THE WINTER OF TEARS
CHAPTER 1
As I looked into his eyes he seemed like the boy I fell in love with, but in some way, he was
different. I couldn't tell until he embraced me in his arms, and that's when I knew that he had changed.
"I have to leave soon." he spoke so softly I almost couldn't hear him.
"Let me come along with you. I can help you and besides, do you think that after waiting this
long to see you that I'll let you leave just like that? I can fly one of them or repair them if they're damaged.
You know that I can fight and I want to help you. Quatre, I can't just let you go. I was raised and trained
to protect you and your family and that's what I intend to do." I said convinced that this was what I must
do.
God I wanted to cry as he left with a brief kiss upon my cheek saying, "I don't want you to get
hurt.", why do men always say that? Well, the only good thing is that I got the tracer on him. "I'm sorry
that it has come to this but. I can't let anything happen to you." I whispered into the dark.
As I walked in the dark trying to find him in the distance I could see the light of a distant fire.
That's where he was and that's where I had to go. I slowly walked up to it but as I reached the fire no one
was there. Then three boys jumped down from the trees, but only one that I recognized. They were about
to attack me when Quatre came out to speak with me.
"What are you doing here? I thought that I asked you to stay there?" I looked at him as he keep
asking question after question.
"I can take care of myself. I'll be fine, and yes you did ask me to stay out of it, but I can't. And I
won't. I was told to protect you and that's what I'll do, no matter what you say." I looked at the other
boys, the one I knew was Duo Maxwell but the others were still a mystery to me.
As I started to walk away one of the boys told me, "It's dangerous out at night you can stay hear
but in the morning you have to leave."
He was a young Chinese boy with long jet black hair. "No thank you I'll be fine on my own and I
won't leave in the morning either."
I knew that he wanted to hit me but I could see that he was a man of honor. As I walked away I
could feel their eyes on me. How I wanted to look back at them but I could only keep going not only for
my own good but for his too. I made a bed out of some leaves and went to sleep.
In the morning, I was the first one up, so I made them all breakfast and woke them when I was
finished cooking.
"Good morning" I said as a boy with brown hair grabbed a plate, but he just looked at me
strangely.
"I know you don't trust me but you can't get rid of me now. I'm here to protect Quatre and that's
what I'll do till the day I die."
The Chinese boy then told me "It seems that you wish to die."
I looked at him because it was true, I did want to die for Quatre. Maybe it was because I wanted
him to see how much he meant to me. "No, death is just part of my job and I'll do my job to the best of my
ability even if it means my death."
Duo walked up to me and whispered in my ear. "I know how you feel about Quatre and I know
how he feels about you." I turned around as fast as I could. "Can we talk alone?" he looked in to the
woods and started to walk away and I followed. Quatre stood there as we walked away.
"How could you tell? I mean yes I do love him but I'm not allowed to." I kicked a stone on the
ground towards him. "I don't know how I could tell babe. But I can also see he cares for you and maybe
someone else does too." I looked at him as Quatre walked up to us and Duo walked away.
"Hello, Master Quatre. How are you?" I looked at him and smiled.
"I'm good and please don't call me Master. What were you two talking about?" he asked.
"Well you are the new Master of the Winner family and we were talking about the past. We also
had a little talk about someone that we both knew."
"Please don't come with us." he said gravely.
I gave him a serious look "Listen no matter what I have to do, it was your late fathers last wish
before he left. You're the only one that can carry on the Winner name. So I must protect you with my life.
Plus there's more to the story than you need to know and more than you think." I said looking away from
him. "And I know you don't want me to get hurt but I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you died. I
lost everything but you. While you were gone both my parents died and I was wounded. You're all I have
left in my life, you're my only friend." then I whispered "and perhaps even more." I walked back to where
the others are.
Duo looked at me "Can I at least know the rest of your names?" I asked.
The Latin boy spoke first "I have no name but if you must call me something call me Trowa
Barton."
"And I'm Heero Yuy." The silent Japanese boy spoke in a firm voice.
I walked up to the Chinese boy his jet black hair still pulled back in a small ponytail. "And you
are?"
"WuFei" was his answer.
"I am Tacal Saysa." I looked at Duo again and smiled. Then we could hear mobile suits coming
towards us. "Master you and your friends stay here, I'll go see what it is."
As I started to walk away Duo said "I'll come with you."
Looking at Duo I said "No, I'll be fine thank you." but he still came with me.
I walked in silence as Duo talked. Finally, I laid my finger on his lips as we stopped "You know
we'll get captured if you don't hush up. Besides, there's something I need to ask you."
"Shoot."
"Do you find me attractive?"
"Ya why?" I walked up and kissed him but as we kissed I knocked him out.
"I'm sorry but I don't want you to get hurt." I pulled out a radio and called Heero down "Heero
we need some help Duo is knocked out. Home in on our signal." Quatre then got on his radio "You wait
here for us, okay Tacal?"
