Kendall leaned over the toilet, stuck his index finger at the back of his mouth and began to empty out everything in his stomach. As that acid feeling stung the back of his throat he stopped to let the pain ease away for a moment before repeating the same motion a few more times. When he was happy with how he felt, he flushed the toilet, washed his hands and exited the bathroom. He walked over to the large orange couch and took a seat beside his best friend (and secret crush) James. James was just sitting there reading a magazine and didn't know Kendall was even there until he said something. "Hey James." Kendall said in a small voice. James looked up from his reading and smiled at Kendall. "Hey Ken, what's up?" James asked. "Oh nothing much, you?" James put the magazine on the table to give Kendall his full attention. "Well I was just gonna go down to the pool and maybe see if one of the Jennifer's were free to go on a date with me tonight. You okay you were in the bathroom for a long time?" Kendall began to sweat a little bit as his heart rate went up but at the same time he had that crushing feeling. He was crushed that James wanted to even waste his time going after the Jennifer's seeing as they turn him down every time. His heart rate going up because he can't tell James why he was really in there. "I really had to go pee." Kendall lied. James nodded his head. "Okay, want to go down to the pool with me?" James asked using his million dollar smile. Kendall felt his heart melt at the very sight of his smile. He's been crushing on James ever since the seventh grade and couldn't get the brunette out of his mind. "Umm...Sure I'll be down in a few just let me get my swim trunks." And with that James got up and went out the door to the pool, leaving Kendall behind with his thoughts. No one knew what Kendall was doing to himself and trust me he's tried to stop but it's become like an addiction. When ever he's sad he does it, when something goes wrong he does it. Kind of like a drug addict. Kendall went into his shared room with James and changed into his swim trunks then made his way down to the pool. When he got there he saw James over by the Jennifers flirting it up with them and getting the attention of red dress Jennifer. Kendall felt jealousy pool inside of him and also hurt. Hurt because he knew James would never flirt with him in a million years. James is as straight as an arrow. Kendall is bisexual. He's had feeling for girls and has dated them but his feelings for James always come back ten times as stronger then before. Sighing, he sat down in the beach chair next to Logan and just closed his eyes. "Kendall you okay you look kind if glum." Kendall opened one eye to see a concerned Logan looking at him. "Yeah, just tired is all. No big deal." With that Logan went back to reading his book on physics. Kendall opened his eyes fully to find James. But he couldn't. So he got up and decided to look for him. Kendall went over to the other Jennifer's to see if they know where he went. "Hey do you know where James is?" "Yes, him and Jennifer went to the park." Kendall thanked them and made his way to the park. When he got there, there was a sight that broke his heart in half. James was sitting on a park bench making-out with red dress Jennifer. Before he could say or do anything to cause a scene, he went back to apartment 2J with tears in his eyes. He knew James didn't love him in a romantic way but it will always hurt his heart to see the person he loves the most kissing someone else. When he got inside the apartment he went right for the kitchen. He ate everything he could get his hands on, full boxes of cookies, a full ice cream bin, and other junk food he could get his hands on. When he was done eating it he ran for the bathroom. He flipped the toilet seat up, bent over the toilet, stuck his finger down his throat and threw up everything he just ate. And this time he just let the acid of his stomach burn his throat he didn't care. All he could think about was James kissing Jennifer. Why couldn't he be perfect like those girls James dates? Was another thought that crossed his mind. Tears feel from his eyes as he threw up what was left in his stomach. When he was done, he flushed the toilet, washed his hands and left the bathroom and went into his shared room. Kendall then changed into his night clothes. A grey sleeveless t-shirt and black pajama bottoms. He curled up in his bed and decided to take a small nap. The whole time he was thinking 'Perfect. You must be perfect, James will like we then.'