I don't own NCIS or NCIS LA, only this storyline
Prologue
Nells screams „G." as she sees the building explode. Her scream carries through the whole OSP and sends shivers down the spines of the agents, who hear her. It sounded so vulnerable, wounded and hurt like she lost the most important thing in her life. Close it was the second thing, but even if Lucas was more important to her, so does it still kill her to see the building with G in it, exploding in front of her eyes.
She falls to her knees crying, lets her tablet fall and grieves. But she still has hope. Until she sees his dead body with her own eyes, she will not believe that he is dead. But the explosion has rattled her to her core. It may be unprofessional to react that way during a mission, but she could care less at the moment. She can't and won't change how this affects her. In this moments she wasn't Nell the NCIS analyst, but the women, who saw the man she loves being blown up in front of her eyes.
Everything around her doesn't matter anymore. She doesn't hear, what happens. How Eric tries to get information's from the others to learn what happened and what their status is. She doesn't hear or see Hetty enter and walking to her. She doesn't even feel as her boss embraces her. Instead she replays the exploding building over and over again in her mind.
The question on her mind is, why he couldn't listen to her, to her gut feeling, because she knew that something would happen. It was him, who told her to listen to her gut in the first place. Should he be alive and kicking as she hopes, than she will give him a piece of her mind? She reaches the next stage and that is anger. Yeah, she is still sad and cries, but she is also angry at his impulsive actions.
Some moments in her head, from which she doesn't know, how long it was in real time, it felt like lifetimes to her. She tries to stop her head from working. Someone is calling her name, so she follows the voice out of her mind and learns it is Hetty, who was speaking. "Nell." she addresses her softly instead of Miss Jones. That is an indicator for Nell, how much of a mess she must look to others at the moment.
Nell looks at her boss, her mentor and somehow part of her family and asks her with her eyes, what she wants. She is ready for everything or at least so she hopes. But with Hetty's next words she gets her continuance back at least a little, let's not forget she saw the man, she loves getting blown up. "They are hurt, but alive." with that Nell's sadness vanishes and she gets a new impulse to act in her mind. She needs to see him, so she gets up and tells her boss with her eyes, what she has to do. The nod from Hetty is all she needs and it encourages her to go on with it. So she went on her way to see the man she loves, G. Callen.
PLEASE REVIEW
EDITED 01/04/2019