"Yes sir." I said, but as soon as I got off the radio with them I left.
I began to run to were the Oz mobile suits were. When I reached them I got into a Leo and
started to fight. They fought back and I put up a damn good fight but still I was the one to fall. When they
came and got me out of the suit, a woman was their leader, I didn't recognize her "You're new or else
your weak because I'v never see you before." she looked to be German "I'm Lady Une and you must be
Tacal, Mr.Treize has told me about you."
"Should I feel honored?" I asked impudently.
She slapped me immediately. "You know Treize would not approve you hitting me." I said
licking blood from the corner of my mouth. As she slapped me again I took the guards holding me and
bashed their heads together, making sure to slap her back before getting into a Leo and distroying the rest
of the suits that were theirs. By the time my companions came no one was there but me.
"I asked you not to leave." Quatre said, for the first time he raised his voice towards me.
"I wanted to protect you. Quatre there's more to my life and thoughts than you know, than you
think, or understand. My life has no meaning but to protect you. Even if against my ex-lover and your
wishes. Quatre I knew you better than anyone and I......I loved you more and still do." I walked away but
he ran up to me.
"You what?" he stuttered in disbelief.
"I love you." I said in a quiet but firm voice.
"Why didn't you ever say anything?" he asked imploring my to explain.
"I wasn 't allowed to. Your father and my father said that it could never be, I'm a warrior and your a
peacemaker, and besides that, I'm not good enough for you." I said looking deep into his eyes. He began
to speak but I laid a finger a upon his lips. "Shhhhh... don't say a thing it was both our families said that
it shouldn't be." I gently laid my lips upon his. Slowly ending the kiss I mournfully told him "Friends
forever that's all we can be." He sat on the ground as I walked back to the others. "I'll make lunch..."
We all ate in silence but I didn't eat, because I couldn't. Duo looked at me "Can we talk?.....
Alone please." we walked into the woods "I'm sorry. It's just" then he kissed me it was long and sweet
after the kiss I could not speak he pulled me closer to his body. I could hear his heart beating I looked at
him "You're not mad about me knocking you out?" he shook his head. "Solo sometime I wonder what he
would say about us." he just smiled "We should get back Quatre will get worried about you." he whispered
"Just a little longer." then I continued "We can't keep this up. I either have to tell Master Quatre or we
must end it but .........I don't want to do either." he looked at me and frowned I knew what he wanted to
say. "You know I also love Quatre. I can't lie to you or him." I could see WuFei up in a tree. I walked
away from Duo and went to the camp.
I walked up to Quatre "You must not fight anymore. Not in this war but none other as well."
"I must." he said with conviction.
I looked at him a tear ran down my cheek. "Then he has already won. I must leave now for
Milliardo is waiting for my report." as I went to walk away Quatre hit me and I looked at him as another
tear fell before I left.
I walked in to see only Noin. "Is Master Milliardo here?" she shook her head
"What happened?" she asked looking at my face.
"He hit me. He still doesn't relize that we're not the enemy." "Does he know how you feel about
him?"
I shook my head as Milliardo walked in. "Sir I have returned with the report on the Gundam
pilots, and whether or not they see us as allies." I could tell how much Noin loved him. "Come on." we
walked into his office "They still see us as the enemy, but I think that I could convince them that we're not
if I had a little more time."
"Your face what happened?" he asked.
I put my hand on my cheek "Oh this? I got punched, nothing major."
"You know Treize would be upset if you were to get hurt."
"Well his Lady Une has a good back hand and Quatre can hit me if he wants to. I must go, my
brother is waiting for me." I walked out of the room and Noin was still waiting out in front of it.
"Brother, who is Lady Une?" we were having our normal cup of tea. He wasn't my real brother
but still I loved him like one.
"She is my assistant. Why do you ask?" said Treize inquisitively raising a single eyebrow.
"She slapped me." I calmly stated, sipping my tea.
"You're the one that attacked us?" he asked setting his tea down.
"Yes. I was on a mission and they were in my way. Was anyone hurt?"
"Not badly." he replied.
"Is anyone in the hospital?"
"Yes the two men whose heads you bashed together had to be hospitalized for head trauma."
I set my tea down "Who are they and where are they?" "Private Jackson in room 203 and
Lieutenant Locklin in 360." I got up and left to see them.
I walked in to Jackson's room first "You're the one that did this to me! Why are you hear?" he
asked outraged, just as his wife got up and slapped me. Some of my men grabbed her and went to take her
to jail
"Leave her be. And I'm here to apologize. Please forgive me I was on a mission and you and your
team were in my way. I am Lady Tacal I wish not to fight with you but if it would help" I took out a knife
and placed it in his hands "you may wound me in return."
"You're prepared to die to make amends?" he asked slightly stunned.
"I am ready to die for what I believe in." I said chin held high. Abruptly the knife dropped from
his limp fingers. "Good bye and good day sir." I walked out.
