Exclusive! Star of New Musical 'Marilyn' Ivy Lynn: Did She Only Get The Part Because She's Sleeping With The Director?
When I first saw that heading on the cover of OK! Magazine, I thought it was the end of the world. I lost my part, my friends and my lover, Derek Wills, all before the story had been on newsstands for an hour. I thought that my life was over and that things would never get better, so I ran to JFK and bought the last ticket on the next plane leaving the city, a plane that was headed to Ohio. But, even though I thought then that things would never get better, they did.
I'm an actress, not an author. The only reason I'm doing this is because Rachel asked me to, she said, and I quote, "you inspire me so much Miss Lynn and you've helped the glee club succeed and feel whole again, so I think this could be a great creative outlet for you that will not only help yourself but so many others as well." So, I'm going to try and do this, for the sake of Rachel, the glee club and lots of people out there. Who knows, maybe next year this book by me, Miss Ivy Lynn the almost Broadway star, will be sold in bookstores all across the country, perhaps even on the New York Times bestsellers list. But, all I really want to do is help someone by writing this, not fame or glory. A person who's dreams were recently crushed perhaps, someone in a relationship that supposed to be 'no strings attached' and is ending brutally, or even a high school teacher who feels like they have nothing to live for.
I guess after all the crap I've gotten through during my time with the glee club, I could really touch some people, help them, just like the kids did for me. I know that as I take on the task of writing this they'll be there for me too. These kids are more like a family to me than my real one, we love each other even though we're all totally crazy, we listen to what everyone has to say, we talk about our feelings and we love each other for who we are. I'd never change for the kids, and I know they'd never change for me. They think I'm talented and smart and pretty, even when I don't think I am myself. When I'm ready to burst into tears and feel sorry for myself, they help me get back on my feet and tell me how much they care about me, how I deserve to be happy. So much love and respect has come out of our unique relationship, I'm closer to them than I ever thought I would be. I've matured as a person along with them, grown as they did. When we can't express our emotion anyway else, we sing. We make sure we're all comfortable. We make sure everyone knows we'll always be here for them. They want to hear what I have to say and I feel the same way about them. I could go on for hours about all their good qualities.
Well, here's what I have to say to you: it gets better, it really does. You may feel alone and deserted now but eventually, sooner or later, you will feel whole again. It happened for me, it'll happen to you too. Never give up hope, once you give up hope you'll have nothing left. But as long as you keep your pride, hold your head high and stand tall, you'll never have nothing. Just hold onto that and never let it go. Once you give up on yourself, everyone else will too.
A/N: So, do you like it so far? Please review! ~Marissa PS: I didn't watch 'The Coup' yet so if any of this is inaccurate please tell me.