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Title: When I tire loving…
Summary: Short drabble, Shizuru-centric
Genre: Angst
Word Count: 339
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WHEN I TIRE LOVING
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Since the time I saw your frail hands crushing that lone flower, all my thoughts circled to one….
I saw you and I was awed. Reveling at your sunshine had been a hobby of mine for so long. Losing it would be fatal.
For my own sake, I hid my heart from view, hoping that you would come into terms with your own, and by some miracle, may it mirror mine. So I wait.
And wait is all I could do.
The reality of loving you for the entirety of my life burdened me. Yes, burdened.
It no longer sparked fire in me.
It just burdened me.
My soul grew heavier with the knowledge of my desire to have you and for you to desire to have me.
Wishful thinking, it may seem, but it is true that my needs get the better of me… most of the time.
I trash and turn, and tire myself to sleep. But I figured it was the best I could do to put myself to rest.
When I tire loving… Ah! That would be the day!
I would never feel this anxiety of you reciprocating, even the tiniest bit of anything, ever… I would never rock myself to sleep, with tears streaming uncontrollably, ever…
I would never worry of trivial things that do not concern me, ever… I would never be this burdened, no matter how heavy the rain is, ever…
When I tire loving… Yes… that would certainly be the day…
I wish… I give in... soon… Just to save what's left…
Please, let me tire of loving…
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"Shizuru…?"
"Hai?"
"What are you thinking?"
"Oh, nothing… Is my Natsuki worried of me?"
"—O-oi! I'm not! Quit being silly!"
"..I would not mind if Natsuki worries about me…"
"I said I'm not!"
…I know…
"Huh?"
"Hmm?"
"I… I thought I heard…Did you just say you know…?"
"Oh my… Is my Natsuki hungry? You're hearing things now…"
"N-No! You… Agh.. Never mind…"
"…."
"Neh, Shi-Shizuru?"
"Yes?"
"… Nothing…"
...I know...
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Encoded by: PBS
PBS: Kye lost track of things and is struggling to be inspired. I snatched this from her notebook. R&R please.