Meredith? She looked awfully determinded. And she looked nervous. She was fidgetting, which deffinitely meant nervousness. She was walking almost at a run. A smile smile implanted on her face. She was beautiful.
"I don't want you to date other people. It may not be enough for you, but I'm trying here so I don't want you to date anybody but me. That's it. Except, I'm scared as hell to want you, but here I am, wanting you anyway. And fear means I have something to lose, right? And I don't want to lose you"
Woah. This was big. Really big. She's really trying..She doesn't want to lose me. She doesn't want me to lose me. She doesn't want to lose me.
Except.. "Meredith." I had to tell her. I HAD to tell her. This wasn't fair. I'm a jackass, I'm a jackass.. i'm a fuckingg...
"Don't say anything. I'm gonna leave and you can say something tomorrow. That's progress right?"
Shit. I love her, I love her so much. And her rambling, and her issues, and she's beautiful..
And i'm an idiot. I don't love Rose. I DON'T love Rose. She's cute, yes ..but she's a terrible kisser. Oh my god. Kissing my sister! Althought that's horribly inapropriate, i'd never kiss Nancy. Never. Oh god, the ethics behind that...
Meredith .. My Meredith, She's .. amazing. At everything..She's not akward or annoying..
I'm a jackass.