Kensi was exhausted. She had been tossing and turning all night. But no matter what she did, she just could not fall asleep. The last case had hit pretty close to home. For the whole team. Sam and his wife had been pretty shaken up. Kensi was so thankful that Sam had escaped in time to save his wife from the Russians. But there had been causalities. Sabatino's partner had been killed in the cross-fire. It was truly tragic. What if it had been her partner? Her Deeks? Her stupid, fluffy, annoying partner?

And that was the question that was truly weighing on Kensi's mind. What if instead of Sabatino's partner it had been Deeks? Kensi shuddered at the thought. How could she live without him? She hadn't always felt like that. Hell, she still was nowhere close to admitting that she felt like that. She came close though. Right after they had closed up the case and said their goodbyes and condolences to Sabatino, she had turned to Deeks and said, "Promise me you'll never do that." He asked her what she meant and she had said, "Get yourself killed." He had told her the good news for her was that he had a natural aversion to death but she just turned to him with tears in her eyes and said, "I'm not kidding." That was the closest she had ever come to admitting her feelings for him. He just looked into her eyes and said, "Okay." He didn't say, "I promise." How could he? He couldn't make that promise and neither could she. But at that moment it was enough for her.

She had left the boatshed to the sound of his voice saying, "You smell like sunshine!" She had smiled to herself as she made her way home. But once she settled into her bed she couldn't help but think about Deeks and if it had been him. Finally, after tossing and turning into the wee hours of the morning, she had fallen into a restless sleep. But a few hours later she woke up.

Kensi turned to glance at her alarm clock. 5:30 a.m. Well it was too late to go back to sleep so she decided that she might as well head to OSP and get in a quick morning workout. She showered and grabbed a small breakfast consisting of two doughnuts and a cup of coffee. Then she headed to work.

Once she got there she dropped her bag off at her desk and headed to the gym. But what she saw when she reached the gym surprised her. Deeks was having a go at the punching bag and from the amount of sweat drenching his shirt, it looked like he had been at it for a while. He didn't hear Kensi enter the gym so she took the opportunity to watch him. She watched his muscles ripple as he punched the bag with a great amount of force. After watching him for a while and possibly staring at his backside for a little more time than was strictly necessary, she meandered over to him. He didn't turn to her until she spoke in a quiet voice, "Morning, partner."

He turned and looked at her with tired eyes. He looked as exhausted as she felt. Kensi guessed that he hadn't gotten much sleep last night either. He gave her a tired smile.

"Good morning, Sugar Bear."

"Hey." She took a couple of steps closer to him while ignoring his "sugar bear" endearment. "What are you doing here so early?"

He sighed and ran his hand through his hair, "I couldn't really sleep. What about you?"

"Same."

"Well, I guess we might as well get in a workout while we got the time. Wanna spar?"

"Sure" she said.

She walked over to the mat and dropped her towel on the floor. When she looked up at Deeks he was removing his sweat-drenched shirt. She gulped. How was she supposed to spar with him while behaving herself if he wasn't wearing a shirt? He walked over to the mat. He took up a defensive stance and she did the same. They started circling each other. Kensi got in the first punch which he quickly blocked. She threw in several more but no matter what he seemed to anticipate her moves before she even made them. She was getting frustrated. How could he know her body so well enough that he knew what she was going to do before she did it? Kensi threw in another punch out of her frustration, hoping she would get him. But Deeks was too quick for her.

He grabbed her wrist and spun her around. Her back was pressed against his chest and he held her wrists together behind her back. She sighed in defeat but he didn't let go. Instead he loosened his hold on her wrists and dropped his head to her shoulder. She heard him inhale deeply and respond with a "Gotcha". Neither of them moved though. He brought her wrists around to her front so that he was enveloping her in a loose embrace. She leaned back against his chest and rested her head against his head that was resting on her shoulder. He tightened his hold on her and nuzzled her neck. She turned around in his arms and wrapped her arms around his neck. His head was still nuzzling the crook of her neck so she ran her fingers through his messy curls.

