If I had known how much pain that I would be in when I wrote this, I would have never promised myself to write it. It's good to know that you have been safe thus far on Nar Shadda, if it possible to say such a thing about that world. I'm glad to here that the Empire had no presence there. However, I can understand why it has taken so long before you could let me know where you were. It's been almost seven years since I last saw you. Four since we last heard anything from each other. So as you can guess, I have to tell you.
As for things here on Csilla, there is trouble almost every day of the week, every hour, every minute. As you can probably guess, father hasn't visited once since he joined the Empire and you had to run. I found out last week that he's the commanding officer of a Star Destoyer. Great job for him.
Three years ago, Jacun announced that he had enlisted into the Empire and was leaving for Carida the next day. He's now a Stormtrooper Commander. Letlan, a year ago, joined the Empire. He was chosen for walker training and is now an AT-ST pilot. He's the only one who acknowledges my existence now.
Two weeks ago, Paul was out with the underground setting up an ambush. They were betrayed though, and were in turn, ambushed themselves. Our beloved Jacun shot Paul at point blank range in the face. I was there mom. I saw it. I must have killed almost sixteen people including Jacun. He didn't know who I was when I was standing right next to him.
The Empire has gone too far. They drove you into hiding. They stole my father, even though he was bastard. They took Jacun, and stole his mind. And now they've stolen Paul's life.
I wish you were here so that we could be together. I haven't forgotten anything that you taught me. I still have the datapad with all of your advanced instructions on it. I was able to get to the point to where I could unlock the file for making a lighsaber a year and a half ago.
Letlan's on leave. He's sitting across from me now. He's tried to get me to not do what I'm going to do. I'm joining the Rebel Alliance. By the time this gets to you, I'll be a ground soldier. I will make the Empire pay. I have to. For you, for what they've done to our family...for what they've done to everyone. Letlan is coming with me. He's not thrilled with the Empire anymore. Not after what happened with Paul and Jacun.
I hope someday that we can be together again mom. Even though it would be just the three of us, we could be still a family together. Oh and the Empire has no presence on Intuci and Hythrope IV. So if Nar Shadda becomes too dangerous (like it isn't already), those would be good places to hide.
The Empire has been in control for the last seventeen years. I'm nineteen now. I can make it hurt for what they have done to the galaxy and to the Jedi. Do not worry mom. I'll be careful. Nobody's going to find out about this former Jedi youngling.
All my love,
Emelian Carsht.
New Republic Archives
Name: Emelian Carsht
Age at joining: 19
Age at death: 25
Place of death: Hoth
Rank: Captain
Details: Captain Carsht was one of the people who stayed behind on Hoth in order to buy time for others to escape. The last time she was seen in the battle, she was igniting her green lightsaber and engaged another individual with a red lightsaber in combat.
Name: Letlan Carsht
Age at joining: 23
Age at current: 34
Rank: Commander
Details: Commander Carsht is in charge of the security in the Coruscant sector.