A/N: Drabble. A little insight into Light's thoughts, with a slightly different ending. I know it's not what happens, but hey, it's fan fiction Please don't feel obliged to read - but if you do, I hope you enjoy

Final Words

I may be Kira. I may be a mass-murderer. But I also may be human.

Then again, I might not be human. Who knows? How many people look at a mass-murderer and think "there's a sensitive person with feelings behind the mask"? Exactly.

I have never felt so human before now though, I've never had feelings for anyone like this before. The trouble is, I've fallen for the person who is trying to pursue Kira. The person who is trying to pursue the mass-murderer. The person who is trying to pursue me.

I am human. Behind the shadow in which I'm hiding behind, I am human. I have feelings, I have emotions, and I can be hurt just as easily as the next person. But who really cares about my feelings? I mean, I've killed hundreds of people, people see no good in me. I'm creating the ideal world, but nobody sees it that way.

Blocking out emotions around him is hard. I can't tell him how I feel, and I need to be professional. There's no way that I could tell him about how I really feel. He'd know. He'd have me dead. The again, death doesn't seem too bad an idea right now. You know when you've hit rock bottom, and you know that there's nothing else left for you. My ideal world isn't so ideal, and elsewhere may be the best place to create it.

Who would have thought that a simple notebook would bring me to my own self-inflicted death? A notebook with the ability to kill people; a notebook which shouldn't exist on Earth. But it does, and I found it. It was my mission, but it is a mission that is no longer in my hands. Kira is a title, and Kira will live on. It doesn't matter if Light Yagami no longer exists, as long as Kira is still out there.

I bring the knife to my neck. I feel the cold, steel blade press into my pristine skin. The silver of the knife was glistening, it was almost eerie. One quick slice; that is all it will take.

I feel myself slipping away.

L Lawliet, I love you. You may have lost Light Yagami, but beware that Kira still remains.