"Hey." Kensi said softly. "We're okay. You know that, right? I'm still here and you're still here and what's most important we're together."

Deeks lifted his head from her shoulder. "I know Kens, it's just…" He paused and looked past her. He began running one hand up and down her sides while his other arm was wrapped tightly around her waist. Kensi shivered slightly at the feeling of his warm fingers against her bare skin. She was wearing only a sports bra after all. He had been spaced out for a little while so she brought a hand up to his face to bring him back to the present. He looked deeply into her eyes.

"I've just been thinking about like, what would I do if I, you know, if you…" He paused again and released her from his embrace. She immediately missed his warmth. She looked down at the ground. "I've just been thinking about what would happen if I were to lose you." He said quietly. "And honestly Kens, I don't have the slightest clue. I don't… I don't think I could live without you." Kensi let out a huff of air.

He took several steps closer to her and wrapped his arms around her again. She sighed and wrapped her arms around his neck. They resumed their previous position of him resting his head in the crook of her neck. He whispered into her neck, giving her the chills, "I know how stupid and sappy that sounds but I have never been more honest, Kens."

"I know, Deeks. I don't know either. What I do know is that we would have to move on. Carry on with our lives. Isn't that what we would want for each other?"

"The problem is, Kensi, that I don't think I could carry on if anything were to happen to you. I mean, you and the team are really the only family I have and losing any of you guys would hurt like hell. But losing you would just be… I mean I… it would…"

"Shh." Kensi whispered. "It's okay. I understand. But we promised each other that it wouldn't happen. You promised that you aren't going to die on me."

Deeks brought his head up and looked at her. "Kensi, baby, you know I can't really promise that. You can't either. What I can promise is that I will do my best not to die and you can be sure as hell that while I'm living and breathing I'm not gonna let you die either. This job, this life, we sacrifice a lot, Kens.

"I know." She said. "Sometimes I just wish that…" She looked up longingly into Deeks' eyes. She didn't have to finish her sentence for Deeks to know what she wished for. He wished for the same thing. And he hoped that one day they would both get what they really wanted. He returned her gaze and slowly, before either of them realized what was happening, he started to lean in. She tilted her head upwards and closed her eyes. She sighed as she felt his lips press softly against hers. At first all he did was give her soft little kisses. He bit her bottom lip softly. She felt heat pool in the pit of her stomach. He kissed her again, running his tongue along her bottom lip, seeking entrance. She opened her mouth and let him in. Their kisses were very slow and very sweet. There was no rush. They had all the time in the world. It was just them and this moment.

He slowly backed her up until she was leaning against the wall. She sighed and tilted her head back as he kissed a trail from the corner of her mouth down to her neck. He kissed along her collar bone until he found her sweet spot. She gasped as he began sucking on it. Her hands were tangled in his hair and his arms were wrapped tightly around her waist. After a while their kisses became more urgent. Kensi started gasping for breath each time they broke apart. She knew that they should stop before something happened but she couldn't find it in herself to want to stop. At this moment she was completely his. From the way his fingers tantalizingly trailed up and down her body to the way she moaned softly whenever he would suck the sweet spot on her neck. Deeks however never wanted to stop. He wanted to stay in this moment forever.

Both of them were so lost in their own little world that they did not hear the voices coming down the hall.

"All right Sam, if I win, you're buying drinks for a month."

"Sure but when I win, you're washing my car for a month."

"Okay, deal."

Sam and Callen entered the gym and opened their mouths wide in shock at the sight before them. Kensi was backed up against a wall with one arm wrapped tightly around Deeks' neck while her other hand was tangled in his hair. Deeks' arms are wrapped tightly around Kensi's waist and they are kissing like there's no tomorrow. Sam and Callen turn to each other with shocked faces.

Dun dun dun! Callen and Sam caught Densi kissing! Oh no! Anyway, I'm thinking this will be a couple of chapters long. What do you guys think? Also, if you are following my story "Missing You", I promise that it is going to be updated within the week. Thanks so much for reading! Reviews are love!