Alone
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A/N: Post Informed, Johns POV
She is gone, truly gone
I hear the beep, the voice telling me the line is disconnected, but I can't believe it, won't believe it.
How can she be gone?
How can it be that one day she is here, and the next she is not?
I sit in my apartment, and I taste the bitterness of loneliness, the metal twang of despair. I vaguely know that it was like this one time, in the past. That I was once this lonely. The precincts no better. Her desk is a black hole, a hole that can never be filled by another partner.
I never knew how final the word never was.
Coming to the apartment, I notice something that I didn't notice before. It was a white envelope, sticking out between some files on my desk.
Taking it out, I immediately recognize the handwriting. It is addressed simply to John.
How did I not notice this before? My hands shaking, I take it out. It was on simple lined paper, and I saw several water stains on it. Tear stains? I couldn't tell.
John, I
am sorry I could not see you before I left. There was so much I
wanted to tell you before I left. I cannot tell you where I am or
what I am doing, but I will tell you it has to do with the latest
case. Don't go storming to Star demanding answers (As I was sure
you were thinking) She knows me too well Munch thought dryly.
In your usual charming way. I promise, John, that I will come back.
That I will do whatever can to be with you again.
Forever
yours
Liv
A tear dropped onto the paper, blending with the other stains. I didn't until that moment realize that I was crying.
Folding the paper carefully, I put it in my breast pocket. Next to my heart. Looking around my apartment, it looks different, less lonely. Because now I know that without a doubt she will be back. That one day her presence will fill the room, and until that day I will wait here, waiting with open arms. All I have is a letter stained with our tears to connect us together.
And that is enough.
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