As I walked in to Locklin's room no one was there but him. "Hello." he looked at me "I am Lady
Tacal and I wish to say that I'm sorry for what I did to you." he sat up and patted the bed. I walked over
and sat down. "I know you were on a mission, so there is no need for an apology. Not from you at least." I
smiled as he ran his hand down the side of my face. "Your face is so soft and you eyes are beautiful." he
smiled as he drifted back into sleep. I kissed his forehead and left.
I walked back to were I had left Treize. When I walked in, I could see Lady Une talking. "Ah
Lady Une." I said as I sat back down.
"It's you!?!" she went to slap me when Treize stopped her.
"Don't you ever raise your hand to her ever again!" He had never before raised his voice to her.
She stopped and looked at him and then left. "It's all right brother I must leave anyways. I need
to go and finish a mission." I walked over to the door and looked back "Oh and Miss Une stay out of my
way. I woudn't want to have to hurt you pirtty lil' face that your men love so." I walked away and into the
hangar.
"Is it finished yet?" I stood there looking up at a tall emerald green Gundam. "Not yet ma'am."
Burkas told me. "How long till it is?" I was stunned it was just so beautiful! "Ummm... probably by tonight
or tomorrow morning." he said smiling before going right back to work. I left for Milliardo's office in the
Sanc Kingdom.
"Damn it." I was running from some OZ solders. I ran away from the Sanc Kingdom. "I can't
keep this up much longer." I told my self as I ran through the woods I had been running for quite a while
now. I finally stopped. "All right I thought that you'd leave me alone. Now that I see you won't." I attacked
two guards before I was shot in my leg. "Damn!" I forced myself to stand. "Don't you dare pull that
trigger. You want to be the one that killed Tacal Saysa?" I said hoping this would make them less eager to
shoot. I held myself with the tree I wasn't about to let them win. I slowly pulled out a gun and shot the two
men that were still there. I ripped some of my shirt and tied it around my leg and started running as fast
as I could. I finally made it to a secret entrance and went in.
My ankle gave out and I had to crawl to where Noin was. She quickly ran over and helped me to
my seat. "What happened?" she called a doctor before I answered her. "Ready the troops Oz is right out
side the gate. My Gundam is being moved so that it can be finished." I stood back up. "I'm going to take a
Leo out. I'll lead them away and you and your team can protect the Kingdom." I began to walk away. "I'll
call Quatre and them. You stay hear Lady Tacal." Noin was right we did need help. "Okay you can call
them but I'm not staying put." I walked to the hanger with Lt.Noin. "I'll contact them." "Hello Quatre,
Duo, Trowa, Heero, and WuFei. I Lady Tacal ask for your help at the Sanq Kingdom. We are low on
forces and we desperately need your help. Our forces are weakling now I must join the battle. I pray that
you'll come to our aid." I ended the transmission and entered a Leo.
"Lt. Noin please take care, and Master Milliardo you be careful they're after you and Lady
Relena." I took my Leo out into battle. 'Quatre please help the Sanq Kingdom and please take care.' my
thoughts were on Quatre and his friends even though I was now in the center of the battle fild. I had taken
out a few mobile suits but was attacked from behind. My suit fell to the ground, however once I got it to
stand again a bullet passed through the armor and through my chest. Once the gundams reached the battle
field it wasn't long till the battle was over. They all returned to the hangar I tried to slowly get out of my
mobile suit but I fell to the catwalk that was below me. I couldn't see anything but I could hear Quatre
calling my name and Milliardo calling a doctor. I tried to talk but nothing came out. Unconsciousness
stole over me and I knew no more.
I yawned and opened my eyes and looked around. Quatre and Duo were both sleeping in chairs. I
looked at them and smiled. I ran my fingers over the bandage that was around my chest. I didn't know
how long I had been here. I tried to stand but the IVs in my arms kept me for standing. I pulled the IVs
out and took off my heart monitor things. I sat there looking out the window when two doctors ran in.
"Shhh you'll wake Master Quatre and Master Duo." My eyes didn't move from the window.
"We need to put your IVs back in and you heart monitor." the older doctor explained.
"I don't need any medication to help the pain and the heart monitor won't do much good, since
my heart is fine." I stared at the mobile suits outside the window. "Will you please tell Master Milliardo,
Lt. Noin, and the rest of the Gundam pilots that I would like to see them when Master Quatre and Master
Duo wake."
"Yes Ma'am" they both left as Duo woke up. "Did you sleep well?" I finally took my gaze away
from the window and placed it on him.
"You're awake!" he exclaimed as he woke Quatre up. I smiles as Quatre slowly opened his eyes.
"You should have let him sleep." I said reprovingly. Quatre was surprised to see me sitting there.
