On her own
Rachel sat in her apartment, alone; she sat in complete darkness by the window, looking out into the rain. Alone.
She turned and looked at her wedding ring on the table. It shone in the moonlight; she went over and placed it on her finger.
"I do" she said to herself, a tear rolled down her cheek. Rachel walked to her bedroom she passed the picture of the office Christmas party, she picked it up carefully, wiped another tear away and then threw it in the bin.
Rachel sat down on the floor, sobbing with a photo of herself and the love of her life. Rachel cried herself to sleep that night, as she did every night since he went and now she probably always will do.
The next morning Rachel stood up she placed the wrinkled picture in her bedside draw; she looked out of the window out into the rain, it seemed like it rained everyday since he went. Rachel picked up the phone and dialed Monica's number.
"Hello?" Monica's friendly voice came from the other line, Rachel put the phone down and sat by the window for another day of thinking of what could have been. She had shut the world out, apparently nothing mattered now until he came back.
2 weeks ago
"This is Gavin. He will be sharing your office with you for a while you can get to know each other better now I have to go…someone accidentally shipped 1000 shirts to personnel…bye" Rachel's Boss walked away.
"Hey I'm Gavin" Gavin said in his husky voice
"Rachel" Rachel said with a smile, Gavin lent over and kissed her on the cheek and smiled.
The phone rang.
"Ross?" Rachel said helplessly
"No it's phoebe do you want me to come roun…" Rachel put the phone down and went back to the window.
There was a knock on the door, Rachel walked over to the door; looked through the peephole, it was Monica. Rachel walked back to the window and stared at the rain flowing down the window.
Monica used her spare key and walked into the apartment, she looked across the room at Rachel.
"How are you doing?" Monica said softly as she walked over to Rachel.
"Did you give him the letter?" Rachel said still staring at the rain
"Sweetie, he didn't want it, he said it's the same every time he's stopped reading them" Monica said rubbing Rachel's shoulder
"Give him this the next time you see him" Rachel handed Monica a letter
"Ok I don't think he's going to read it though…" Monica said putting the letter in her purse. she stood up
"Take care," she said, Monica left the apartment.
Rachel held her head in her hands and started to cry as she remembered the good times that she and Ross shared. Rachel lifted her head up and looked at her apartment. It felt empty with out him, it was like he was part of her life, which in fact he was, and she had known him for so long and shared so many special moments together it felt wrong to be apart.
"I threw it all away" Rachel said to herself yet again more tears rolled down her cold cheeks.
1 week ago
Gavin leaned on Rachel and kissed her.
"No" gasped Rachel "I'm married"
"So am I" Gavin reassured Rachel and tried to kiss her again, Rachel pulled away
"I love my husband" Rachel said staring at him in disbelief
"But you're so hot, as am I" hushed Gavin
They kissed and Rachel let it happen. Within 2 days it had become an affair.
Rachel felt guilty the whole time, but Gavin was a human drug she wanted more…
When Rachel blinked she could see Ross, it felt like he was dead…but he was alive just not with her anymore "I took my chances…I ruined everything good in my life" she whispered; choked up with more tears.
"How could I be so stupid?" Rachel continued; she stood up and wondered around her apartment looking for her shoes, Once she found some she looked in the mirror and wiped away her tears; even though it was pointless she knew she was going to cry again.
Rachel walked into the city not knowing where to go she walked in the huge crowd that was off to work. She saw Ross.
"Ross!" Rachel shouted with tears in her eyes, voice shaking. A teenage boy turned around.
"You talking to me?" the boy said looking at Rachel with a puzzled look among his face.
Rachel burst into more tears and ran back to her apartment. Screaming with emotional pain she walked out onto the balcony but suddenly collapsed.
Rachel's dream"Goodbye" Rachel said as she picked up her bags.
"No you can't go" Ross said. He grabbed on to her hand
"There's nothing left for us anymore" Rachel said looking into his eyes
"Please, I'll make it work, please. I love you." Ross said in tears
"I love you too…" Rachel said letting go of her bag, she collapsed to the floor and threw her arms around Ross, they embraced
"Don't ever leave me…" Ross gasped with tears hugging harder
Rachel woke up dazed on her couch, she looked beside her, it was a note from Monica;
I found you on your balcony, try to get more sleep! M x
Rachel walked to her kitchen counter and saw she had 1 message on her answering machine
"Rachel, are you coming into work tomorrow? If no don't bother coming in at all, I'm going to have to let you go. I'm sorry what's happened with you and your husband but don't let it get in the way of work please, I'm counting on you. See you tomorrow. Hopefully…"
Rachel sighed and went to bed clutching her wedding picture, she began to cry, "till death do us part…"
End of chapter one
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