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Title: You're the Reason Why

Translation from You're the Reason Why (french) 2011

Author: Julia R.

Catégory: Romance/Drama

Characters : Julia Ogden, William Murdoch, George Crabtree, Thomas Brakenreid, Darcy Garland, Emily Grace.

Summary : Julia married Darcy there several months ago. But one night can change everything.

Notes : This story began at the beginning of the 5th season.

Mrs. Ogden is not dead.

Disclaimer: The Murdoch Mysteries series is not for me. I'm borrowing the characters. I receive no money for this story.

Chapter 1: Valentine's Day .

It had been seven months she was married, seven months that Dr. Julia Ogden became Mrs. Julia Garland.
It was seven months she returned every night in this house that was hers but that she did not feel at home. Her husband did his best to make her comfortable and happy and most of the time she could, despite the fact that her heart become darker every day . Only seven months and already she did not hurry to leave the morgue at night, only seven months and every minute spent with Darcy seemed to bother her , letting her mind wander to another person . She sometimes had to concentrate to avoid the risk of making a blunder because her mind was playing tricks on her , especially when she bent to conjugal duty had already become an inevitable point in their relationship, but a moment that she spent most often imagine another man beside her. Her head screaming at her not to embark on this path , she made a choice , a choice she had met and all the thoughts that invade when sometimes crossed his eyes and when she was in the arms of her husband, were probably comparable to a sin. Yet nothing could stop her body felt when he slid his gaze on her and when by idnarverstance his fingers brushed her skin.
Julia always mastered and despite what she felt she had sworn that he would always be , even when crossed his dark eyes full of desire.

Finally the young woman finished the report on which she worked for several hours already . She rubbed her neck a few moments , trying to chase all these thoughts that brought back imencablement to the Detective Murdoch.

But she could do nothing because the case could not make him forget all that she felt for him . A love triangle gone wrong , one more , on this day of Valentine's Day it was him particularly difficult to see pain of the young woman identifying the man she was madly in love , and whose body lay lifeless in her morgue. William had helped her leave the room not without having given a long look at Julia who put a time to regain her senses . It was easy for her to imagine William on this autopsy table and she had felt a deep dizzy at the thought.
Because she did not know how she would react if she were to lose him, she does not even want to imagine for a second that such a thing could happen. Yet, she more than anyone else, knew how life was fragile.

She sighed deeply and closed with a snap her notebook before turning off the oil lamp lying on her desk. Night had long since fallen , but even this evening Valentine's Day, she knew she did not need to hurry to go and find an empty house because Darcy still be home very late , and besides it n ' had no desire to do so.
She placed her hat on her head, took her coat , her purse, and left the room with a heavy step off the lights behind her. She went down the stage and came into the street , feeling a gust of wind whipping her face. Her eyes looked up at the station building number four. All the lights were off , all except the Office of the Detective Murdoch.

