Someone once told me that once you see your child in your arms; you fall in love all over again.
When I held my child in my arms; I cried tears of joy. She was so tiny and small, she cried so loud that my love said she was going to be a loud one. When I looked at her lovely blue eyes just like my love, her dark hair just like my own. Everything ells was all my love. She was our baby. She was our little bird. Our Aderyn.
The day we spend on taking care of her and raising her was the happiest day of our life.
Even thought I was a soldier in Alliance, like my mother and my grandmother. I fallowed my mother footsteps. Never once did I think I would lose my other half of my soul. Never once did I think I will be a single mother raising my child. Never once did I think that my love will never come home.
When I heard that my love was killed. My heart broke. My minds become numb. I didn't want to believe that. Not until I saw for myself. They told me that better if I will not see, but I didn't care.
When I saw the body, everything inside of me becomes hallow, I remember screaming and falling to my knees. I remember how I was asking how it happened and who had done this. No one answered me. They couldn't. They didn't know.
I remember walking inside our home, seeing my little girl drawing a picture.
How do I say that her other mother will not be coming back. I remember when she showed me the picture she draws. She said "Look mom! This is me and this is you and mother and also my little brother. Can I get a little brother mom?" She asked me, looking so happy.
I remember falling to my knees in front of my child. I remember hugging her close. She was such a sweet child. I remember crying and she was saying that everything is going to be okay. I looked at her and her eyes, her blue eyes just like my lovers.
I remember telling her, telling her that her mother went away. She asked "When will she be coming back?" I told her, "Your mommy won't be coming back; she went to the place where people needed her. You know your mother always needed to protect others from bad people. Right now she is protecting them."
My child looked at me with tears in her eyes. "Will I see her again?"
My heart broke all over again. I hugged her close. "One day we will."
My girl hugged me all over again. I know that I need to be strong. I need to become stronger.
I looked after my child, as much as I could. I was still in Alliance. I was still a soldier. I was still fighting.
I tried to stay strong for my family. I saw my child grow up; she was already 9 years old.
That day I was on mission, on my baby birthday I was away. I promised to be back on her birthday. But I couldn't. I promised her that I will be back and bring a big present to her.
After our mission that was a success. My commander asked for me. I remember how I walked into his office. He was facing the window, looking at the stars. I remember how he asked me to sit down. Something in his voice worried me. Yet I didn't do as he asked me. I stayed standing.
When he turned around and in his eyes were pain. I didn't know why. My heart started to beat faster. I remember his mouth moving, yet I didn't hear a thing he said. I know how to read lips. So even without his saying I know.
I know. Something happened. I remember him calling my name, but all I saw was my child face. She was gone. Someone took her.
My child was gone.
Missing they said.
Missing.
Gone.
I remember hearing screaming, yet I didn't know who it was. Until I felt warm and strong arms wrap around me, rocking me. I remember hitting something, or someone.
I remember how they said that they will find her.
That Commander promised he will help find her.
They will find her.
All I felt was despair. My world was gone. Everything I loved was gone. Then I felt only anger, rage. Someone took my child. They dared to take her away from her mother. It will be they last mistake they will ever make.
She will find her.
She will find her child and those who took her. And then she will kill them. She will kill those who had hurt her baby.
They woke a demon in side of her.
The Demon
I remember I was still staying with the Alliance, still a soldier.
I remember our Mission.
A rescue.
Mindoir.
I remember walking around the corpses of people killed there. Parents. Not a single child.
Slavers.
Her rage only grows as she walked by those corpses. Her hatred grows.
Then she saw something to her left. She walked closer, and then she heard the sound. Sound of broken soul.
She bends down to her knees and looked inside the small hall.
She saw blue eyes. For a moment she saw her child face. Until she saw the red hair and frighten blue eyes.
Something clicked.
She remembers how she called to her squad. Telling them that she found a survivor.
She remembers telling the girl that she will not hurt her.
She helped the girl and felt how the girl hugged her, heard her cry.
She tried to calm her down. She hugged her close.
Her mother instinct was still alive inside of her. So she used that.
The girl in her arms calmed down.
Her squad mates told her that there were no more survivors.
Only this girl.
I remember asking the girl.
"What's your name sweetheart?" Gentle. I was gentle. Some days I forget that I can be that way.
The girl looked into my eyes. Her eyes locked with my own green ones.
"Shepard. Jane Shepard."
I remember smiling softly at her. I saw that how her eyes brighten as she saw me smiling softly at her, she may have lost everything, yet there was still fire in her eyes. This girl was a survivor.
I remember looking inside these girl blue eyes. A small flame flared inside of my heart. A flame of hope that I though was lost.
"My name is Ana. Lieutenant Ana Nixon."
I held many things in my hands, and I have lost them all; but God has placed me this girl in my hands. Maybe this time, everything will be different.
This time she will protect this girl, so like her and yet is not.
This time she will not fail.
This time everything will be different.
That she swear on her name.
This story will be of my failure and my redemption.
This is my Redemption.
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