"You're up!" he came and hugged me I slowly wrapped my arms around him. "What, did you think that
I'd leave you?" I teased. "Remember I told you that I'd always be there for you." he let go as the others
came in. "I'm sorry." I hid my face from Milliardo and Relena. "They followed me that's why we were
attacked." I had promised to protect them but I failed. "No, don't say that you were the only one that was
seriously injured. You saved us all by calling the Gundams to our aid." "But Miss Relena." she sat down
by me. "Your Gundam is here." she looked out the window. Heero put his hand on her shoulder. "Miss
Relena I would like to take my Gundam out." I looked out the window. "You'll kill yourself. No one can
drive it." WuFei protested. "Master Milliardo please." he nodded.
I went to my room to change I slowly unraveled the banages from my chest and looked at the
wound. I slowly ran my finger tips over it. It would scar I slowly put new bandages on it. After I changed I
made my way to the hangar. "Is that it?" I asked as I walked up too WuFei.
"Ya, but I still think you shouldn't go." he said with apprehension.
"Listen to me Mister. I was trained from birth to protect and kill. I was born to fight and protect.
I wasn't born to sit down and heal while there's a war going on. I wasn't born to let the man I have to
protect and love go and fight for me and most of all I'm not going to let you have all the fun." I shot him a
devilish smile.
I stared at the emerald, crimson, and black Gundam. Duo and the others came in. "Well lets get
this show on the road." I winked at Quatre and climbed in the gundam. "Okay systems go. Okay Burkas
open the hatch." He followed my orders and I took the Gundam out and tested it. This Gundam was fast
and strong. It carried guns and a sword much like Heero's. After a while I brought it back to the hangar.
I slowly walked out of the hanger. "See it was nothing. I told you that I'd be..." I passed out from
not laying down like the doctors said that I should. My dream was the same almost every night. I would
dream about either Quatre, Duo, or Solo. I loved all of them but only two remained for me now. That
night my dreams were of Quatre. In my dreams we did so much and I never wanted to return to reality.
The way he was in my dreams was nothing like in reality, more of a Duo than Quatre. The way he'd kiss
me or touch me in my dreams. Why even dream when that's all they were, DREAMS. I sat up not wanting
to fool myself anymore.
Quatre was awake and sitting in my room. "You all right?" He asked as he walked over to my
bed. I nodded and laid back on the bed when he sat down on the side of the bed. I sat up so I could be
closer to him. "I'm sorry for hitting you the way I did." his eyes were still the same blue-green as always.
My hand found it's way into his. He placed his outer hand on my face.
"There's no need to be sorry." my voice was soft, I was choking up. His face drew closer to mine
until his lips slowly pressed against mine. I kissed back passionately as he pulled me closer and more
deeply into the kiss. My arms found their way under his shirt and around his back. We finally broke the
kiss desperately needing air. "I don't care what my father said I love you. I can't hide it." before I could say
anything more he kissed me again. We would have been laying on the bed soon if it wasn't for a damn
alarm. "All pilots please report to your gears. This is a code red." We broke the kiss and headed towards
the hangar.
I looked around and could see almost everyone was ready for battle. "OZ has attacked us full
force." Good old Treize has perfect timing. "All right get your pansy asses in gear and get the hell out of
here! If they're attacking full force I don't want no men out on that battle field till I'm dead! Get the
civvies to safety!" I barked orders and Noin looked at me. "You take the heirs to the throne and get the
hell out. Don't fight with me Noin I'll handle this here." She nodded and ran off. "Thank you gundams but
you shouldn't be here. This battle is not one that any warrior would want to die in. I'll handle them you
take care of each other." I looked at them. "No we're a team remember." I looked a Duo "We WERE a
team. You're the God of Death. Me I'm the Crimson Angel. Let me carry out your prayers, your pleas,
your desires. You see Duo, Solo died for us. Let me fulfill his dream of helping peace prevail. WE are the
ones destined to kill, so let the blood taint these hands. Not yours or Quatre's hands, but mine. Go now
while you can." I let a tear fall. Duo went to say something but I slapped him.
"Tacal come home when this battle is over. Please." Quatre's eyes said with pleading eyes. I
kissed him then climbed into the Gundam.
I left to join the battle as few men had disobeyed my orders and already engaged the enemy.
"Brother I beg you to pull back." my Gundam took down three Leo's. "No you traitor!" Treize attacked
me. I destroyed his Gundam as he did mine. Abruptly the battle stopped and the ground was tainted red
with blood. They never found my body I was said to have been K.I.A. I watched as they held the funeral
for me and my men. I watched as Quatre cried, as they placed an empty pine box in the ground as a
reminder of me. Most of all I watched the end of Tacal Saysa. I would live on under another name, and I
would live on to protect Quatre. Most of all I would live to earn his love. My new identity, her past and
future even her name were still unknown to me but all I knew was that Tacal Saysa died that day for the
man she loved...
Authors Note: K.I.A means Killed In Action. I do not own all of these characters. But I do own some. I'm
going to write another chapter. I don't know how long it will take. Yes I love both Duo and Quatre. =P
Don't steal this please.