Even returning at home often late, Julia almost always noticed the small flickering light in the room.
The detective spent most of his time at work, and she knew why this was the case , she felt her heart sink at the thought.
Another flurry of froze a moment , pushing slightly toward the building where was the young man.
She knew she was probably not going the right things, yet she could not bear to leave him alone a night like this . And it was more an excuse not to go , Darcy did not even notice the delay of a few minutes.
She took a deep breath and walked into the building before entering and taking the path she knew so well to the office of his friend.
As she was preaching , she crossed nobody , the station number four was not the one on duty that evening and everyone had deserted at night except himself , who seemed to prostrate to his desk, eyes lost in the dark and empty air.
He did not even notice the young woman move to the door and she took the opportunity to look at a few stolen moments before giving two small knock at the door .
William immediately jumped, looking up at her. Then she gave him a soft smile before slowly opening the door.
- Good evening , she said shyly , stepping inside the room.
- Hello Doctor, William threw rising , what can I do for you ?
- 0h well, Julia sighed embarrassed, nothing in particular I 'd just see how you do.
- At this late hour , you will not be home?
- I ... Julia stammered not want to admit she felt a hundred times better with him in the office rather than at home , I just finished and I saw the light. I wanted to make sure everything goes well after the day you had .
- I'm doing well, said the detective , frowning .
- Good in this case.
Julia gave him a shy smile before leaving his eyes and nervously playing with the strap of her saddlebags .
- Well then , I'll leave you.
-Julia , William replied in a soft voice approaching her, something wrong?
- This case was somewhat messed me , acknowledged the young woman in a whisper , looking again , how is Mrs. Andrews ?
- Well, considering the circumstances .
- Losing the man you love is an ordeal , Julia sighed .
- I have no doubt , he replied , but she should recover and continue her life.
- And if she does not succeed ? Threw the young woman as much emotion invade. And if ever do though she can not forget?
- Julia , William whispered approaching a little more to put his hands on her shoulders a few seconds , he died and nothing can change that. I am well placed to know that you should not live with the dead, but with the living.
She did not answer and looked a moment , feeling a shiver throughout her whole body . Then, as the silence in the room, the detective replied shyly speech.
- You will go home and join your husband.
- I do not want , Julia sighed , this house is so empty and cold . Let me stay here a little longer.
He met her eyes and he simply nodded. So she gave him a smile and dropped her bag that failed heavily to the ground . She took a step closer to William, who looked with incomprehension few seconds.
-This evening it is not Valentine's Day? Timidly threw the detective.
-Yes it is, sighed Julia , I do not want to remind you, you do not have a date .
-No, indeed , but it does not matter , William sighed , looking down .
- Do you have a lot of work tonight to stay here so late?
-No, I just read .
-In office? Julia threw smiling shyly.
- I am also better here than at home. Nobody waiting me.
- Nobody expects me either, Darcy has to stay late at the hospital as often without even noticing he has a wife that is bored at home.
William said nothing and smiled timidly fleeing her eyes. Yet she saw that spark in his eyes that sparkle she loved and that made her believe that if William was her husband she would not be alone in their big house . She would be in his arms entwined front of a roaring fireplace to a much less grand than hers, but so much more living in peace she could not hope to be somewhere else .
Julia took a deep breath , feeling her heart beating wildly in her chest , and a pleasant warmth in her entire body. She took another step toward the man who stood in front of her , standing just inches from her.
- Julia , he murmured, unable to say a word .
- I know I should not tell you this, but ... I miss you terribly.
She finished her sentence in a barely audible whisper , her face so close to that of William she could feel his hot breath on her skin, breath so nice it was like a caress.
- No , indeed you should not , 'said William , without moving an inch , we see each other every day .
- This is not what I'm talking about,seeing you without being able to ...
She left the sentence suspended and left his eyes. William then cleared his throat and stepped away from her a step , breaking contact.
Julia looked up at him and gave him a look of incomprehension yet he understood perfectly.
- If I stay so close ... you ... I ... I 'm afraid not to answer anything. You should really leave this office Doctor.
The young woman was a moment of hesitation, a moment where two voices in her head seemed an uphill struggle. Then suddenly one of them won the battle that had been silent for so long. She did not want to leave.
Doctor bit her lower lip for a moment , before giving her best smile to the one fowards her . She stepped quickly to come butter her body against his. Immediately, her hands sought the way to the nape of the detective and gently slid her fingers through his dark hair.
- You are married , William whispered , placing his hands on hers .
- But not with the right person, not with the one who haunts my days and nights . I'm not Mrs. Andrews, and you 're not Mr. Clark , William . We are alive and I do not want to lose you . Never.
She even gave him a look before closing her eyes and let her lips meet those of William .
The kiss was sweet for a few seconds before it becomes sour and greedy. Neither Julia nor William did not want to break it , desperately clinging to each other as a lifeline . It was far too long they had not felt what was happening in them at this time . It had been an eternity since they had not felt so alive.
Then , without knowing why, how, or even if what they did was very good, Julia drew William to the desk . They pondered over , nor where they were, or the fact that they were colleagues , or even the position in which the young woman was . The body approached , touched and discovered dangerously . Shortness of breath , William fell on his seat with Julia on his body without ceasing to taste her lips and her hot skin. They undressed each other in a hurry to finally know every inch of skin ' when the voltage was too high , everything that was on the desk of the detective shattered and welcoming the lovers for their first dance. That they had waited for so long.

They put several minutes to catch their breath , the young woman still sitting on the desk, pressed against the man standing over her body. Their hearts beat in unison , while they kept their eyes closed, their forehead resting against each other. Then, after a last kiss , the detective walked away and got dressed . Julia did the same, not giving any more look. They slowly regained feet in reality, this painful reality . Each in a corner of the room , trying to regain their senses , yet fearing to cross the eyes of others . Then finally Julia turned to his friend and approached him slowly . She put a hand on his shoulder so he looks , what he did against the heart , the guilty look and fleeing .
-William, murmured Julia throat tighten noticing his discomfort.
-I'm sorry , I should never have ... it was ... a moment of weakness on my part I ... regret .
- A moment of weakness? Julia replied stunned .
- It is better to forget what just happened , he said, walking away and turning his back , it was a serious mistake.
- Forget ? Repeated the young woman still stunned .
The detective did not answer nor even made the slightest gesture in her direction so she took a deep breath and headed for the door.
- I understand , she says .
She took her bag and put her hand on the handle before turning to the man she saw back yet .
- But I do not regret what happened detective , she said voice full of tears that would not let down her cheeks , and I am stunned at how much I seem to myself cheated on you for so long.
She did not give him time to respond he already heard the door slam behind her. He closed his eyes for a moment , feeling bubbling up inside . His heart cried out to him to leave the office and running to catch up to take her in his arms, yet he did not move . He took a glass jug that was on the table next to him and broke violently on the dark wood before seeing his blood flow to his hand on the ground.

He cursed himself for having said that, he cursed so he did not even feel the pain of his wound was bleeding , but he knew that was what he should do. He loved her , he could not put in this impossible situation. Pretend to forget was that there were better things to do , nobody would ever know . Nothing become to the reputation of the young woman , no one would ever know that he was crazy in love about her and that he had succumbed to the desire that consumed him for so long, this desire for a woman today married .
But he did not know that even if he would always do his best to anyone learn this moment of weakness, the minutes yet so important , the truth is always revealed, because a shadow had gone to the station number four, a shadow that they had not noticed , but had seen it all.

To be continued...