Set after the Rachel and Finn break up in Season 2. I don't own ANYTHING! Enjoy and please leave reviews and I will carry it on!
Dear Finn,
I miss you!
I know it's uncalled for, but it is the truth.
I made some stupid mistakes and I know I hurt you and that I don't deserve you, but you are constantly on my mind. Since we broke up I haven't slept much at night and maybe it's due to this that I've been falling asleep in classes and the library.
My days I spend listening to love songs or reading romance novels.
My dads are worried but obviously I won't tell them anything, because it's not their problem.
Finn, baby! I'm sorry.
I miss you!
Rachel
xXx
I found this notebook yesterday. It was pink and fluffy and originally I had just looked in it to see who it belonged toss that I could give it back, but then something caught my attention. There were papers in the book that had my name on them. There were three sheets of paper, so I did what any other teenage boy would do and I looked.
I recognised the handwriting straight away. It was my Rachel's. No, she wasn't mine. Not anymore. She hurt me. Although as I read the letter above I couldn't help but smile at certain things that she said.
Baby, she only called me that when she was feeling super lovey dovey. I missed her. I was kidding myself. I hadn't thought about how stupid I was being. I needed her back. I missed having Rachel with me. I wanted to support her in her career, spend every day with her, have a family with her. I just wanted her in general.
I decided to open the second letter.
Dear Finn,
I miss you!
I don't know why I am writing you these letters as I know I will never give them to you personally. However, I am hoping that by doing this it may help me eventually move on, although this is not what I desire. I love you and I always will. You are my one and only.
Glee is becoming too hard and I apologise as I am not even in the mood for singing anymore. My dream was always Broadway and the West End, but now this life seems dull without you in it. I need you in my life.
I miss you!
Rachael
xXx
I felt the tears prickling at my eyes. She didn't want to move on. She wanted me too. I needed to find her and speak to her. She was willing to give up her dreams for me. Although I would obviously never let her do that.
I stalked through the corridors trying to find the love of my life. My Rachel. I ran into Mike so stopped to speak to him to see if he had seen her. He said that he saw someone that looked like her but wasn't sure whether it was definitely her heading into the choir room.
Why hadn't I checked there? Made sense. At this moment I remembered there ws another letter. I took it out and unfolded it.
Dear Finn,
I hope one day you will forgive me. I was stupid and naive. I think I am more mature now and have realised my mistakes.
Finn I am sorry for this. I need you more than you realise.
Truly sorry,
Rachel
xXx
I read the letter. I was worried. There was no 'I miss you' or anything like that and no more perky and happy Rachel. Glee was the next class I was going to and I hoped I would see her as I missed her and wanted to talk to her and hopefullyshe would give me the second chance that she shouldn't really give me. Or was it a third chance? Anyway.
Walking into Glee, I noticed Rachel straight away and hated what I saw. Although she looked beautiful as always, she looked sad and almost depressed. She was no longer dressed in cute animal cardigans and short skirt but baggy long shirts and jeans that hid her away and almost blended her into the crowd, but she was Rachel and she would never just blend in to me. She would always be my star that would shine.
Mr Schue came in and told us he wanted us to sing a song about how we felt. Rachel stood up for the first time since we broke up and said she would sing. I had missed her voice. I couldn't wait to hear her wonderful voice and finally get to know how she felt but nothing could prepare me for what came next.
You warned me that you were gonna leave
I never thought you would really go
I was blind but baby now I see
Broke your heart but now I know
That I was being such a fool
And I didn't deserve you
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I don't know if I'll get up
And I don't wanna cause a scene
But I'm dyin' without your love
I'm beggin' to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you
Lookin' at the letter you that you left
[The letter that you left, will I ever get you back]
Wondering if I'll ever get you back
[ooh aahh, ooh ahh]
Dreaming about when I'll see you next
[When will I see you next, will I ever get you back]
Knowing that I never will forget
[I won't forget, I won't forget]
That I was being such a fool
And I still don't deserve you
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I don't know if I'll get up
And I don't wanna cause a scene
Cause I'm dyin' without your love (yeah!)
I'm beggin' to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you
So tell me what we're fighting for
Cause you know that truth means so much more
Cause you would if you could, don't lie
Cause I'd give everything that I've got left
To show you I mean what I have said
I know I was such a fool
But I can't live without you
Don't wanna fall asleep
Don't know if I'll get up
I don't wanna cause a scene
But I'm dyin' without your love
I'm beggin' to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you
Yeah!
Don't wanna fall asleep (Don't wanna fall asleep)
Cause I don't know if I'll get up (Who knows if I'd get up)
And I don't wanna cause a scene
'Cause I'm dyin' without your love (Yeah!)
I'm beggin' to hear your voice (Let me hear your voice)
Tell me you love me too (Tell me you love me too)
Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you
I couldn't help it. She finished her song and there were tears running down my face as she finished.I stood up from the bench and walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her as tight as I could without squashing her. I bent my mouth down to her ear and whispered "I love you" just so she could hear it.
"Rachel, that was stunning," Mr Schue said.
There was a round of praise from all our Glee members, even Santana and I couldn't of been prouder of my girl. My girl? Was she still my girl or ever going to be my girl again? I had to make sure of it.