CHAPTER 1
As I looked into his eyes he seemed like the boy I fell in love with, but in some way, he was
different. I couldn't tell until he embraced me in his arms, and that's when I knew that he had changed.
"I have to leave soon." he spoke so softly I almost couldn't hear him.
"Let me come along with you. I can help you and besides, do you think that after waiting this
long to see you that I'll let you leave just like that? I can fly one of them or repair them if they're damaged.
You know that I can fight and I want to help you. Quatre, I can't just let you go. I was raised and trained
to protect you and your family and that's what I intend to do." I said convinced that this was what I must
do.
God I wanted to cry as he left with a brief kiss upon my cheek saying, "I don't want you to get
hurt.", why do men always say that? Well, the only good thing is that I got the tracer on him. "I'm sorry
that it has come to this but. I can't let anything happen to you." I whispered into the dark.
As I walked in the dark trying to find him in the distance I could see the light of a distant fire.
That's where he was and that's where I had to go. I slowly walked up to it but as I reached the fire no one
was there. Then three boys jumped down from the trees, but only one that I recognized. They were about
to attack me when Quatre came out to speak with me.
"What are you doing here? I thought that I asked you to stay there?" I looked at him as he keep
asking question after question.
"I can take care of myself. I'll be fine, and yes you did ask me to stay out of it, but I can't. And I
won't. I was told to protect you and that's what I'll do, no matter what you say." I looked at the other
boys, the one I knew was Duo Maxwell but the others were still a mystery to me.
As I started to walk away one of the boys told me, "It's dangerous out at night you can stay hear
but in the morning you have to leave."
He was a young Chinese boy with long jet black hair. "No thank you I'll be fine on my own and I
won't leave in the morning either."
I knew that he wanted to hit me but I could see that he was a man of honor. As I walked away I
could feel their eyes on me. How I wanted to look back at them but I could only keep going not only for
my own good but for his too. I made a bed out of some leaves and went to sleep.
In the morning, I was the first one up, so I made them all breakfast and woke them when I was
finished cooking.
"Good morning" I said as a boy with brown hair grabbed a plate, but he just looked at me
strangely.
"I know you don't trust me but you can't get rid of me now. I'm here to protect Quatre and that's
what I'll do till the day I die."
The Chinese boy then told me "It seems that you wish to die."
I looked at him because it was true, I did want to die for Quatre. Maybe it was because I wanted
him to see how much he meant to me. "No, death is just part of my job and I'll do my job to the best of my
ability even if it means my death."
Duo walked up to me and whispered in my ear. "I know how you feel about Quatre and I know
how he feels about you." I turned around as fast as I could. "Can we talk alone?" he looked in to the
woods and started to walk away and I followed. Quatre stood there as we walked away.
"How could you tell? I mean yes I do love him but I'm not allowed to." I kicked a stone on the
ground towards him. "I don't know how I could tell babe. But I can also see he cares for you and maybe
someone else does too." I looked at him as Quatre walked up to us and Duo walked away.
"Hello, Master Quatre. How are you?" I looked at him and smiled.
"I'm good and please don't call me Master. What were you two talking about?" he asked.
"Well you are the new Master of the Winner family and we were talking about the past. We also
had a little talk about someone that we both knew."
"Please don't come with us." he said gravely.
I gave him a serious look "Listen no matter what I have to do, it was your late fathers last wish
before he left. You're the only one that can carry on the Winner name. So I must protect you with my life.
Plus there's more to the story than you need to know and more than you think." I said looking away from
him. "And I know you don't want me to get hurt but I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you died. I
lost everything but you. While you were gone both my parents died and I was wounded. You're all I have
left in my life, you're my only friend." then I whispered "and perhaps even more." I walked back to where
the others are.
Duo looked at me "Can I at least know the rest of your names?" I asked.
The Latin boy spoke first "I have no name but if you must call me something call me Trowa
Barton."
"And I'm Heero Yuy." The silent Japanese boy spoke in a firm voice.
I walked up to the Chinese boy his jet black hair still pulled back in a small ponytail. "And you
are?"
"WuFei" was his answer.
"I am Tacal Saysa." I looked at Duo again and smiled. Then we could hear mobile suits coming
towards us. "Master you and your friends stay here, I'll go see what it is."
As I started to walk away Duo said "I'll come with you."
Looking at Duo I said "No, I'll be fine thank you." but he still came with me.
I walked in silence as Duo talked. Finally, I laid my finger on his lips as we stopped "You know
we'll get captured if you don't hush up. Besides, there's something I need to ask you."
"Shoot."
"Do you find me attractive?"
"Ya why?" I walked up and kissed him but as we kissed I knocked him out.
"I'm sorry but I don't want you to get hurt." I pulled out a radio and called Heero down "Heero
we need some help Duo is knocked out. Home in on our signal." Quatre then got on his radio "You wait
here for us, okay Tacal?"
