47 seconds - confession
"I was shot in the chest and I remember every second of it" Beckett confessed furiously to a suspect in interrogation.
"All this time you remembered" he felt his heart and world stop .
He walked out of the observation room and quietly went and sat in the break room
replaying what he had just heard in his mind he had a lot of questions forming in his mind
but the most important one is, why. Why? Why did she lie? Why didn't she tell him she didn't feel the same way? God so many questions that needed to be….. His train of thoughts stopped by Esposito
"Hey bro you okay your abit too quiet?"
When had he entered the room he hadn't even noticed
"Um… yeah I'm fine"
"You sure you don't seem to good and your really quiet?" not that I'm complaining asked Ryan
"Positive" he replied then leaving and sitting at his seat next to her desk
At that point Espo and Ryan shared a worried look
"Espo did something happen" An concerned Ryan asked
"No he was in the observation room watching Beckett and then come into the break room…. I don't know what happened but it's obvious he's hurt by something" Espo said following Ryan back to their desk."
Sitting down into his seat next to her desk he thought about what happened and what he was going to do about it he didn't want to think about that now so tried to think of why she would lie. Did she not feel the same because when they kissed she kissed him back willingly he smiled at the memory of kissing her. Then there was the swing after she disappeared for 3 months leaving him in the blur, when she was talking about her relationships he could have sworn she was talking about them. Maybe he was wrong not maybe he was wrong because if she did feel the same way she wouldn't have lied to him about remembering. Wow god he really was an fool for ever thinking that she could love him back, had he really though he had a chance with her what was he thinking, that was it he wasn't thinking he was in love with her but she didn't feel the same. Then the same thought he had tried not to think about popped into his mind what was he going to do about it. Was he to leave the 12th? Was he going to confront her about it? Was he going stop writing Niki Heat… no it wouldn't come to that would it. All he wanted to know was why just why nothing else just why did she lie but how was he going to find out why when she didn't even know he knew she lied. He let out a breath and went back to thinking about her about everything he loved about her, the way she laughed, teased, threatened him but most of all he loved her smile the smile that light up the room and his whole heart.
He was deep in thought he didn't notice her walk over to her desk sit down pick up her coffee take a refreshing sip. He didn't even notice when she said his name Castle she repeated Castle she said again shaking his shoulder slowly he began to stir.
"Hmm" he said finally driting back to reality to the one person he wanted to avoid the person who had just broke his heart to the woman he loved
"You okay Castle" she asked looking at him with a expression of concern