As per discussed in my description I have posted this story before but since I'm so rebellious I thought I'd put it back up, if it gets deleted again I probably won't bother but I will continue to update story as ZaynTwirlsMyCurls on both tumblr, fictionpress and 1DFF. Super sad I lost all the really nice reviews I had so please feel free to leave me some :)

"I'm giving up so just catch me"

Applause and deafening screams erupted throughout the jam-packed arena. Sonny took a moment to let it all sink in, she thought it could calm the nagging anxiety slowly rising in the corner of her mind. Ultimately Sonny found herself mistaken, she took a deep breath and cleared her head.

"Thank you Dallas, I missed you all and it's so great to be home. I hope you guys have had as great a night as I have. Thank you all so much for coming out tonight. I love you guys, stay strong!"

Waving and smiling Sonny hastily made her way off stage. Bearing a wide fake smile she high fived and thanked everyone backstage on the way to her dressing room. She knew she needed to calm down and that she was over-reacting but even reassuring herself wasn't enough to silence the voices in her head. Sonny told herself over and over it was a minor mistake. It wasn't as if it she hadn't fallen over on stage before, she got straight back up and back into the song without missing a beat. Regardless the pressure of perfection still echoed in her head. She turned the tap on and watched the water swirl around the sink. She splashed the water over her face in an attempt to refresh herself but only drew attention to her body in the mirror.

If you weren't so fat you wouldn't have fallen over. Sonny you're so fat. Ew look at how fat you are, you're disgusting. No-one will ever love you because you're so fat. Fat. Fat. Fat! Fat! FAT! FAT!

The chanting in her mind grew louder and louder, throbbing at her ears, Sonny spun round to the toilet with tears streaming down her face. She shoved her fingers down her throat to silence the pounding voices in her head.

Dallas happily walked into the room quickly replacing her smile with a distraught look as she heard the distinctive noise of someone throwing up. Running into the bathroom her heart broke as she saw Sonny slumped over the toilet. Without a word she sat down behind her and pulled her little sisters fragile body against her own. Sonny cried into her sister's shoulder as Dallas slowly rocked her.

"Sonny, what happened? The show went so well." Dallas hugged her tightly.

"No I fell over and it's entirely fault because I'm too fat," Sonny mumbled a reply.

"Don't say that, don't even think it. You are beautiful girl. Mistakes happen, us Munroe's are crazy clumsy and you know it." Dallas smiled as a small laugh escaped Sonny's lips.

"Sonny stand up and look in the mirror,"

"I don't want to look at myself, I'm disgusting,"

"Er wrong, now get up and look," Dallas pulled Sonny to her feet, "Now repeat after me, I am not fat; I am beautiful,"

"I am not fat; I am beautiful," Sonny said half-heartedly.

"Louder, with feeling," Dallas tipped her chin up, pointing her face directly at the mirror.

"I am not fat; I am beautiful." she was louder but emotionless.

"Come on Sonny, shout the truth out," she encouraged.

"I am not fat; I am beautiful," Sonny repeated with the same empty tone.

"Sonny, if you don't believe it yourself, how will anyone else?" Dallas challenged her.

"I am not fat; I am beautiful!" Sonny shouted at her reflection, a shimmering glint of determination and hope in her eyes.

"Yes you certainly are and I never want you to think otherwise, now let's get you cleaned up aye, I've got something to show you."

Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed it you beautiful person you ;)
-Dani xx.