"Yes sir." I said, but as soon as I got off the radio with them I left.
I began to run to were the Oz mobile suits were. When I reached them I got into a Leo and
started to fight. They fought back and I put up a damn good fight but still I was the one to fall. When they
came and got me out of the suit, a woman was their leader, I didn't recognize her "You're new or else
your weak because I'v never see you before." she looked to be German "I'm Lady Une and you must be
Tacal, Mr.Treize has told me about you."
"Should I feel honored?" I asked impudently.
She slapped me immediately. "You know Treize would not approve you hitting me." I said
licking blood from the corner of my mouth. As she slapped me again I took the guards holding me and
bashed their heads together, making sure to slap her back before getting into a Leo and distroying the rest
of the suits that were theirs. By the time my companions came no one was there but me.
"I asked you not to leave." Quatre said, for the first time he raised his voice towards me.
"I wanted to protect you. Quatre there's more to my life and thoughts than you know, than you
think, or understand. My life has no meaning but to protect you. Even if against my ex-lover and your
wishes. Quatre I knew you better than anyone and I......I loved you more and still do." I walked away but
he ran up to me.
"You what?" he stuttered in disbelief.
"I love you." I said in a quiet but firm voice.
"Why didn't you ever say anything?" he asked imploring my to explain.
"I wasn 't allowed to. Your father and my father said that it could never be, I'm a warrior and your a
peacemaker, and besides that, I'm not good enough for you." I said looking deep into his eyes. He began
to speak but I laid a finger a upon his lips. "Shhhhh... don't say a thing it was both our families said that
it shouldn't be." I gently laid my lips upon his. Slowly ending the kiss I mournfully told him "Friends
forever that's all we can be." He sat on the ground as I walked back to the others. "I'll make lunch..."
We all ate in silence but I didn't eat, because I couldn't. Duo looked at me "Can we talk?.....
Alone please." we walked into the woods "I'm sorry. It's just" then he kissed me it was long and sweet
after the kiss I could not speak he pulled me closer to his body. I could hear his heart beating I looked at
him "You're not mad about me knocking you out?" he shook his head. "Solo sometime I wonder what he
would say about us." he just smiled "We should get back Quatre will get worried about you." he whispered
"Just a little longer." then I continued "We can't keep this up. I either have to tell Master Quatre or we
must end it but .........I don't want to do either." he looked at me and frowned I knew what he wanted to
say. "You know I also love Quatre. I can't lie to you or him." I could see WuFei up in a tree. I walked
away from Duo and went to the camp.
I walked up to Quatre "You must not fight anymore. Not in this war but none other as well."
"I must." he said with conviction.
I looked at him a tear ran down my cheek. "Then he has already won. I must leave now for
Milliardo is waiting for my report." as I went to walk away Quatre hit me and I looked at him as another
tear fell before I left.
I walked in to see only Noin. "Is Master Milliardo here?" she shook her head
"What happened?" she asked looking at my face.
"He hit me. He still doesn't relize that we're not the enemy." "Does he know how you feel about
him?"
I shook my head as Milliardo walked in. "Sir I have returned with the report on the Gundam
pilots, and whether or not they see us as allies." I could tell how much Noin loved him. "Come on." we
walked into his office "They still see us as the enemy, but I think that I could convince them that we're not
if I had a little more time."
"Your face what happened?" he asked.
I put my hand on my cheek "Oh this? I got punched, nothing major."
"You know Treize would be upset if you were to get hurt."
"Well his Lady Une has a good back hand and Quatre can hit me if he wants to. I must go, my
brother is waiting for me." I walked out of the room and Noin was still waiting out in front of it.
"Brother, who is Lady Une?" we were having our normal cup of tea. He wasn't my real brother
but still I loved him like one.
"She is my assistant. Why do you ask?" said Treize inquisitively raising a single eyebrow.
"She slapped me." I calmly stated, sipping my tea.
"You're the one that attacked us?" he asked setting his tea down.
"Yes. I was on a mission and they were in my way. Was anyone hurt?"
"Not badly." he replied.
"Is anyone in the hospital?"
"Yes the two men whose heads you bashed together had to be hospitalized for head trauma."
I set my tea down "Who are they and where are they?" "Private Jackson in room 203 and
Lieutenant Locklin in 360." I got up and left to see them.
I walked in to Jackson's room first "You're the one that did this to me! Why are you hear?" he
asked outraged, just as his wife got up and slapped me. Some of my men grabbed her and went to take her
to jail
"Leave her be. And I'm here to apologize. Please forgive me I was on a mission and you and your
team were in my way. I am Lady Tacal I wish not to fight with you but if it would help" I took out a knife
and placed it in his hands "you may wound me in return."
"You're prepared to die to make amends?" he asked slightly stunned.
"I am ready to die for what I believe in." I said chin held high. Abruptly the knife dropped from
his limp fingers. "Good bye and good day sir." I walked out.
