How could this have happened, how could have I've been so stupid to have slept with Tony, my partner. Ziva lay in bed next to Tony, she couldn't bring herself to just get up and leave. Should they talk about this? Should she just leave and act like this never happened? She couldn't think of anyway to avoid this. She blames that damn party she should have never gone. She should have stayed home taken a good bubble bath and read a good book, but she had let Abby convince her into going.

"Its Christmas Ziva come on you should spend it with family, were your family". Damn Abby and her way to get people to do what she wanted.

*Flashback*

"Ohhhh look what we have here! Mistletoe!" Abby shrieked as she made her way to Tony and Ziva. They both stood frozen in place eyes wide open neither turning to glance at the other.

"Come on guys its tradition, kiss her Tony!" Abby was being persistent and they knew she wouldn't let them go easy.

Tony turned toward Ziva smiling his DiNozzo smile "Might as well get it over with uh sweet cheeks?

Ziva didn't have time to answer him before his lips gently parted hers. The room seemed to stand still. All eyes were on them at that moment, the kiss really wasn't what Ziva had expected and she didn't expect to miss his lips on hers when he parted away. They fixed themselves up turned to Abby and smiled parting ways immediately when they felt others watching them carefully.

The party was wonderful overall the whole team was there with some of their co-workers. Ziva avoided Tony as much as possible throughout the night from excusing herself to the restroom to turning around and going the opposite way when she saw him coming her way. But by her sixth drink she was beyond not being sober. She could feel him watching her carefully from across the bar. She knew he'd come to her eventually but she really didn't want to talk about that kiss, it hadn't meant anything that's what she kept telling herself so he should tell himself that too because she sure wasn't ready to talk about it anytime soon. When he finally made it to her side he sat down next to her asking the bartender for a drink.

"Getting a little carried away there aren't you Zeeva?"

God she hated the way he said her name like that. It did things to her and at the moment she really wasn't too sure how in control she was of herself.

"It is Christmas is it not Tony?" she was slurring her words he could see that she wasn't sober anymore "I do not wish to talk Tony either you drink with me or you can leave me alone"

"You know what they say if you cant beat them join them" Tony said while he took his first shot of the night

Soon after that first shot came plenty others by midnight Tony and Ziva were cut off from the bartender, saying they've had enough for the night while asking for their car keys since they were clearly in no shape to drive.

"Want to dance Zeeva" Tony said slurring every letter

Ziva answered by grabbing his hand and dragging him out to the dance floor they spent the next two songs dancing rather closely to each other. They could feel their teammates eyes on them while they danced but both were rather drunk to care what they saw by now plus they were only dancing nothing more. That's until Tony hand landed on Ziva hips pulling her closer to him while the tempo of the song picked up. This wasn't supposed to be happening but Ziva couldn't stop herself from grinding into Tony's growing erection. Luckily before things could go any further the music stopped.

"Its late I should be heading home" Ziva said composing herself

"I'll drive with you?"

"It's fine Tony I can make it home by myself"

"I insist" he said giving her a DiNozzo smile

"Fine." and with that they both walked out of the bar wishing everyone a merry Christmas

The taxi ride home was beyond quite they both stayed as far away from the other as possible with what the tiny seat could give. When the driver finally arrived at Ziva's apartment Tony stepped out catching Ziva just in time before she tripped getting out of the car.

"Careful Zi don't want Gibbs thinking I couldn't even manage getting you home safely" Tony said while holding her up right. Ziva stared at him in awe it was like seeing him for the first time she couldn't believe how attracted he looked tonight. She started to lean towards his lips thinking if he didn't want this he would stop her. But he didn't because he wanted this too and they weren't sure if it was the alcohol in them making their attraction worse but when their lips finally touched a fire grew inside her stomach.

"You want to come inside?" she asked him smiling coly.