I was only 12 when I changed. After that nothing good ever knocked on my front door, my father and sister died only weeks after, my "so-called-friends" left me because I was acting weird, and my beautiful nurturing mother became a drug addict and started beating my brother Ikutu and me. And on top of that, I have to worry about keeping my temper down. Being a wolf isn't easy huh? Well, it gets worse…
It was midnight. The air was cool and crisp and the moonlight shined on me like a spotlight. I was covered in mud and sweat from head-to-toe, my ankles and wrists were tied as my mouth was glued shut. The only movement I could do was wiggle and that got me nowhere and if I rolled down the hill I would basically commit suicide.
The rope tied around my wrists began to feel lose and slippery. I opened my amethyst eyes in victory but I saw what I never wanted to see, blood trickling down my arm.
'Maybe this is better,' I thought, 'Maybe dying from losing too much blood is better than what her murder had planned.'
As I slowly put my head down on the mud, a rustle came from the bushes. I looked over to see a tall muscular man with a beer bottle in one hand and a bag of marijuana in the other. He had one of those creepy smiles on his face, like I was up for something that HE liked. I began to wiggle and scream, but we were in a forest far away from town.
He lied down next to me but not all the way so that he can hover me. The smell of whiskey and marijuana became too powerful f or me to handle and I started to lose consciousness slowly.
His filthy hands began to rom my body as his putrid lips kissed my cheek then on my neck. I stretched my neck to try to make him stop but he only laughed.
"So you DO want this don't you?" His voice filled with lust. He began to attack my neck more fiercely. He sucked and licked and I cried. Why me?
Suddenly his hands made their perverted way up my school skirt. I screamed, wiggled, cried, begged for him to stop but it only made him crave for more.
His hand got deeper and deeper in my skirt when….
BEEP BEEP BEEP!
I gasped and woke up from my horrible nightmare. I was holding my bed sheets to my chest, trying to resuscitate my heart. My knuckles were white and my body was shaky. My chest rose up and down several times before I got the feeling of my heartbeat again.
I stared around my room frightened and scared. I slowly turned the bed sheets over and made my way to my dresser. I looked like medusa. My long blond silky hair was up and tangled, deep black circles covered under my eye from the loss of sleep I've been having, and my rosy pink lips were chapped and well ugly.
I let my hair down to brush the tangles out. It felt great against my skin when it fell on my shoulders then lightly touched my skin. I smiled when I noticed something on my neck, my wolf scare. An entire mouth would stay there on my neck for all and eternity. I felt heat slowly rise up my body. 'No no not now Utau not now!' I yelled slamming my fists on my dresser. I breathed in and out for a few minutes and felt the heat slowly leave my body. I sighed in relief and put on my black chocker when the bedroom door slammed open. I gasped but realized who it was. Ikutu. His blue hair was combed, his teeth were white, and his school uniform was ironed and clean.
"Get up sleepy- oh your up good, its.." He said. (Notice he doesn't say good morning, how are you feeling -_-)
"February 25 the first day of school I know I know." We just got out from our Christmas vacation if you're wondering.
"So you do know, well, get ready you look hideous." He said as a complement. I just stared at him in the mirror. He laughed and turned to go downstairs when I stopped him mid-way.
"And mom…" I asked still staring at the mirror. He made his way back in my room with his hands in his pockets and a serious look.
"(huge sigh) drunk as usual." I looked over at the clock. 6:30 a.m.
Ah." I sighed and nodded. I finally untangled my hair and got my uniform out from the closet. It was a black buttoned up jacket and skirt with black stockings and shoes. Colorful eh?
I lied it on the bed and began to take off my shirt when I realized Ikutu was still in the room.
"Do you mind?" I asked arching a brow head over my shoulder. He just kept staring at me and it kind of scared me a bit.
"Uh, u ok?"
"You had the flashback didn't you?" He asked. He leaned against the wall with his arms across his chest. He was serious.
"Yeah." He's my brother and I can't hide anything from him, no matter how much I try. He nodded and left while closing the door behind him. I looked back at my uniform and began where I left off.
After 15 minutes it was around 7:05. School didn't start until 7:30 but that took 20 minutes walking. Ikutu and I are saving up for a car but it's not easy. An 18 year old trying to save up for college and a 16 year-old just barely getting her license, who would need the car more? And since our lovely mother hates us and refuses to help us in any sort of way, we have to do it ourselves.
I yanked the door open to be blinded by the sun. It felt like 200 needles, 100 for each eye, stabbed my eyes and stuck there. I winced in pain but suddenly heard a slapping sound. I looked over the balcony and saw Ikutu caressing his cheek and my mom yelling at him.
"Mom don't!" I yelled running down the stairs. Her hand was inches away from Ikutu's face heading for a second round. She looked over at me with her dead blue eyes. Her face was wrinkly and a silky grey along with the3 rest of her body and hair. Bottles of tequila lied scattered on the floor from the kitchen to the living room. 'God, how much can this women take?' I yelled in my head. Suddenly a pair of hands came powering down on me and shoved my hard on the ground. So hard it knocked the air out of me. I arched my back in pain while gasping for air.
"W-what I d-do with your (hick up) brother, is NONE of y-your business." She said shakily. I still didn't regain my breath but grabbed enough strength to talk.
"Of course it his (gasp) he's my BROTHER!" I hissed at her. Her hand came inches from my face and braced myself for the sting.
"Come one Utau we're gonna be late for school." I opened my eyes to find Ikutu holding our mother's hand from my face. I sighed in gratitude and slowly got up. Mom got her hand free from Ikutu's grasp and went back to drinking her shots.
We grabbed our coats and bags and opened the door.
"Utau wait!" My mom yelled. I spun around to her sudden plead.
"W-wear something s-sexy tonight, I got a g-great customer for you!" she smiled then waved her hand in the air signaling us to leave. My eyes flooded with tears so I quickly grabbed my things and ran out the door. This is my life. I'm a slut, loner, and a wolf. I would have committed suicide but I stayed for several reasons. 1) I couldn't leave Ikutu with our mom and 2) wolves can only die by another person's hand. What a great life huh? It get's worse…