I'd never thought that anything this bad could happen. We'd always made it through before but now…A lot of people had died. How were we going to bounce back from this..? Kenspeckle Grouse was dead now. His assistant, Clarabelle, missing. Tanith was gone too. I felt especially terrible when I thought about what happened to her. I felt sorry for Ghastly. After all that time, he'd finally gotten around to asking her out on a date and then that had to go and happen. Why Sanguine, of all people? That was so wrong.. I didn't know if Ghastly knew, and I certainly didn't want to be the one to tell him. The Remnants ruined everything.. They killed people…I killed people. For three whole painstaking minutes, I became Darquesse. I shuddered just thinking about it.
The people who had been possessed were lucky. They didn't remember anything. But me? I remembered everything. I didn't join with the Remnant, it just unlocked something. A part of me that hated everything, that wanted to kill everything and turn it all to rubble, and I couldn't do a thing to stop it. Skulduggery had said that I would only become Darquesse if I let all those negative emotions take over me, ceased loving the people I cared about. He said he'd be right there by my side to help me through everything. I knew Ghastly and Fletcher would be there too. Maybe even China would help too. But Tanith…Or rather the Remnant inside of her would be hiding in the shadows, trying to lead me to becoming Darquesse.
I don't want to be Darquesse. I want to be Valkyrie Cain. I hate thinking that I might become her, even though I thought if I sealed my name, that would end it. But no. It hadn't changed anything. There was still a chance that I would destroy the world. But there was also a chance that it could be changed. Maybe I wouldn't become Darquesse. I like being myself too much. I don't want to turn into some…crazed killer that doesn't discriminate between her victims. The scary thing is, deep down, I think I enjoyed killing those people. That scares me most of all. I know that if I do become that monster, that I would hurt my friends. I'd probably kill Fletcher..And Skulduggery too..And then there would be no one to stop me from destroying the world.
It tore me apart to think that I would kill my friends, my family even. I didn't want to see them die. More importantly, I didn't want to be the one to kill them. But as long as I have people like Skulduggery behind me, I don't think I have to worry. That won't stop me from worrying and it won't keep the nightmares away. But the important thing is, I have friends. I have friends who had brought me back from that nightmarish mindset. But the question was, could they do it again? But another thought hit me, what if they're the cause? I don't want to think about it. I can't even begin to imagine what they might do to bring about Darquesse.
Things are back to normal now. Well, as normal as they've ever been lately. We're back to normal cases. Skulduggery seems glad that he has two friends on the council now. Maybe now it will be easier for him to do things. Though, the fact that he is Prime Detective again is even better. But we'll just have to sit it out and see what happens. Though, we've never really been the type to sit around.
This was something I just felt like I needed to write after I finished Mortal Coil. It made me sad, but I can't wait to see what book 6, Death Bringer, brings to the table. But anyway, hope you liked it. c: