You're Wrong
Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi and am in no way associated with its production, cast, etc. except through my television.
Summary: Diary entries and personal accounts after … just read it.
It's almost as if they think I can't overhear them … laughing at me as I walk by while they pretend like they weren't whenever I turn around. I used to think it was jealousy that made them act like that towards me as if I was the one who had done something, like I was defective. But the more it happened, the more I considered my own humanness, my own flaws. Did I have too many? Was I the on with the problem rather than them?
That's why I started hanging out with Manny and Emma. I thought that if I camouflaged myself with them that no one would notice it. My awkwardness. My inability to belong, despite my aching to. I pretended that Manny and Emma were my best friends, intruding on their friendship, which at times filled the void that I developed over years of being invisible. I'd invite myself to their parties, budge in with my advice and thoughts even though no one really listened or cared. I hated how Emma would dismiss anything that I had to say and how Manny would call me weird all the time. Even more than that, I hated how they were all secretive … I was always the last to know about how Manny's date with Craig went and how Emma was falling for Sean all over again, but her mother had a sudden change of heart and didn't want her to have anything to do with Sean.
And then there was the fact that I knew Emma 1st … I should've known from way back in Middle School that all she truly cared about was herself and how she was going to fit her "friends" into her whole 'save the world' mold. Between that and Sean she'd completely forgot about everyone, even when Manny went through that whole reputation thing with Craig. People were so cruel to her and even wrote slut to her locker. But I was there because I knew that deep down, she was the same person … she was the younger sister that I always wanted, that I could talk to and call about almost anything.
And when I got attacked by one of my older sisters and thought I was going to die, she was the first one that I called. But now that that's been over for a few months now and Manny's relationship with Craig has become more and more stable, it has gone back to being all about Emma and Emma's next cause. All I know is that I'm so sick of everyone bending over backwards to please her as if she doesn't have enough support at home. But that'll change. Everyone will see the real Emma Nelson, how selfish and moochy she has been. Starting with Sean.
Always,
Liberty van Zant
(A/N: This started off as a way for me to vent about my no-good "friends" but I combined it with some things in Degrassi and made it total fiction. I hope you enjoy. I'll be having an entry from Jimmy and then Ellie … and I'll try to update every Tuesday starting next week. Review!! –NL)