A/N Yes another post ep. I had such a shit past week and then today and this is the only way I can properly process all my emotions.
Her body hits the heated wooden floors and there is only one thought on her mind.
"Castle"
She drags herself to where his is sprawled out close to her, adrenaline leaving her each move she makes.
They had a plan, and contingency plan. This was not supposed to happen. She factored in getting hurt but never, not even in her back up plans did she foresee Castle getting caught in the crosshairs. This was the exact reason why she initiated the split, put herself through hell and kept her distance. Her husband would never abandon her to take down anything alone. He was too in love with her and loyal to allow her to fall down the hole alone, repercussions, damages and all be damned. She was highly trained, captain of her own precinct. She signed up for this. He just signed wedding papers.
Laying on the floor bullets in her body, the pain of knowing that her husband is bleeding out beside her cut through her soul sharper than any pain could. They were so close, they almost made it.
They had successfully taken down Bracken, 3XK, Neiman and she had gotten complacent. So sure that this would be another victory. She failed to analyse and assess the situation properly, too caught up in the fleeting moments of joy, knowing that they had defeated Loksat, and that they survived it, all pieces in tact. Her carelessness is the reason why the love of her life now lay at her side, hand grasped in hers, bleeding.
"Castle.." she began voice cracking at the end.
"I'm, she inhales straining, so sorry… thought.. we'd make it" She struggles to get her point across.
She hopes the words she manages to get out convey how she feels. How remorseful she is. She's the reason they're in this mess yet again. She puts him in danger all because she can't let it go. If he dies, his blood will forever be on her hands. A wife too determined, taking her husband down with her.
She hears his breath stutter and his attempts to fill his lungs with oxygen. They need medical help soon if they want to have a chance at survival.
She needs to think. She can beat herself up after this. After she knows she's done everything to make sure he's okay. That he survives this.
She lays still on the ground, his palm slowly losing warmth, keeping time for her. She curses herself for leaving her phone on the bed. This is why her old phone was better. It was small, compact and left in her pocket was just fine. Her new one was bulky and though she did like the big screen it's the reason why it's rarely ever in her pocket.
She struggles to move to a sitting position, hand reaching for the phone she hopes is in Castle's pocket the other hand never escaping his grasp. Thankfully he has he's attached to thing and treats it like an appendage attached to his body.
She dials Espo, he's most likely to answer seeing as he does not have a wife and kids at home.
"Loft, Castle..shot" it's all she manages before she succumbs to the darkness that swallows her whole.
A/N Flying completely blind on this one. I don't even know how this turned out. I just want a hug