As I walked in to Locklin's room no one was there but him. "Hello." he looked at me "I am Lady
Tacal and I wish to say that I'm sorry for what I did to you." he sat up and patted the bed. I walked over
and sat down. "I know you were on a mission, so there is no need for an apology. Not from you at least." I
smiled as he ran his hand down the side of my face. "Your face is so soft and you eyes are beautiful." he
smiled as he drifted back into sleep. I kissed his forehead and left.
I walked back to were I had left Treize. When I walked in, I could see Lady Une talking. "Ah
Lady Une." I said as I sat back down.
"It's you!?!" she went to slap me when Treize stopped her.
"Don't you ever raise your hand to her ever again!" He had never before raised his voice to her.
She stopped and looked at him and then left. "It's all right brother I must leave anyways. I need
to go and finish a mission." I walked over to the door and looked back "Oh and Miss Une stay out of my
way. I woudn't want to have to hurt you pirtty lil' face that your men love so." I walked away and into the
hangar.
"Is it finished yet?" I stood there looking up at a tall emerald green Gundam. "Not yet ma'am."
Burkas told me. "How long till it is?" I was stunned it was just so beautiful! "Ummm... probably by tonight
or tomorrow morning." he said smiling before going right back to work. I left for Milliardo's office in the
Sanc Kingdom.
"Damn it." I was running from some OZ solders. I ran away from the Sanc Kingdom. "I can't
keep this up much longer." I told my self as I ran through the woods I had been running for quite a while
now. I finally stopped. "All right I thought that you'd leave me alone. Now that I see you won't." I attacked
two guards before I was shot in my leg. "Damn!" I forced myself to stand. "Don't you dare pull that
trigger. You want to be the one that killed Tacal Saysa?" I said hoping this would make them less eager to
shoot. I held myself with the tree I wasn't about to let them win. I slowly pulled out a gun and shot the two
men that were still there. I ripped some of my shirt and tied it around my leg and started running as fast
as I could. I finally made it to a secret entrance and went in.
My ankle gave out and I had to crawl to where Noin was. She quickly ran over and helped me to
my seat. "What happened?" she called a doctor before I answered her. "Ready the troops Oz is right out
side the gate. My Gundam is being moved so that it can be finished." I stood back up. "I'm going to take a
Leo out. I'll lead them away and you and your team can protect the Kingdom." I began to walk away. "I'll
call Quatre and them. You stay hear Lady Tacal." Noin was right we did need help. "Okay you can call
them but I'm not staying put." I walked to the hanger with Lt.Noin. "I'll contact them." "Hello Quatre,
Duo, Trowa, Heero, and WuFei. I Lady Tacal ask for your help at the Sanq Kingdom. We are low on
forces and we desperately need your help. Our forces are weakling now I must join the battle. I pray that
you'll come to our aid." I ended the transmission and entered a Leo.
"Lt. Noin please take care, and Master Milliardo you be careful they're after you and Lady
Relena." I took my Leo out into battle. 'Quatre please help the Sanq Kingdom and please take care.' my
thoughts were on Quatre and his friends even though I was now in the center of the battle fild. I had taken
out a few mobile suits but was attacked from behind. My suit fell to the ground, however once I got it to
stand again a bullet passed through the armor and through my chest. Once the gundams reached the battle
field it wasn't long till the battle was over. They all returned to the hangar I tried to slowly get out of my
mobile suit but I fell to the catwalk that was below me. I couldn't see anything but I could hear Quatre
calling my name and Milliardo calling a doctor. I tried to talk but nothing came out. Unconsciousness
stole over me and I knew no more.
I yawned and opened my eyes and looked around. Quatre and Duo were both sleeping in chairs. I
looked at them and smiled. I ran my fingers over the bandage that was around my chest. I didn't know
how long I had been here. I tried to stand but the IVs in my arms kept me for standing. I pulled the IVs
out and took off my heart monitor things. I sat there looking out the window when two doctors ran in.
"Shhh you'll wake Master Quatre and Master Duo." My eyes didn't move from the window.
"We need to put your IVs back in and you heart monitor." the older doctor explained.
"I don't need any medication to help the pain and the heart monitor won't do much good, since
my heart is fine." I stared at the mobile suits outside the window. "Will you please tell Master Milliardo,
Lt. Noin, and the rest of the Gundam pilots that I would like to see them when Master Quatre and Master
Duo wake."
"Yes Ma'am" they both left as Duo woke up. "Did you sleep well?" I finally took my gaze away
from the window and placed it on him.
"You're awake!" he exclaimed as he woke Quatre up. I smiles as Quatre slowly opened his eyes.
"You should have let him sleep." I said reprovingly. Quatre was surprised to see me sitting there.
