the future." She nodded, smiled and began to walk her separate way as I started back to my apartment.

Opal didn't always want to stay with Su anymore because she was still fairly strict. And I was getting a little annoyed of having Opal over every night. She is a wonderful girl, but I am not a huge fan of listening to my brother's ridiculous way of trying to impress his women. I guess he didn't have to do much with Eska, but Opal is a bit more difficult to please.

Eventually I convinced Bolin to get his own place. Not exactly just for the reason to have Opal all to himself, but because we are grown up now and we don't need to live together if we have the opportunity to our own places. He jumped on the idea. And with that, Opal basically lives with Bolin. And I, live alone. Pabu still sneaks in my window every now and then when it's open. He may miss me more than Bolin. That's not his fault, Bolin just has that kind of personality. Nevertheless, I host dinner at my place every Wednesday night. Just me and the bro. Sometimes he brings Opal, and I do enjoy her company.

My arm is healed quite rapidly since I have started seeing Katara 3 times a week for therapy. She is an awesome help. And I don't mind talking to her. Sometimes I stay extra just to sit and chat. She tells me I remind her a bit of Zuko when he was younger. We both tell stories. Of travels with the Avatar. I find it very easy to talk to her about Korra. She understands completely, and she gives great advice. But the biggest problem is, she got her man. She got her Avatar. And here I am, deprived of mine.

Katara reminds me almost everytime that it was a progress. It was no perfect love story. There are ruts in the middle, and fights were recurring. She tells me not to give up. She says there is no true way to be sure what me and Korra had is gone forever. It helps hearing this from her, but I can't help but feel like nothing can go right with me. I'm the bad guy. I was the one who ruined everything. There isn't a thing I can do now fill these open holes. I am forever without my true love.

On lonely nights, I go to the places Korra and I spent time I travelled to a cave on the outskirts of Republic City. I think back to our nights alone and our first time having sex. I wasn't a virgin at the time, but Korra was. Of course she was. She was confined to her training all her life and the only other date she had been on was with my brother. I know for a fact nothing went on there; Bolin would have jumped right on the opportunity to rub in face that he had been with the Avatar. Anywho, I will never forget that first night.