This is a one shot alternative ending to Flutie4lifes "a gift of release", I'm changing it to be that Dean decided to stay brain damaged. That he was selfish for once in his life and wanted security.

Thanks to Flutie4life for the awesome story and allowing me to adopt and carry it on. Thanks for awesome advice on writing and ideas. This is what my brain churned out...

After a fun day at the water park with Dean laughing at Sam's supreme wussiness over heights and speed and of course pie, Dean sat on a park bench

In the fun park with his brother, watching the sun go down. Both brothers where worn out and enjoying the peace when Castiel appeared.

"Shouldn't we be somewhere where there are less people around, Im sure they would be confused when I have to...'

"Yeah let's go back to the hotel room" Dean said with Sam looking on a little worried and confused about the proceedings.

Once they were all in the safe from civilian eyes, Dean who had been thinking of how to explain his decision to Sam sat on the bed holding his toy car.

Smiling at Sam, he said " when you got me this I swear I peed myself with excitement over it"

"You did". Sam interrupted with a smirk at his big brother and the memory. Castiel watched the brothers quietly, he already knew Deans decision but knew Dean needed to explain it to Sam.

Dean gave him a crooked smile "Sammy just don't interrupt and let me continue. I was happy Sammy, no hell memories or dream or fucking else. Only bad thing was that bitch ghost. You found me in the end, I was okay. I can't be the strong one anymore Sammy I can't it's just, Sammy I can't" Dean said brokenly, his face to the floor to hid the tears sliding down his face

"Dean, what do you want now man, it's your decision?" Sam said kneeling in front of his big brother crying himself. "Do you want to go back to how you were yesterday?'

"Yes Sam...I know it's going to fuck us up but I just can't do it anymore Sam, it's just too much. Please understand"

"I do Dean" Sam smiled at his brother gently trying to show the broken man in front how much he did and loved him. Sam's hazel eyes shined with tears, love and determination to get his brother to believe him

"So you don't mind that I'm going to be stupid, in diapers, weak because I'm not strong enough?"Dean asked anxiously" You won't leave me?" he asked in a small voice.

"God no Dean, I'll never leave, not ever." Sam hugged Dean too tightly to him rubbing his back." We'll go to Bobby's place until we find our own okay"

"Okay" Dean smiled at him," I love you man even if you are a wuss" Dean smirked

"Yeah I love you too Jerk" Sam shot back at him

"Bitch" Dean grinned at Sam then stood up and embraced his brother.

Turning to Castiel, Dean and Sam both were wondering how this would play out.

"You know this is permanent Dean, I cannot reverse this again" Cass warned

"I do and so does Sam" Dean stated

"Good lay down its easier for you"

Following CAS's instructions Dean lay down on the bed and smiled at Sam who smiled back crying a little. Dean hoped he would be able to keep Sammy happy if he could.

Castiel placed his hands on each of Dean's temples and the familiar electric blue light came out, Dean fell asleep instantly.

Facing Sam, Castiel said "He will be as he was when he wakes; you are very brave to not fight him over this"

"He's happy, free from our past evils brain damaged" Sam replied

"Yes he is". Handing Sam an envelope from his trench pocket, Castiel began to detail their new documents necessary to life. Cleared records for both Dean and Sam, as well as medical records to explain Deans brain damage if he ever needed medical care. Castiel assured Sam that it all was legitimate.

"Make sure to be happy Sam" Castiel smiled at Sam. "Have a good life; take care of your brother"

"Bye Cas" Sam grinned at the Angel," you too'

Stroking Dean's face for a moment, the Angel disappeared and Dean began to stir. Groaning Dean struggled to sit up. Hurrying to his brother's side Sam pulled helped Dean into a sitting position

An innocent happy expression crossed Dean's face and he hugged Sam with a happy squeal

"Sammy, where Cas go?' Dean asked

"Hess gone home now dude, it's you and me now" Sam smiled at Deans carefree innocent face

"Okay Sammy"

A grumbling noise was heard. Giggling Dean grinned at his stomach

"Hungry Sammy"

'Alright dude, how about Pizza"

"Yeah pizza" Dean clapped his hands excitedly as Sam ordered pizza from room service

While they waited Sam pulled out the clothes that Dean could get on easier and his training pants.

Seeing the stuff Sam was pulling out Dean approached Sam pouting.

"Sammy, no! No pants"

"Dean please." Sam begged hoping Dean would not throw a tantrum again."You need these, please for me"

"Kay Sammy, but I change by self"

"Alright Dean"

After Dean was in his training pants and dinner has arrived. The two brothers stuffed themselves on pizza and fries while they watched cartoons. smiling at Deans delighted laughter at Finding Nemo,Sam was somewhat sad about the "loss" of Dean. He was thinking deeply about their future and how they would live. Pondering returning to school foot the last paper and enrolling Dean in an adult school for the disabled, his musings were interrupted by Dean's huge yawn and smiled at his tired face.

"Come on dude bedtime"

Helping dean into night clothes and making sure salt was securely around the entrances and windows, Sam then climbed into bed. Dean nuzzled into Sam's arms murmuring sleepily" non nigh Sammy love you" as he fell asleep

Sam himself slipped into deep sleep beside Dean with safely in his arms.

The next morning Sam began the long morning routine of dressing Dean, himself and eating breakfast. Dean was a messy eater before, now he was ten times worse. But Sam thought it was amusing because he was just so adorable and innocent as he tried to work a fork into pancakes and bacon they had ordered from room service.

Checking out of the Hotel and the fun park, Sam loaded their bags into the car and got Dean safely buckled into the car.

'My car" Dean exclaimed happily running a hand across the dash in a reverent manner. Shaking his head Sam asked "Do want time alone with her dude?"

Grinning at him Dean settled into the seat, holding mini metallicar, and Sam set off towards Bobby's and their new life together. Sam was already making mental plans about helping Dean and his own prospects but was resolved to get his brother settled first.