"You're up!" he came and hugged me I slowly wrapped my arms around him. "What, did you think that
I'd leave you?" I teased. "Remember I told you that I'd always be there for you." he let go as the others
came in. "I'm sorry." I hid my face from Milliardo and Relena. "They followed me that's why we were
attacked." I had promised to protect them but I failed. "No, don't say that you were the only one that was
seriously injured. You saved us all by calling the Gundams to our aid." "But Miss Relena." she sat down
by me. "Your Gundam is here." she looked out the window. Heero put his hand on her shoulder. "Miss
Relena I would like to take my Gundam out." I looked out the window. "You'll kill yourself. No one can
drive it." WuFei protested. "Master Milliardo please." he nodded.
I went to my room to change I slowly unraveled the banages from my chest and looked at the
wound. I slowly ran my finger tips over it. It would scar I slowly put new bandages on it. After I changed I
made my way to the hangar. "Is that it?" I asked as I walked up too WuFei.
"Ya, but I still think you shouldn't go." he said with apprehension.
"Listen to me Mister. I was trained from birth to protect and kill. I was born to fight and protect.
I wasn't born to sit down and heal while there's a war going on. I wasn't born to let the man I have to
protect and love go and fight for me and most of all I'm not going to let you have all the fun." I shot him a
devilish smile.
I stared at the emerald, crimson, and black Gundam. Duo and the others came in. "Well lets get
this show on the road." I winked at Quatre and climbed in the gundam. "Okay systems go. Okay Burkas
open the hatch." He followed my orders and I took the Gundam out and tested it. This Gundam was fast
and strong. It carried guns and a sword much like Heero's. After a while I brought it back to the hangar.
I slowly walked out of the hanger. "See it was nothing. I told you that I'd be..." I passed out from
not laying down like the doctors said that I should. My dream was the same almost every night. I would
dream about either Quatre, Duo, or Solo. I loved all of them but only two remained for me now. That
night my dreams were of Quatre. In my dreams we did so much and I never wanted to return to reality.
The way he was in my dreams was nothing like in reality, more of a Duo than Quatre. The way he'd kiss
me or touch me in my dreams. Why even dream when that's all they were, DREAMS. I sat up not wanting
to fool myself anymore.
Quatre was awake and sitting in my room. "You all right?" He asked as he walked over to my
bed. I nodded and laid back on the bed when he sat down on the side of the bed. I sat up so I could be
closer to him. "I'm sorry for hitting you the way I did." his eyes were still the same blue-green as always.
My hand found it's way into his. He placed his outer hand on my face.
"There's no need to be sorry." my voice was soft, I was choking up. His face drew closer to mine
until his lips slowly pressed against mine. I kissed back passionately as he pulled me closer and more
deeply into the kiss. My arms found their way under his shirt and around his back. We finally broke the
kiss desperately needing air. "I don't care what my father said I love you. I can't hide it." before I could say
anything more he kissed me again. We would have been laying on the bed soon if it wasn't for a damn
alarm. "All pilots please report to your gears. This is a code red." We broke the kiss and headed towards
the hangar.
I looked around and could see almost everyone was ready for battle. "OZ has attacked us full
force." Good old Treize has perfect timing. "All right get your pansy asses in gear and get the hell out of
here! If they're attacking full force I don't want no men out on that battle field till I'm dead! Get the
civvies to safety!" I barked orders and Noin looked at me. "You take the heirs to the throne and get the
hell out. Don't fight with me Noin I'll handle this here." She nodded and ran off. "Thank you gundams but
you shouldn't be here. This battle is not one that any warrior would want to die in. I'll handle them you
take care of each other." I looked at them. "No we're a team remember." I looked a Duo "We WERE a
team. You're the God of Death. Me I'm the Crimson Angel. Let me carry out your prayers, your pleas,
your desires. You see Duo, Solo died for us. Let me fulfill his dream of helping peace prevail. WE are the
ones destined to kill, so let the blood taint these hands. Not yours or Quatre's hands, but mine. Go now
while you can." I let a tear fall. Duo went to say something but I slapped him.
"Tacal come home when this battle is over. Please." Quatre's eyes said with pleading eyes. I
kissed him then climbed into the Gundam.
I left to join the battle as few men had disobeyed my orders and already engaged the enemy.
"Brother I beg you to pull back." my Gundam took down three Leo's. "No you traitor!" Treize attacked
me. I destroyed his Gundam as he did mine. Abruptly the battle stopped and the ground was tainted red
with blood. They never found my body I was said to have been K.I.A. I watched as they held the funeral
for me and my men. I watched as Quatre cried, as they placed an empty pine box in the ground as a
reminder of me. Most of all I watched the end of Tacal Saysa. I would live on under another name, and I
would live on to protect Quatre. Most of all I would live to earn his love. My new identity, her past and
future even her name were still unknown to me but all I knew was that Tacal Saysa died that day for the
man she loved...
Authors Note: K.I.A means Killed In Action. I do not own all of these characters. But I do own some. I'm
going to write another chapter. I don't know how long it will take. Yes I love both Duo and Quatre. =P
Don't steal this please.